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posted January 27, 2006 09:04 AM         

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I had a series of touching symbolic dreams, and I know they are both release and fear in category, but they were so vivid and important, I feel I have to share them.
They definately factored in real things that are on my waking mind, to the point of ridiculousness.

I want to say too... I am trained in relaxation massage, but it had been a long time since I practiced in an actual way...
but yesterday I got out my table, and massaged my mom, who has been healing from a Hysterectomy, since just before christmas... She needed it, so I was happy to help. I used essential oils, which I hadn't employed in so long I could barely remember what properties they had.... and then later, only because my table was out, I massaged my husband. Then I got one. So our bodies were all loosened up and the lymph flowing and the air was ( still is) infused with essential oils.
I did this in my bedroom, as it is the largest quiet place in my house.
I mention this because massage is a form of release, and essential oils are often for clarity of mind ...

In the first dream, I was with my grandma and mom , in a house, like our Cottage growing up. I would look at things, and they reminded me of grandpa ( who we lost in 2004) So I would take each symbol.. little knickknacks, and really look at it, to the point of crying, and I would bring it almost to attention, by putting it in another room. I did this for a few items, rearranging things , seeing things that reminded me of grandpa, and putting them in a different place, on display. Including a saying he used to have, arranged in blue words, like a sign. Then I found this organ/piano that looked old and almost like 'bones', in the colour, and I played a polka. I knew it really well, like I had heard it a million times.. in my waking life, I don't play well, though I have always wanted to.. but it was my grandpa's legacy. He'd play it come relaxation of as entertainment. It brought him joy. In my dream, I had tears streaming down my face as I played.. it was really moving.
My mom got 'mad' at me for bringing all these things that represented him into different positions, she said grandma needed them in the original rooms.
The dream changed to my family ( husband, kids and I) going to a local-ish fishing spot. Our friend had gotten my husband and son tickets to fish at this place. We went through a bunch of people, on their way to the same place.. the spirit was one of an amusement park, very vivid, people all in various stages of lumberjack looks and fisherman looks, and bathing suits. One guy had gutted fish on his feet, with the head part over his calves, as if he'd made his own flippers for swimming from fish he'd caught.
We went to the entrance, and then all of a sudden, there was a slope, like a slide you had to go on, but it was really sudden, and at the bottom of the slope there was a waterfall-type drop into a huge swimming pool, with a bunch of people around.
When it was obviious we HAD to slide, I was aware that my son was safe somewhere else, but that my daughter was right beside me, but too far away to touch. I went with the momentum of the slide and really fast, I bumped into someone else I didn't know, and we went over the edge together. I was exhillerated, and aware, even though I hadn't done that before, I knew to just hold my breath as I went under, and not to struggle as people landed on top of me and all around me in the water. I knew I'd be safe and make it to the surface. But all along, with this knowledge, was also the knowledge that my daughter didn't know these things, but there was nothing I could do about it, because it was so sudden. I got to the surface, my husband beside me in the water, and immediately scanned the water for my daughter. I couldn't see her... it was a scary scary moment.. i found a brush, and said.. "oh, here she is!: ( almost to soothe myself that there she was.. ) but I knew it wasn't her and that I'd have to keep looking ( as if, just because I wanted it so much, I made it her, then realized that was denial)
I scanned around me, and saw her at the bottom of the pool. Drowned. I grabbed her quickly and immediately yelled for help, trying to figure out where to put her to do CPR.
I woke up crying, it was horrid. ( then went to her room to smooch her beautiful sleeping face)
I couldn't sleep after those images, but when I finallly did, I was aware of another vivid dream, but this one was more talking, images about the importance of Kundalini energy. It seemed to describe things I needed to know, as if coming from a higher power. I infused this knowledge, but right now, I can't recall it.
Not a restful night at all. I felt i had to write about it. SO VIVID!

