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posted December 08, 2004 04:25 PM         

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I had a nap this afternoon.. the dream was very full and long, and seemed to be stuffed to the gills with symbology.. I will try to put it down here....maybe disjointed.
I was the 'character', the main woman in the dream, but It wasn't relly me.. i felt as if it was a scene I was playing.. like I'd read it and it was familiar, and it was horrific in a disjointed sort of way.
A man was chasing me.. a menace. I was all through out a 'camp ground', isolated.. a building with all these walk in freezers, and I sensed that children/babies were in them.. the children were affected some way.. by something.. and that they went in there to hide.. but not die. I was running, and this guy chasing me was my lover apparently, but he had a knife in his hand and wanted to kill me. I had an inner sense of assurance that he wouldn't succeed, but still, I ran, I hid, I found all sorts of pathways in which to do it.. I knew I had something hidden in the freezer, some sort of child like thing.... And I didn't want him to get it. I ran but I knew I would come back when it was safe, to retrieve it.
I was in the woods, I saw him in the distance, he had 'recruited' a child who meant something to me, and I felt sick about it.. they were looking for me. I ducked down, very 'superhero'-ish,crouched in the leaves and rocks... saw that they were stalking me, and that I was far enough away to really give 'er and run. I ran stealthily, toward where I knew freedom would be... through all these leaves, though they didn't impede my journey. I went over this small wooden bridge, and ran to a large structure with a big parking area, and huge glass windows. I knew it was safe there.. a police station. I went inside, and though I felt safer, I was worried still, as I didn't see if I was followed, and the room I was in was so crowded with people. I wanted to tell the police about what was happening, but they didn't seem to take it with as much importance. I felt like I wasn't safe yet, but I could see the safety.. it was frustrating. The cop had a 'picture' of me.. (the me in the story) It was labeled all over , almost like a composite drawing, with teeth perfectly straight but they looked like chicklets... wierd.and i wasn't me.. I had long blond hair ( straight!!) and wow, I was beautiful...... There were comments penciled in, like a ledger, it seemed like he knew the story already.

Any ideas? Does that even sound right?

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posted December 08, 2004 04:51 PM         

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Hiding babies? Another ovary dream?

You are beautiful pixie. I'll give some thought to your dream, though I do not have a gift, like Ra.

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posted December 09, 2004 02:10 AM         

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Shouldn't you really have said ~
"I do not have the same gifts as Ra...?"
and yeah.. not many do.. but yours are plentiful nonetheless.
Laying it on thick.. but I adore you!

Wierd on the whole cycle/ovary/baby theme. I do not want anymore babies.. I am sure of it, now that I see one of my good friends with her infant... all the work and all the things to carry!!! Fogeddaboudit. I am past that stage now. *phew* * but it was so precious.. still is though....
I had freezer dreams before..... and I posted them here. What's with the storing things theme? I will get back to it later.... I am anxious to see if anyone can see something here that I am not seeing.
Of course, the being chased thing...
But you know, at the rosk of sounding like an ego maniac, whenever I am confronted, or chased, or in an otherwise 'bad' or vulnerable position in my dreams, I know, I am assured inside, that no harm will actually befall me... I know I will face what will come. I am not intimidated in my sleep.
Does that mean I am super confident??? I have moments ( which is why I have discovered I love the stage ) But otherwise, I am humble or i'll blow comments off for being over the top, even though I love them..... and I am as insecure with some things as the next person... I am just human. But in my dreams.. you wouldn't think so. Super psyche.. s that my true self and the rest is just a half truth???? If so.. I want some of that assurance!!!!!!
I wonder.

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posted December 09, 2004 04:40 AM         

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Hmmm ... well, we'll see how far my "gift" gets me with this one. (and that goes for Trillian's ovary dream too) Ms. Pixie is one of those people that I have difficulty interpreting for, or at least it feels that way. I do not know why this is, but it happens with a few.

Regardless though, I will of course give it some thought ... you never know. But I would love to hear if anyone else has ideas!

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posted December 09, 2004 11:22 AM         

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Oh Ra.. really? I am hard?
Poo. Sorry.. How can I make it easier for you.. Should I stop being so analytical????

