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posted June 24, 2005 01:41 PM         

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ok the last week ive had terrible nightmares but last night out did it i was driving with my one teacher he teaches english and i was with my friend all the ppl in the small bus were on their way to some type of camp and then when we reached our destination me and the friend were dropped of at this prison i was horrified the whole trip i had such a fabulous conversation with him but right before he dropped me of he asked if boys and girls should be judged equally? (didnt understand the question but i replied that if depends on the situation and a person should be judged according) anyway there was many plants i got inside and then the friend changed to someone else i know i dont like her now but we used to be friends when i was little anyway i panicked and wanted to escape but i walked on up stairs into a bathroom but i didnt even walk in i saw a girl cut herself or at least there was blood i didnt even realise how in shock i was i just thought to myself stay calm u gotta get out of here i walked down the stairs and then i saw this lady standing there cleaning up the dust and she said becareful the stairs is old and its broken i walked down and out the door and i woke up but the dream continued even though i thought about the dream while i was awake trying to figure out how i couldve escaped (cause the prison wasnt like a real prison it didnt have locks and stuff)when the dream cont. i went out the door but it started over like before they got me at my house to take me there i was anxious and trying to escape but since there was ppl around it wasnt possible i tried to walk away but its like my mother was with me the whole time and i didnt understand all i remember is walking down a road and every thing happened that i dreamed in my dream as i walked it was quite weird but when they got me my mom helped me pack and i protested when i got there i felt beyond abandoned just thinking about this makes me cry its a lot of emotion in the dream anyway there were a few rooms i could choose the one was a pink room and the other in the middle just ordinary with covers and a blanket on the bed the room wasnt private everyone walked through it and i came aware of the bed covers and i was so disgusted thinking that all the sick and crazy ppl had them as theirs and i wanted to have my own from home but at the same time i didnt want it to be that permanent and i was standing there to my right the blue room there was a woman who cleaned the room and she said hi to me trying to make conversation then i saw how full of dust the bed is and i immediately walked out i wanted the pink room but someone else took it i was upset and wanted the other room with so much light but it wasnt private enough and i walked back to the blue room and the cleaning lady said i can tell ull take this one ull get used to the dust its not that bad it felt like it was out of a movie or it sounds that way what does this mean am i going crazy this dream made me feel insane i remember as i walked on the road it was very hot and i say another black woman with 2 little blonde girls they all were beautiful and she was so kind

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posted June 24, 2005 01:43 PM         

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i distinctly remember as i woke up of one of the dreams i cried to the state where i realised i was awake and thought to myself what the hell but i kept on in anyway

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posted June 25, 2005 02:41 AM         

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Gem Girl
The sense I got was that you're holding alot of emotions inside at the moment...alot of feelings imprisoned within...although not locked away & all the cleaning references suggested to me that you want to get it out, so you can have some clean, light & comfortable mind space...have you got someone you can really talk to? you know like letting it ALL out, without feeling judged or vunerable? Getting it all out in the open & out of the dark dirty rooms, really does make it easier, I know from personal experience

Big Hug!
hope this helps a little.
Aus

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posted June 25, 2005 07:11 PM         

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hi aud thanx guess i wont be having these type of dreams if i had someone to chat to and i think ur pretty spot on and i now realise how many things there is that bothers me i mean i feel it non stop just dont know what they are crazy isnt it

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posted June 27, 2005 01:41 PM         

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I rarely have nightmares. I wonder if that means something? Nightmares are usually symbolic and are definitely trying to tell us something.

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posted June 27, 2005 06:33 PM         

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Randall.. I rarely have nightmares either!

When I have a feeling of being 'attacked', I always know I will survive.
I always have an inner assurance that I will be okay.
Isn't that neat?

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posted June 28, 2005 02:09 AM         

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Gem
If you ever need a shoulder to cry on or an ear to vent to..just mail me...I'll give my new e-mail addy to Randall so he can pass it to you...never feel alone girl, 'cause there are people out there who care.

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posted June 28, 2005 02:20 AM         

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okay....I just tried to send my details via the "contact us" click but it came up with a "forbidden"....Randall, I'm not sure what's going on here, but if you could contact me I would like to make my addy available....I'm not sure I still have your direct e-mail addy to contact you directly.
cheers
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posted June 30, 2005 01:55 PM         

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Aus, that is very kind of you.

GG and I have spoken via e-mail, but I sure think she could use someone else to talk to, a woman. Thank you.

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posted June 30, 2005 02:34 PM         

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hi aus thanx really appreciate it sorry life has been crazy but im on holiday i need to relax but unfortunately fail in doing so

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