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greycat
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From: Australia
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted March 14, 2005 03:38 AM
 
I had a dream last night that i found really disgusting.... Here it is:
I was standing somewhere with this girl taht i know and talk if we meet sometimes. I'm not close to her, she's more a stranger to me than anything else. I asked her for a smoke and she gave me a cigarette. I started "smoking" but i was actually eating. It had stump but the food was growing from it, a really big sandwich and i was eating it but then i saw saliva in it!!!! I looked at her and she said "it's mine.." and i nodded as if i didn't mind and continued eating, and i was actually enjoying it. I mean, i didn't really really enjoy it because i was thinking why is it in there but then at the same time i didn't care and every time she would look at me i would eat with enjoyment. I remember biting it, like i was hungry for a very long time, like it was something i needed. Then i ate it and i was licking my fingers. The suddenly i was playing tennis with my old friends that i didn't see for a couple of years. I used to play tennis when i was younger and i could say i was pretty good at it but then i moved to Australia and never played again. I was soo happy and i thought "geeze, i didn't hold the racket for so long but i'm still good at it". Whenever i hit the ball i would somehow release myself from all the worries. Actually i don't know what but it was like a relief.. I saw the trainer and asked him "can i get back to the club?" he didn't really answer me.. he was saying something like i don't know, you left us before when we needed you... But when i left the club he wasn't there, i had another trainer. I woke up then.
The second dream didn't really matter but the first one! The whole day today i can't eat. I'm disgusted! It never happened to me to dream or even think about it. What could that mean?????IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted March 15, 2005 02:04 PM
Hi greycat  I'll get to this as soon as possible.  IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted March 16, 2005 04:02 AM
The first part of the dream could easily represent a need for sexual energies, or some sort of nurturing, emotional dynamic. Could this be true? About the girl, what do associate with her in waking life?The second part of the dream could actually mean the same thing. All together, it looks like you are in need of ("it was something I needed") some kind of emotional release ("release myself"/"it was like a relief"). What is missing in your life? What do you need? IP: Logged |
greycat
Knowflake Posts: 77
From: Australia
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted March 17, 2005 09:18 AM
Geeze, you are so good at this.. Ummm yeah, you are right... I feel somehow lonely sometimes although i've got so many people around me and i ask myself the same question.. what is wrong with me... why can't i just be happy with what i've got... sometimes i think that i'm still living in the past or i'm waiting for it to come back. I don't know...
As for the girl.. Well, i hardly spoke to her, she's younger than me a couple of years... and i always see her around the uni, shopping centres and we've got a same friend. Once she asked me so i gave her a lift because she lived in my area. We didn't have much things to talk about... Then i saw her at friend's once, i was leaving though and when i said bye she said "i love you! bye.." When i was going home i was thinking of the way she said that she loved me! and why would anyone say "i love you" to a person they don't really know... i don't know lol i just found her somehow weird and childish.. She lives in those rosy worlds and anyone could persue her to believe what they believe. that dream.. i don't know, it's just... disgusting hehe to me... IP: Logged |
greycat
Knowflake Posts: 77
From: Australia
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted March 18, 2005 01:02 PM
Ra! I had a dream that i was in a church and there were many people but i was going out of the church wearing a long old skirt that had apron and i had apples in them! big green apples... i was a step away from getting out and i dropped them all. people around me were muttering "that's ok, you don't have to worry much about that" but it sounded like solace, not really meaning it.. i picked them up and wanted to get out and a fat man dressed in black near the door that was the whole time looking at me stopped me and said "ohhh no one drops the apples here!" they were all somehow worried about me dropping them & i seemed somehow lost because i didn't know what that meant. and suddenly i found myself wandering around.. there were many naked trees... i knew something bad was going to happen and i was thinking about my family... i can't recall everything but i think i was worried that something bad will happen to them...
Ra, please what is this??? it was more like a nightmare than anything else. I'm a christian but i don't go to church often... and i don't like apples... but they played a big role in my dream... what do you think?IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted March 18, 2005 01:51 PM
Sounds like a very stressful dream. You are really feeling anxiety about something ... not sure what yet. I'll have to give it some thought.Are you concerned about failing? Do you feel guilty about something? ... some thought or deed? Have you been thinking about, or struggling with, your spirituality? And again with the feeling of being alone or lonely, separated from others by some sort of transparent, unrecognizable barrier. An emotional separation that seems to cut very deeply.   IP: Logged |
greycat
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posted March 19, 2005 11:12 AM
I don't know... I don't feel guilty about anything though i am scared of failing... Failing in everything.. dunno why... Although i don't go to church often i am a religious person. When i was really young i found a book "prayer-book for children" and i had religious as a subject so i kind of got used to saying a prayer and stuff pretty often. But whole my life i've been going to church for only few times a year... but i don't feel guilty... 
I don't know.. i seem to be depressed all of the time, i can't fit in here... and sometimes i get a feeling that the whole world is falling apart and i can't handle it anymore, nothing seems right, something misses and i can't pretend that everything's fine no longer...
Thanks Ra
All of my dreams are somehow the same and silly... I always know that there's no light in them but i always hope for my subconscious to tell me that the world is not as black as it seems... Anyway... 
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Angels don't exist so you could break their wings!!! IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted March 22, 2005 01:57 PM
Your dreams are not silly. There is light, it is just hidden behind the darkness, behind the depression. So the dream is not about guilt (I posed that question because of the apples/church), it is about your fear of failure (dropping apples) and your sense of not belonging anywhere.This is not about religion or beliefs (as a church can suggest). It is about the way you feel ... how you feel disconnected with any truly divine source, as if you have been dropped on this planet with no help, without anyone to share with, without anything to belong to.  I know how you feel. You said, "sometimes i get a feeling that the whole world is falling apart and i can't handle it anymore." ... ie, dropping the apples. ------------------------
I hesitate to post this, but, off the record, I hear that changes are coming for you ... that you will look back on these dreams and at this time, and you will barely recognize those dark feelings. There is light in your future, relatively near, and when the dawn of it breaks, it will quickly burn away the darkness. It will come upon you unexpectedly, just when you think there is no point in trying to find it. Your future self is already there, experiencing the joy of it ... if you reach out with your mind, with your feelings, you may be able to catch a glimpse, perhaps even bring it closer.
------------------------- Please, keep telling me your dreams. Light will soon be showing more obviously in them (as opposed to hidden/covered by your internal conflict, as it is now), and then we will know that the change is near. IP: Logged |
greycat
Knowflake Posts: 77
From: Australia
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted March 22, 2005 07:17 PM
Thank you Ra, I really hope so.
"I hesitate to post this, but, off the record, I hear that changes are coming for you ... " How??? Where???
Ok, I'll try to remember the dreams and keep you posted, thank you very much... It is very difficult and thanks for understanding ------------------
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Ra
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posted March 25, 2005 04:12 AM
It's going to be alright.  IP: Logged | |
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