posted March 11, 2006 02:42 PM         

Hope you are doing well. I wanted to share this experience I had the other night and get any thoughts you may have on it.

I found myself in a lucid state. Had just drifted off to (non)sleep and became concious of 'the sound' again. I was aware of what was going on and was hearing the loud high-pitched ringing noise I get so often. Which I think precedes my going out of body (this experience has been happening for many years). The sound is like an electric current of some sort and I feel it thoughout my body. As if it's coming from every cell. It is heard with my inner ear and there is like a shaking/vibration that comes with it but, my actual physical body is not what is shaking. So hard to explain it correctly.

Anyway, the other night I woke up from the most amazing kind of transcendal experience. I was conscious of what was going on the whole time and very curious about what was happening. My (non physical) eyes could see my room exactly as it was but the lighting was different. I noticed on my ceiling (where the light normally is, which was also off) there was a tear or hole. Images were flashing rapidly, so much that I couldnt really hang onto any of them. I knew it was happening but it was to fast for me to pick up on anything specificly. Until I saw the face of an alien. I guess you would call it a 'Grey'? It had those huge black eyes and a tiny mouth. All I could see was it's head and it was trying to talk to me. Though I think it was actually using telepathy but I dont know what it was trying to say and was a bit freaked and wanted it to go away. It's mouth moved very rapidly as if it was speaking to me and thought I could hear it.

The whole time all I could hear was the high pitched noise that was changing tones now. Different other tones were coming in along with it. It wasnt coming from the alien, it was somewhere else. And it was as if my entire being could hear it or it was encoded with messages that were imprinting(?) themselves upon me? Strange, I know.

Back to the alien-head. I was looking at it, kind of scared but as soon as I knew I was, I said to myself, *Dont let fear enter the picture. You know, it will distort things and attract more fearful things. You are always protected.* I knew to send it love and if had any bad intentions, the love would make it go away. So, I .....I cant say I *said* it because I didnt. It's more like I sounded it from the core of my being - the word 'love' to the alien. I got the feeling then, that it didnt mean harm but it did go away.

Durning all of this I got the image of some sort of computer chip of my mind. I could feel information pouring in to my mind from somewhere, so rapidly that I have no recollection of what exactly it was. I just knew that is what was happening. Like my brain was being worked on, fixed, rearranged. I got an image of a bunch of lines connnecting to different dots zigzagging around. And the feeling that I wasnt supposed to know about the information at this time.

So, the alien had gone away and I was feeling safer. I thought, I'm going to send out another *Love*. I want to see how far it can go. So I sent out another 'word' of love to surround the earth. And then after that was done and I felt the impact it had, another out into the universe. I sent/sounded these long and slow - almost like an OM. Now I will never again underestimate the power of thought or the spoken or unspoken word. I'll never be able to describe this right either. As soon as I sent out the word I felt its HUGE impact. It was like a BIG ripple in a pond, like dropping a boulder into a pond. There was this 'plunking' or dropping feeling within and then the effect spread outward. Like a bomb. I knew the effects were far-reaching and large in impact. I could see/feel that everything around had trembled, shook from it's impact.

Another thing I noticed. It was like my head had expanded. Especially towards the back of it. It was enlarged.....I felt like I was wearing a hat of Saturn. (LOL) That's the only way to describe it. Like there was this large aura or energy around my head (the planet part) and it had these rings of energy expanding outward and over each other from it. Just going or echoing out, out, out.

Now at this point I said okay I want to wake up and write this down now. But before I did I sent out a prayer or request for help addressed to no one in particular, but I guess it was to God or the Universe. I requested/thought-out/said, 'Please help me to be a Light in this world. Direct me in what to do and where to go to be of service and help awaken the lights of others, to everyone I meet and make eye-contact with. Let it awaken the same thing within them so they do this too. They then spread the Light to everyone the meet.'
I think this already happens but not so consciously on most people's part.

posted March 11, 2006 02:53 PM         

Anyway, here's the particular decree I said:

RESURRECTION
I AM the Flame of Resurrection
Blazing God's pure Light through me.
Now I AM raising every atom,
From every shadow I AM free.

I AM the light of God's full Presence,
I AM living ever free.
Now the flame of Life eternal
Rises up to Victory.

posted March 11, 2006 03:40 PM         

I wish I had time to go into a little detail, but I know that my thoughts about this are no different than yours, and trying to explain them would just be fruitless. But at the least, we can know that there are others who do 'get it', and that does make it feel better, doesn't it? A little comraderie.

What a fantastic experience!

posted March 11, 2006 04:28 PM         

That's amazing!

posted March 12, 2006 03:05 PM         

You are absoulutly right, Ra. Our thoughts are probably not too far apart on this. Yes! It is VERY comforting to know there are others who understand. Somewhere deep down I knew that anyway.

I remember when I was younger once asking my mother if she ever wanted to hug the earth. Surround it with a Love energy. If she though that type of thing could help it. And she looked at me like I had lost it and told me she thought I was tired. I wanted to cry. Somewhere I think I was. But also somewhere I knew it was True. That it did help or work. This non-dream was proof of that for me.

posted March 12, 2006 03:15 PM         

I also wanted to share another dream I had recently. In it, I was with a friend (not sure who) and had a picture of a group of people in hand. I was pointing out to my friend who each one was. "Oh this is so-and-so. Oh, and here's such-and-such." When I came to the bottom of the picture where a person was kneeling, arms outstretched to the sky and hands in fists. My thumb was covering where the head was supposed to be. So, I moved my thumb to start explaing who this person was and the person had no head!!! I stammered and said, "Um, um, well....this....errmm......" And we both burst out laughing! I was laughing so hard in my dream that it woke me up and I found myself laughing out loud. My dream-friend and I laughed till we cried. I was surprised to find myself laughing when I woke up and as I came to, said to myself; "Well, that wasnt really too funny at all....kind of disturbing actually." But could still find some humor in it. And after more pondering, a meaningful message.

posted March 12, 2006 03:35 PM         

And last night, I find this:

"Become more of the heart, less of the head. The head is just a part of you; the heart in the sense I am using the word is your whole being. The heart is your totality. So whenever you are total in anything, you function from feeling. Whenever you are partial in anything, you function from the head.

Watch a painter painting--and that is the difference between a real artist and a technician. If the painter is just a technician who knows the technique of how to paint, who has the know-how, who knows all about colors and the brushes and the canvas and who has gone through the training, he will function through the head. He will be a technician. He will paint, but he will not be totally in it. Then watch a real artist who is not a technician. He will be absorbed in it, drunk"........
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and:
Whatever you leave incomplete has to be completed in your dreams, whatsoever you have not lived remains as a hangover and completes itself in the mind - that's what a dream is.
I could go on and on. That was from Osho's book Joy btw.

And I found this awesome book yesterday. It's everything I've been thinking and questioning about life lately. It's called Oneness The Teachings, by Rasha.

"The lessons upon which you have chosen to focus in this lifetime represent categories of experience that you are now working to bring to culmination. It is likely that you are now able to isolate certain recurring themes in your present history. And it is likely that you have completed the necessary number of episodes on those themes to drive the point of excercise home. There is no need to continue to subject yourself to the "recurrning dream" that has been your reality in this lifetime unless you choose to. Now, it is time to turn the page, and to begin the work that you have prepared yourself to do by mastering these life lessons"

Alright I'll stop. Thanks for listening. I'm so grateful for this space to share these things in.

posted March 14, 2006 04:09 AM         

26t, I believe your cup runneth over.

posted March 14, 2006 12:28 PM         

I cant post the link from this library computer. When I unearth the title I'll let you know though. Thanks, friend.