posted February 02, 2005 12:54 AM         

In my dream, I was a young asian man... around 20 years of age or so... I saw 'myself' in a mirror and I looked Japanese/Korean, quite attractive, tall and a little skinny. I knew I was in a foreign country. I was driving this car, and I was in this huge car crash. I actually got up and walked out of my car after this happened (in the dream). I felt really weird. Like, my lower abdomen hurt in this heavy dull way. It seemed like there was a lot of pressure down there. So there I was, wandering around, and I found myself in this huge building... some kind of hospital. I walked into one of the operating theatres, and it was like this huge lecture hall with stadium seats, filled with med students in white coats, and an Indian doctor, also in a white coat. It was like something out of history (a very SCARY history!). There was this gross, scary looking table in there in the center of this room, and the doctor was like, get on the table, let;s do the operation here. And then I realized he was going to operate on me then and there- like some sort of 'practical' exposure for the students! I totally freaked, and was like, no way in HELL am I getting on that thing! He was like, well, you're got a very badly damaged kidney, so you probably should, cause you aren;t going to last much longer walking about like that. So finally, I consented. They put this mask on my face and I fell asleep (in my dream! How weird is that!!!) When I woke up, I was in this bed, but I still felt the same. There was this same horrible painful pressure below my navel, by my kidneys. There was all this blood that was leaking out of... well... to put it politely, a posterior orifice. I staggered over to this nurse, and she said very coolly that this was quite common when one had suffered massive internal injuries in the lower abdominal area. She put me back to bed, and I just lay there bleeding. She came back in a bit and told me that the doctor said I would probably live for a few more hours. I continued to lie there, until I literally felt myself drift away from myself (the young asian man). Then I woke up. I could still feel tinges of the pain that I had felt in the dream, and I was thoroughly freaked out. That was the most disturbing dream I've had in ages.

Personally, I thought the dream maybe signified that I thought that I was being mistreated by others around me? Or maybe that there was nobody willing to help me in my current environment.

posted February 09, 2005 01:57 PM         

I am tempted to say that this is some sort of memory from a past-life in which you were killed and the confusion you experienced during the transition into the after-life. But who could say.

Seen from a purely symbolic perspective, it could be suggested that you were witnessing some 'foreign' (asian man) aspect of self (mirror), a part of you or your experience that you are unable to accept or that has been repressed, or that you have otherwise not acknowledged, especially on an emotional or instinctual level (damage to abdomen). It could be suggsted that this repressed material is doing some damage to you internally, that it is draining energy/life from you (bleeding), and that you may be unconscious or unaware of it (posterior orifice).

What is causing you pain? (not physically)

posted February 11, 2005 03:38 AM         

I'll have to give it another look from a different perspective. If you have any insight in the mean time, please share!