posted July 17, 2005 07:38 AM         

I had an awful dream yesterday. I wonder if it has anything to do with my state of mind or something in the atmosphere… The energy is heavy around me…

I was in a house watching TV with a middle aged woman I was sharing the house with. It was dark, late at night. The house was empty apart from us two, silent. The lights were off, only the TV was on…

Then I started to feel anxious, really uncomfortable and uneasy, not because I heard anything… just a feeling, a growing feeling of fear… I thought there was someone in the house…

A bit fearful I went to check all rooms outside. My house mate wouldn’t give it any importance and got on watching TV… I had a quick look around and didn’t find anyone so I went back to the living room with her…

After a short time I decided to go to bed. I left the room and when I was heading towards the stairs to go uptstais to my bedroom, I saw themain door was wide open. An awful thought assailed me… I knew he was there when he suddenly came out from the next door pitch black room…

A burglar? I don’t know… He was a tall man, taller than me, and very stout, with a fixed cruel stare. I tried to run but he caught up with me in another room. I turned on the light to be able to see him. I had no scape… I tried to shout to get attention from my house mate, but my voice couldn’t raise enough… I was so terrified… I had a knot inside… I knew he was gonna kill me, there was no way out… My house mate couldn’t hear me…

posted July 27, 2005 04:17 AM         

I've been on vacation ... sorry to have kept you so long. I'll read this dream over more closely as soon as I can, but a couple of questions come to mind ...

Have you been feeling anxious about your age, or about aging, lately?

Something intrusive and threatening has entered your life or your thoughts ... what is it? What is "terrifying" to you (at the time of the dream)?

... back soon.

posted July 27, 2005 03:22 PM         

I found out that you were on hols right after I posted this thread… So I knew I’d had to wait… No worries! Did you have a nice holiday? Where did you go?

Regarding my dream, yes, I’ve started to feel anxious about my age… My 1st Saturn Return is coming, I’d be 30 in a couple of years… And I’m still going back and forward with my life, without a master plan or any emotional security for the future… Have you been reading my posts in other threads or did you just extract it from the symbology of my dream? If you did the latter…WOW!!!!

What does actually the beating means? What about the cruel stranger? The house in the dark? The older woman living with me?

posted July 29, 2005 01:39 PM         

"What does actually the beating means? What about the cruel stranger? The house in the dark? The older woman living with me?"

All of the symbols in this dream are parts of yourself. You are "beating yourself up". The cruel stranger is your fears. The house is in the dark because this is a "dark" area of thoughts/images (tv) about your life. The older woman living with you, is you. She is the "older"/future aspect of self who has no concern or interest in the fears of your present. In fact, she seems to have everything under control, well equipped to handle any "threat".

Maybe your dream is hinting that you shouldn't worry so much ... because you won't be worried about it in the future.

Just some thoughts ... make any sense?

posted July 31, 2005 09:13 AM         

Something tells me I shouldn’t worry, that everything will be all right… That unconscious me, that weird certainty that I never understood, seems to know that what I’m looking for is right around the corner… But I do, consciously, I only see myself growing old every day, getting close to 30 while my youth is running out and I’m still on my own… I’ve been feeling trapped, as if I was in a countdown… As if I only had a few years left to get hold of what I need for the next stage… As if I was dying or was gonna die… LIKE IN THE DREAM!!!

posted July 31, 2005 11:55 AM         

Either way, I think you're going to be just fine. You are a considerate, intelligent, beautiful person ... how could it be otherwise?