posted April 20, 2005 11:35 AM         

So here they are:

I was in the apartment of a guy I used to date (gemini, not the same as THE ex) in Boston. It was like a flash back to when we were together, not present day. Somehow the ex was involved with the scene, but I don't remember how. It kind of kept switching from that apartment to a parking lot. I was pregnant in the dream, but I wasn't sure who the father was... as in the dream I was involved with both men, but the part with THE ex was present day... so it was a weird time flux. I told the Boston guy that I was going to get an abortion, and THE ex that I got my period, so we didn't have to worry. Then the two scenarios melded into one, and the Boston guy said: ''I thought you said you got an abortion.'' I said ''I was going to, but I got my period, so I didn't end up having to.'' He was all mad about it, and somehow, I knew I was never really pregnant at all.
Then the parking lot scene was PRESENT day, I was walking and saw THE exes best friend. I yelled at him to say hi, and there was the ex next to him. He said ''I can't talk to you, I know you just want to get back with me.'' I said that I didn't, that I was very much in love with my current bf (a Libra) and that he had to get over it. He then said that his gf wouldn't care even if I did have somebody... she would still be upset about it. I was really hurt by this, and then turned around to get into my car, but I couldn't find it. I was looking for my old red car that I haven't had for almost two years. Then I woke up.

This dream is from last night.

I was in a basement, but it was refinished like an apartment. I remember it looking kind of dated, like, with old brown shag carpeting and furniture that seemed reminicent of my grandmothers house when I was a kid... (again with the 70's style green and rust colors) It was a cross between my exes basement and the basement of a guy I dated when I was 17. (first person I ever thought I 'loved', btw). I was there with him, and we had gotten back together. (he's a Leo) He was wearing a red shirt, and looked just like he did back then (he has since gained weight and facial hair in the interm of the past 7 years). We were so happy. All kissy and cuddly and having a great time. I remember we were lying half on the floor, and half on this oddly shaped couch, when the ex came in. It was a set-up... Steve (the Leo) had asked the ex to come over so he and I could talk. He thought it would be a good idea to hash it out with him and make sure he was okay with 'us' being a couple again. (BTW, the ex and Steve were very good friends when I dated both of them... it was not awkward when I began dating the ex, just for reference) The ex was really upset and said that he was not impressed that he had to hear about Steve and I through someone else. I reminded him that it was his decision that we no longer speak, that his gf would freak if she knew we were talking, and he said: ''Yeah, she'll probably tear your head off if she saw us together. But that doesn't mean we can't be friends.'' I thought about it, but there was this weird voice inside that told me I shouldn't be around either of the men, that the one for me was inside... dark haired and the color red flashed in my eyes when I tried to picture him. Then I woke up.

See.... very weird how they are like, the opposite of each other, but still about the same thing practically, and a bit like the River dream.

posted April 21, 2005 04:06 AM         

I'll try to get back to you soon. (gotta 3 day weekend coming up, so I won't be here)

posted April 28, 2005 04:29 AM         

Well, I think you're right. These dreams are about the same thing, and very much related to the River dream.

Both of these dreams illustrate your past relationships and the connection you have/had with each. I think the main point being made is that the connection you have/had with the Ex was/is different than with the others, thus making 'parting' with him both emotionally and subconsciously different. For instance, the first dream suggests that you dropped the Boston guy with little problem (you "aborted" it), but it suggests that the Ex relationship may have ended as part of a larger cycle (period), and that, while you are moving past that relationship, there are still energies - love/spiritual energies - connecting the two of you (red car) ... even if the connection is only on a spiritual level, threads of emotion still remain (can't find old red car).

The second dream is very similar, but with an interesting difference. In this one the "love torch" is symbolically being passed ... from your first love in the red shirt, leading to resolving "unfinished business" with the Ex (in the previous dream, the red car), which then leads to the red of the "one for you" in the present/future.

So, like the River dream, these dreams are about how you are moving beyond the Ex, and about the strings that still connect you.

posted May 11, 2005 06:54 PM         

sometimes I wish we had never gotten together...