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posted April 18, 2005 04:34 PM         

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Recently this guy that I've liked has entered my life and wants to begin a relationship. It's all heading in a positive direction yet I'm beig hesitant as I generally am about these things. I'm nervous and constantly looking for the slightest caution signs as an excuse to run away. This is a trend with me in relationships. I guess it's from inexperience that I'm stuck in this limbo.

So lastnight before I fell asleep I asked for a solution to my fear of relationships. And then I dreamt up some dramatic dream with tons of symbolism. I feel to emotional about the situation to disect the dream with accuracy.

The dream begins and it's my birthday. My party is in a cement basement barely decorated. Some family and friends are there but he is not. I'm upset about this and find one of his friends to ask where he is. His friend tells me that he thought I didn't want him to come so he didn't show up. But then all of a sudden he walks in with my immediate family. Then my friends ex boyfriend (who was supposedly abusive) starts yelling at me, and hits me. This scares me so I leave my own party.

Then all of a sudden I'm outside of the apartment that I'm going to live in next year. But in the dream it's not my apartment it's his apartment. I feel an urgency to see him but I realize in order to get to the top floor, where he lives, I have to climb several stairs. The stairs are steep, with cracks in between steps. As I approach the top apartment a section of the stair case gives from under me. I somehow manage to grab on to something to hold on, and then I finally make it to the door. I get into the apartment and it is filthy, there is a stream of green mucky water filled with garbage. And it is all in his bedroom (which will in reality be my apartment next year) He seems embarassed by the mess but I'm sympathetic to him. Despite the pollution in the living environment there is nothing wrong between us. Everything feels ok.

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posted April 20, 2005 04:14 AM         

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Hello scorpbaby

I think you explained your dream quite well in your opening paragraph. It definately reflects a beginning with the guy (birthday), your inexperience (barely furnished), and your nervous tendency to look for "the slightest caution signs as an excuse to run away" (friend's ex scares you away), which is some sort of subconscious response (basement). The steep, cracked stairs reflect the difficulty you are having with yourself in reaching out for this relationship, the anxiety you experience, and the filthy apartment could be another caution sign/excuse.

But, if you are looking for an answer to your 'problem', I would look to the last two sentences ... "Despite the pollution in the living environment there is nothing wrong between us. Everything feels ok."

Okay?

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posted April 20, 2005 04:28 PM         

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It's amazing how clear things become when you give them a second look...Thanks Ra! The answer was in the last lines.

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posted April 20, 2005 11:00 PM         

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Good luck with the new relationship...keep us posted!

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posted April 21, 2005 04:01 AM         

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Definately keep us posted.

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