posted April 06, 2006 10:43 PM         

And somehow, they wouldn't let Cat and I in, and I went in alone. I remember there was no seat belt, I only had to hold on as hard as I could on the bars in front of me, and I did, and I remember being angry when I got off, becuase they wouldn't let Cat and I go in together, and I was angry that lesbians and gays get treated that way. I'm not one, I'm pretty sure (I'm still in teh stage of wondering--I'm 16 ) But I'm straight for all I know right now...either way, I remember giving CAt a wistful smile.

And then the next scene--and here is where the emotions ran high. I felt like I WAS there! My parents were there, and so was my sisters. We were still at the amusement park, and the roller coasters were running in the back ground. Also in the background was a guy in a blue shirt.

But then, we had some family friends off in the corner, and I knew that they were there before--I dont remember how, but there's an inner knowing that they were there--and they bought my little four year old half step-sister two necklaces. I remembered Veronica (the sister) coming up and saying something about her new present, and both necklaces were those tacky ones from mardi gras. One was a golden shiny yellow and in odd flat shapes.

And then, this painful feeling sort of...engulfed me, and I cried again, and I turned to my parents and I was like, "What! Another one? She needs more? She's got enough, and she still gets more?!"

And I remember, that the feeling engulfed me so much, that it hurt, physically. I have never had a dream like that before--where the feeling was there when I woke up, and such intense pain.

I remembered I was ****** , and helpless feeling, and angry, and sad, and jealous...

I remembered Veronica's smiling face when she told me about her present---

And well, in real life, I have a little sister name Veronica. She's four--and she's...lets say my family life is better, but far from ideal. She really does get a lot, and there is a bit of tension regarding that area...

And then, the weird thing was, when I woke up, the pain was there, and then I shifted direction, and the pain was gone immediately. Sometimes, for me...I'd have one dream, sort of semi wake up, shift and immediately start a completely different dream. It happens?

And well, later on, I couldn't remember what it was about. In the morning, I Was lying on my back petting my dog, and I remembered I had a intense dream but I forgot what it was about. so I rolled over to my right side (which was the side I was on while dreaming the dream...) and the dream hit me almost immediately.

And then I had some odd feeling that someone was observiing my dream? Perhaps?

I got a pic of an ET? lol!

And he was observing and watching my dreams.

Hmmmm?

And then I started imaging that it was a dream like...therapy?...maybe?

Dunno.

posted April 08, 2006 04:05 AM         

How do you feel about the "therapy" idea? How would it be like therapy?

The alien part just creeps me out.

posted April 08, 2006 12:11 PM         

The alien part scared me a little bit too...well, I thought of either therapy or judgement. And I prefer therapy. I guess I would like the therapy part more, because it would...infer that I'm being helped, in a way.