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posted January 27, 2006 07:34 PM         

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I have been researching on and off today, when I come to the computer, Kundalini energy...
I found this link informative.. http://www.geocities.com/freeyourbrain/nofire.htm http://www.kundalini-gateway.org/threads/th_kphen.html
The thing is, the more I read about it, the more I think it is a factor.
I mean, of course, I have heard of this energy, and I have been told by people here that I have it in abundance... but the thing is in the understanding of what it means to me through this very transformative period in my life.
Then I remembered....
Last week I could NOT get enough sleep. I would have a few naps a day if I could...
I have spoken here before about being extremely sexually aroused, or having all this energy...
Last week, I was so aroused I woke me from a nap.(that wasn't even sexual at all) I didn't do anything about it, but it came out of nowhere.
(apparently, you aren't 'supposed' to.. that's no fun.)
Anyway, it seems interesting, another dimension to all this..
and further interesting that I seemed to be comforted by the 'guide'.. about the vivid horrible dreams that came before the last one, where I was told of this energy... by who, or to what end, I don't know.. but I remember it being described to me, just not any particulars except a few key words. But I definately got the sense that it was an explanation, a comfort. my higher spirit guide? That'd be nice, we have talked before, and I am pretty sure I talked with a woman when I was about thirteen, who was also a spirit guide. But this one was a man.
anyway... can't let it go, feels transformational.

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posted January 28, 2006 09:08 AM         

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"There is no use trying," said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things." "I dare say you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." Lewis Carroll

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posted January 30, 2006 12:38 AM         

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((((gentle not so insistent bump))))

and yes, is right!

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posted January 30, 2006 01:50 PM         

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I haven't let this one get by ... just have not had much time to make any comments. So, you understand what this is all about, quite well apparently. Transformational indeed. I'll be back later.

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posted February 12, 2006 04:43 PM         

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You'll probably recognize a lot of this stuff.

The dream seems to be about rearranging mental/emotional energies, both from the past - as a release - and in the present - as an attempt to bring order to current issues, which is why the dream changes to your immediate family.

One source says about fishing ... "the search for, or process of becoming aware of, material from the unconscious." Also, "delving into the waters of the unconscious for insight/wisdom."

Doing this brings to the surface your fears about family issues. What are you in denial about?

The slide indicates that you feel you are on a "slippery slope", unsure and somewhat insecure about what the next step is, about the future, about what these changes may mean, yet aware of the necessity for it, and even excited about it in some ways. The slide is also symbolic of the birthing process, reflecting the 'birth' of some aspect of your life.

The kundalini dream ... you said, "It seemed to describe things I needed to know, as if coming from a higher power." 'As if' is as good as 'is'. I would strongly suggest a bit of study in that area.

What do you think?

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posted February 13, 2006 02:31 AM         

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Yes!

"The slide indicates that you feel you are on a "slippery slope", unsure and somewhat insecure about what the next step is, about the future, about what these changes may mean, yet aware of the necessity for it, and even excited about it in some ways. The slide is also symbolic of the birthing process, reflecting the 'birth' of some aspect of your life."

Things unfold daily. I mean, they always do... and I know with more awareness now, that I am comfortable with the adaptation.
We've gone through many provoking things, my family and I.... and I feel now, solid.. and more comfortable with the growth instead of hedged in.. I feel now that I can grow within and without, while 'caged' in my situation.
It is my choice, and I am ever more comfortable with it, and also almost reverent.. but instead of with fascination, and detatchment,now with fascination, happiness and acceptance.
Sometimes I feel I was put here to feel deeply, yet observe. Like being part of a group is disturbing in a way.. but It's MY group, and we can all grow together and learn together, the good and bad.
The bad comes, but mostly it's good.
I can name immediately, twenty things that are wonderful. THAT is pretty special.
I am supposed to be here, and parts of me rebel from knowing this, but ultimately, I now know this.
To quote a cheesy afterschool special...

........."knowing is half the battle"

Thank you Ra!

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posted February 15, 2006 04:36 AM         

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I wish I could tell you more, Ms. Pixie. You know, I've asked for "help" regarding you and your dreams, but none is offered, not yet. I suppose there is a reason for that.

Walk in Peace

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posted February 16, 2006 01:54 AM         

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Thanks lovey-dovey.

*sorry, felt right to say that, cheesy as it is*

You HAVE helped though. Always.

Even when you help others, it helps me.. you know?

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posted February 27, 2006 11:05 AM         

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Thank you.

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posted February 28, 2006 02:17 AM         

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Thanks for bumping this....

I actually wanted to remark before....
when I told my husband of this dream ( I actually read it to him here) He said;
"Well... I was beside you in the water. I like that."
He is being very supportive now. He 'woke up'.

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posted February 28, 2006 03:54 AM         

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I am very happy to hear that.

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