posted June 08, 2005 01:05 AM         

I am sleeping in my room. Its early morning.
I see a small girl peeping throug windows. Suddenly she put her head through door..!
i woke up suddenly and the girl hided. When i checked the door, i saw the door was broken.
I came out and saw my landlord's servant washing cloths outside. I felt angry cuz my sleep was broken. I yelled at her and she was frightened. then i felt pity and explained her y i needed sleep on a saturday morning.
I went somewhere and was returning to room.i saw two women sleeping in my room. i was surprised how they got the key. i was impatient and i woke them up (though i felt guilty to wake them up in sleep). I went out to complain to landlord but met my bf anf his sister on the way. they were going to another room to meet a friend.
i also went with them. Some kind of celebration was going on there. i wanted to talk to my bf. while returning i invited him to room. he refused saying he has to drop sis back. i wished to tell him : come, i wanted to make love to u..!
i came back to room and found my old college room mate. she was narrating old days.
then we decided to cook a dish, but chaged to cook chapati since the flour was not set properly. i added water to wheat flour but the mix got dried immediately. Now my school friend was with me cooking. i left the cooking and went to my bedroom where a class was going on.Music was being played and teacher was quizzing. i sat a while and went back to kitchen. now i was able to cook chapati.
when i come out of the kitchen, i hear a women saying this: "He went to meet the sick man".
i can see a man who is on bed. He is all red. Even the surroundings also in red. I dono if it is blood. I can see his heart beating outside. Then another man with long hair goes near his bead and holds his hand. I only saw him from back side. He said something to the wounded(?) man.
Then i hear the women saying: "He accepted the sick man's wounds". Her voice was choking with emotion. Then i saw a Red & yellow painting of a man's chest.While i was watching, the painting turned to complete red & I saw a heart beating and felt a unexplainable pain inside.
The woman was narrating again: He went to see the girl who was raped. He comforted her and came back. but he left her with her uncle and came back.
at this point the narrator was crying out, so i felt it was the uncle who was the rapist.
I also cried. I asked why did he leave her there.

posted June 09, 2005 09:27 AM         

To cook is to prepare nourishmnet or to satify a hunger, whether yours or others. It could also symbolise creativity.

Music in a dream is an expression of your inner self and connection with life. To hear music suggests that you have the potential to make that association. Music can also represent a sensuous and sensual expereince.

The heart is the centre of the being and represents "feeling" wisdom rather than intellectual wisdom. It can also represent compassion and understanding.

To look at a painting could indicate paying attention to ideas and concepts of which you have not been conscious of.

A bed represents a form of spiritual sanctuary and a sense of purity.

The common thread that is running through your dream seems to be one of creativity closely linked to spirituality. Does this somehow link to your waking life?

posted June 13, 2005 12:33 PM         

Yang and Aus make some good points, and my thoughts are similar yet definately with some differences. Out of all of these possibilities, we should be able to come up with something.

This dream is about the 'dawning'/emergence of unconscious material (sleeping/small girl). Some experience from your past (small girl) is "peeping" into your awareness (window/door), beginning to enter (peeps head through door), but when you turn your attention towards it (wake up) it retreats back into your subconscious (girl hid) It is difficult for you to grasp what this unconscious material may signify, and it seems you may not be able to control where or when this material emerges (broken door).

Connected with this emerging unconscious material is your desire to feel whole, to feel loved, to be complete (want to make love), but this is yet to be (he refused) as there are issues to attend to and more learning required before this can happen (cooking doesn't work, then you sit in class, then you are able to cook) ... it seems there may be something you need to learn to create.

The last part of the dream seems to indicate the "heart" of the issue, of the emerging unconscious material, and it is awash with intense emotional energies (everything is red). Healing is required here (man/healer) but first the "wounds" must be "accepted", acknowledged, understood. It is only then that you can overcome your fear (yellow), allowing the intense emotional energies to run their course (painting turns all red). Because you have not yet acknowledged the issue which causes these emotions, or are unaware of it, the "pain inside" is "unexplainable".

The very last scene seems to suggest that which is at the root of the issue, and although you say you were never sexually abused, I wonder why you fear it. Maybe the rape in the dream is symbolic of some other type of abuse or personal violation?

How does all of this feel to you?

posted June 30, 2005 04:14 AM         

Your body is releasing repressed unconscious energy, with or without you. It must really need a vent, so I imagine the abuse you mentioned must have cut very deeply, more than you are aware of, or are able to cope with at the moment. But at least you are aware, aware of the possibilities, because this is the seed of healing.