*breathy voice* Call me Ms.Pixie again.

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posted December 09, 2004 12:47 PM         

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*in my deep voice* ... Ms. Pixie ... I do not want it easy. You just keep being you.

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posted December 09, 2004 04:19 PM         

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Oh well, okay.
**as if anyone had a choice in the matter**

Do you know that the combination of Leo and Libra.. and you have Pisces in there too, right? *swoon*
I don't know what it is........the combination is palpable.
Okay.. sorry *shakes head* I will stop flirting outrageously.

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posted December 09, 2004 08:01 PM         

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Pixie,
It occured to me that the babies in freezers, rather than being literal, could be ideas. Things you want to do, accomplish, which will remain babies, on hold in the freezer, till you are ready to let them grow. There is something that you fear, perhaps time itself (though obviously a male energy), which causes you to run and seek protection.
You know that there is nothing you can't conquer, but the source of the fear is still intimidating.

Perhaps this is why you dream of freezers, to check up on those 'babies' now and then, and to know that they are safe.

Dunno if this helps. But I know you have a wonderful life ahead of you.

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posted December 09, 2004 10:51 PM         

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Omigosh Trillian~
What was that about not having gifts?
That resonated so deeply...
I beleve you are right.
There are so many things I want to do.. things I even revisit in my waking life, and format them, seeing if they are do-able yet.
For instance, I also want to write a book, I want to do more original material in my band, I want to paint murals ( I have had opportunities, but no time) I want to patent an idea or two I have had for ever.... and it has yet to mnaifest from any other source.
I want to take up stained glass again.. I want to be able to devote more time to doing the things I have always felt expressed who I really am. The ideas will come like a passionate whirlwind.. such intensity.. and I will ride with them, even put them on the line by talking about it to loved ones.... When people hear or see the things that I do, they always *always* ay the same thing.... "What are you doing here?"
In fact, the main concern I have with my marriage is simply the fact that even though he says he loves that I am talented, I feel he doesn't support me in those talents.. he is afraid in seeking them, I will fall on my face, the bills will remain unpaid and we will lose something.. but I have always been a leap of faith person.. and reasonable enough to know I would work my patootie off in order to do something fulfilling to me. To us.
Support is something I need.. I resent it if I don't have it.... I need my mate not only to say "Wow, you are so good.." But Wow, you are so good, and I believe in you. Let's do this. If I have something urging me on, I will move mountains. if not, spite will sometimes suffice, but it burns instead of propelling.
Anyway... a whole can o' worms, and I thank you for that.
Because really.. it is a recurrent theme for me. I believe now is the time to pinpoint it as it feels right.
Yes!!!!!

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posted December 10, 2004 12:49 AM         

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Beautiful Trillian! Bullseye.

Thank you very much.

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posted December 10, 2004 07:39 PM         

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Pixie, if I was able to help, I'm glad. The sky is the limit for you. Don't let anything hold you back from your dreams. As women, we often let men guide our worlds, because we love them. Perhaps what your husband fears more than unpaid bills, is that he will lose you to your dreams. Perhaps he believes that he hasn't the same type of dreams that will keep up with yours. I don't know your husband, so please, don't think I'm insulting him. He recognized what a beautiful creature you are, so he's obviously a bright guy. But change can be scary for us all, and when he sees you pursuing your dreams, it may be scary for him. Men often mask their fears with anger/control...which I perhaps is the 'menace'in your dream.

I have no doubt that you have much to give to the Universe, Pixie.

Ra

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posted December 11, 2004 03:21 AM         

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Oh Trilian, do you even know how much you mean to me? I truly believe what you say. I fully believe that you know my spirit through here. I so love that you believe in me. It's a hard world to face when the one who says they believe in you, and the one you live your life with has to qualify it so much. It makes me think it is true.. the actual failure and possible failure.
Thank you for believing in me.. you might not know how much it means to me.
I you.

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posted December 12, 2004 12:22 PM         

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Yes, Pixie has much to offer.

Anger/control ... yes, these are represented in the dream by the 'menace' and even more so by the knife that he holds.

Be strong Pixie.

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