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lela
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Registered: Aug 2005
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posted October 05, 2005 05:23 PM
 
Hi Ra, i see that you really get to the bottom of dreams and i would really love it if you could help me understand this one. it made me feel so disgusting.i'm not sure where it starts but its basically my brother being tortured(i think the beginning is a bit hazy)but i don't remember any particular feeling i had about it like maybe it was just talked about but i didn't see it. then next thing we're (my brother and i) are on the verandah in the garden of our house and we have guests come over a family of four (with two boys). my brother starts torturing a girl in the garden under the clothes hanger, but at first i don't seem to notice even though i'm constantly thinking about it. i then 'break' and start screaming and screaming at him to stop and telling him that he will kill her and asking him whether he wants that! she's lying there face down and i know that he has kicked her and cut her but i haven't actually seen any of it and she isn't bleeding, shes' just lying face down and now moving at all, but i know she's still alive. and he has this depraved look on his face. i threaten to call he police but he has a sledgehammer in his hands and he looks down at me ( i am on the ground and he is REALLY tall) and i get scared. the older of the visiting boys was also doing it. then right when i think that they will stop, the little boy runs to her limp body and sprays shampoo on her and i know they will set her on fire. then they spray it on me and it gets on my mouth. i run inside to tell my mum, but on the way i see the boys mum who has seen everything just sitting there reading her paper, and as i look into the living room i see my mum cutting up a body wrapped in plastic. i feel so horrified and just ...just horrified. but the whole time i know that i can run away and still call the police, like they won't really care or stop me unless i threaten it. right then when i realise this 'i' decide that i don't want to think or see any more of this and i wake up. 
it was so freaky because it seemed like a 'fun' thing the way that my brother and the boys were going about it, it was horrifying and my thoughts about it were horrifying how i didnt react at first...please tell me what this all means. 
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 22617
From: Columbus, GA USA
Registered: Nov 2000
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posted October 05, 2005 07:02 PM
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Yang
Knowflake Posts: 1074
From: Somewhere over the Clouds
Registered: May 2004
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posted October 06, 2005 05:15 PM
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Ra
Moderator Posts: 484
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Registered: Jun 2005
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posted October 07, 2005 04:30 AM
Hello Lela, Welcome to Lindaland  Before I make any comments, would you mind a couple of questions? Do you already have an idea of what this dream represents? If so, you don't need to tell me, just a 'yes' or 'no', or 'maybe'. Have you had any other dreams of this type? If so, for how long? I do not know how comfortable you are with talking about personal stuff in a public forum like this, and I am not sure where we are headed with this dream, so if you feel the need, just say so and we can e-mail.  IP: Logged |
lela
Knowflake Posts: 6
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Registered: Aug 2005
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posted October 07, 2005 06:26 AM
hi, thankyou for welcoming me! ra, you've got me worried lol. no i really don't have any idea. i have never had any dreams anything remotely like this. the worst nightmares i have are of running on the spot and theres no one chasing me, but even they hardly ever happen.
actually this is the second dream of this 'sort' that i've had, not really but they're kind of the same. in the first one i am on some camp in the mountains and somebody's trying to kill me and i keep fighting them and running away, but i'm not really scared just kind of going 'gosh how many more am i going to have to get rid of before they leave me alone' and i feel pretty prepared, in the end i just kind of wake up when i'm running from another guy. i feel like a 'wise ass' in it like i'm making fun of them cos they can't get me. i know they're not really similar but i felt they were connected somehow. i really don't know what it's about. i don't really mind discussing things here, if i start feeling uncomfortable i'll tell you, feel free to ask anything.
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lela
Knowflake Posts: 6
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Registered: Aug 2005
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posted October 07, 2005 06:39 AM
i just remembered something. what was really scary in this dream was that i couldnt control my emotions. usually in dreams i feel in the dream about things the same way as i do in real life, its like 'I' am in the dream but my 'dream self' is doing things to show me how i would react to certain situations. does that make sense? and in this one at the start when i wasn't caring about what was happening, 'I' was screaming at 'myself' to get up and do something. and then even when i was scraming at my brother i had to fight with my 'dream self' to let me scream at him. it was the most unsettling feeling. and even at the end i could feel my 'power' over my dreamself fading. IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 484
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Registered: Jun 2005
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posted October 11, 2005 03:57 AM
Lela, I hope you don't mind but I'm going to get straight to the point. My first thoughts revolve around abuse when you were very young. Do you know if this is so? The only thing that has me second-guessing is that you have not had this kind of dream before. So, it could be about something else, something more symbolic. It's just that so many of the elements of the dream point to something traumatic, some terrible experience. What do you think?  IP: Logged |
lela
Knowflake Posts: 6
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Registered: Aug 2005
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posted October 12, 2005 07:32 AM
no nothing like that, nothing at all. this dream gave me the creepiest feeling, it must be something symbolic.IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 484
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Registered: Jun 2005
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posted October 13, 2005 03:40 AM
Okay. Well, the dream could reflect negative feelings or attitudes about yourself. The torture theme could suggest that you are being very hard on yourself for some reason, probably related to some past experience involving feelings of guilt, helplessness, or some other emotional trauma. Could this be so? Are you being very hard on yourself? Do you feel trapped? What is causing you anxiety in your life?  IP: Logged |
lela
Knowflake Posts: 6
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Registered: Aug 2005
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posted October 19, 2005 08:12 AM
i'm not sure, i suppose so, last week i had a really bad day, probably my first ever depressed day and i just couldn't go to school.
i'm not sure what it could be. probably a lot of things. i'm leaving on a big trip in a little over two months and its something i have worked really hard to be allowed to do and to save up on my own for it so that its 'mine' but now i'm kind of getting scared and thinking 'what have i got myself into!?' i'm always fairly hard on myself just because i seem to look at the world so differently to how everyone around me does, i just think how could anyone really like me, i guess. i try not to think about it too much lol i'm usually pretty positive, but yeah last week was a shocka. anyway thankyou for trying to figure it out for me, i really appreciate it IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 484
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Registered: Jun 2005
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posted October 26, 2005 05:01 AM
Lela, you still out there?  I hope things are going okay. So, why would you say, "i just think how could anyone really like me, i guess." ...? What's not to like? IP: Logged |
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