posted April 17, 2005 03:08 PM         

There was a man who created this whole world in his head that was so real they materialized into this world. He had been hurt before by people and he thought he was only misunderstood even though he was actually quite wicked so that's why he created this world in the first place.

In the world he created he wsa a typical family man. He had a wife and a few kids and they lived in a perfect little house. I was in another family (in the real world - not his) that used to know him, I guess. I went by the road by his house one day (since it had materialized) and he came out to greet me with his family saying it was so good to see me and it had been so long and he had changed and changed for the better!

Well I wanted to believe that but didn't quite. Sometimes his family would appear on these television monitors in front of me and sometimes they would be like solid people. I went inside to talk to his wife. Hunter was with me and my husband, too (at least a dream husband - he wasn't familiar to me in waking life). My husband went to go talk to the guy. Hunter stayed with me and played with one of the younger kids.

I talked to the wife for a while and she seemed alright although a bit Stepford. I went to check on Hunter and the little boy he was playing with was crying. Apparently the kid wanted to create a little brother for Hunter on the computer which was how all his siblings had been made (a mind computer). So the little boy didn't know anything about pregnancy and all and he couldn't figure out how to make another sibling for Hunter because Hunter was actually a real kid (which he didn't know, of course, because he thought they were all real).

So I started in motion the plan to end all of this because I thought it was wrong and I tried to teach the little boy and his mother about life and pregnancy because I thought if I did they would realize something was strange in their world. It wasn't that I wanted to destroy them because they were already material for the most part but I wanted to free them.

I kept trying to type 'pregnancy' into the computer on Yahoo to bring it up but the keyboard wouldn't type it because it was forbidden by the big brain that controlled it so as not to educate his family. I kept trying but to no avail.

Somehow the man came back (I don't know where Hunter and my husband went but they were gone - I wasn't worried about them or anything) and something had snapped in him. I think one of his family members was realizing things weren't as they should be. I was now in his mind and I didn't know how to get out. He was irate and wanted to start his mind family all over again. He grabbed the newborn baby and the toddler by the feet and started bashing them against the walls and structures to knock everything down and kill the kids at the same time so he could start over with a new mind family. It was actually really horrific. The mother was trying to stop him at first but then started to focus on the other children in the family to save them. She started to bless them in the special pool just in case they died because she wanted them to go to heaven. They were all wearing primitive garb like cavemen all of a sudden and the man had been wearing a hat thing on his head to keep him from realizing his own family was in his own head but he threw it off since it wasn't working anymore. Very violent scene here with people and kids screaming and just evil evil...

Suddenly it was at night at the house and there was some posh party going on. Everyone was dressed up and it looked like in late 1800's or early 1900's gear. The man had a different mind family and I was still stuck in his head. I was a young woman and talking to his daughter who was about 16 or 17. There was an older son there who was about 19 who knew some of the secrets of the family but only on a vague level. There was a tall wrought iron fence around the house that was forbidden to pass. I was determined to pass it because I knew it would set them free.

I convinced the teen daughter to come with me although she thought she would be going just to meet a boy in the typical rebelious teen spirit. She had no idea how things would change.

We were sitting on the porch and the older son came out to see what we were doing. There was a hole in the fence that he noticed and he went to fix it but while he was doing that we ran for the gate. He turned to see us and started screaming "NOOO! NOOOOO!" He was so despereate about it the girl almost stopped but I pulled her along and urged her with me and we left the property.

The way that I understood it then was that we were now in the man's brain and we had to find our way to the central station to shut it down and free everyone. The rest of his brain was mapped out like a city because that's how he made sense of things. Thing is the rest of the city was not a conscious decision of his so it wasn't his perfect little world like the house was. It was gritty and full of crime because he was really not a nice man to begin with so it showed his true character.

We found a bus going the direction we wanted to go in but we were escorted on by this really tall, muscular blonde guy in a tight grey tshirt. The whole bus was a big orgy and I felt bad that the teen girl with me would be corrupted like that but I didn't care about myself because I knew it was still all taking place in this guy's head so I'd play along until I got where I wanted to go and stopped all of it.

posted April 18, 2005 03:55 PM         

I do write them all down! I don't think a TV network would know what to do with them, though.

posted April 20, 2005 12:49 AM         

Okay, these are just some impressions I get while reading over your dream, BloodRedMoon. Regardless, it certainly would making a good book/short story.

posted April 20, 2005 04:02 AM         

Can you see what I mean?

It could also be suggested that your situation is part of a larger karmic cycle, but I suppose that goes without saying.

posted May 09, 2005 01:50 PM         

Eleanore ~ amazing insight you bring to this and thank you so MUCH!!

do you know anyone in your waking life who seems like a sort of spiritual fraud?
Oh who knows? That could be so many people I know, you know? It would be difficult for me to narrow it down to one probably. But maybe I am cynical lately.

Have you become more aware of a need for you or those around you to become more pure/positive in their thoughts and intentions?
I feel like I have that need for myself quite often. It doesn't always work.

Have you been getting more in touch with archetypically "dark" feminine energies?
Strangely - YES. I actually wrote in my Live Journal about this a week or two before the dream.

Ra ~
You're completely right and I didn't even notice it.