posted February 27, 2006 02:34 PM         

Last night I had this recurring dream.
I realized when I woke up this morning that I had this same sort of dream when I met a guy that I was getting close to a couple years ago.

The dream is actually a nightmare.

I wake up crying in the middle of the night. It’s so intense, frightening and makes me so scared.

Each time I am killing a little boy.

The first time it happened was when I met this guy that I finally let myself open up and get emotionally close to last year… for the first time in almost 10 years. He’s a Cancer.

After we started seeing each other I had a take a trip and felt bad that I had to leave when we were just getting to know each other. But it was only for 4 days. Although, for a Cancer it seems they have cash registers in their heads and he was bothered that I had to go on this trip.

Anyway, during my trip I had a dream that I was flying my airplane. I was enjoying the beauty of the ocean, soaring along the coastline. Until all of a sudden my plane crashed into the water killing a little boy that was peacefully swimming in an innertube.

I survive. I crawl out of what’s left of the fuselage and can’t believe that I’ve just killed an innocent little boy. I then swim towards this cave which he was swimming so peacefully by. I swim into the cave. I feel like I am in heaven. It’s the most serene feeling I’ve ever had. I feel like I am in heaven. But I wake up in tears and a HUGE headache from the trauma of killing this little boy.

Yesterday I had this same sort of dream.

I woke up crying in tears.

I was driving my car so fast at night and didn’t see an innocent little boy walking across a desolate road. My headlights shine on him, and then BAM! I hit him and kill him. It’s over. The child is dead.

I have no kids, I’ve been single for over 10 years, am an Aries (April 20th).

posted February 28, 2006 04:47 AM         

My goodness. Those intense emotions do not fit with the way I would interpret the dream otherwise. So maybe this is about guilt. Are you feeling extremely guilty about something?

It feels like there is more to it than that, especially the first dream, but we've got to start somewhwere.

posted February 28, 2006 01:47 PM         

Does any of that fit? If these don't apply, we'll move to the next possibility.