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Topic: Guilty?
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Lady331
Knowflake Posts: 91
From: Slovakia
Registered: Aug 2005
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posted August 02, 2006 07:05 AM
 
I'm in a shop and I wanna buy something. I'm a little girl just like I used to be, but much more I feel like I'm a boy. There are also my ex-schoolmates in this shop, but I don't want to talk to them or something..I feel quite insecure in front of them just like I used to.
I'm about to leave the shop, don't want to buy anything, but put a lighter in my pocket. I want to steal it, though I don't want it, need it. Right at the door one of the shop-girls stops me and asks me to put everything out of my pockets. I feel like "how am I gonna get out of this, there no way out, I'm nabbed". My pockets are full of some rubbish, paper and I find there even two ping-pong balls. While discharging my pockets, there are three women standing next to me, waiting and telling me, that if I confess right now, my punishment won't be that hard. I start crying and feel ashamed. I'm about to give up and confess. I reach into my pocket, but I grab my black purse instead. I realize that it's full of money and say "that's all I have". That lighter is still in my pocket. Those three women start to apologize and let me go. I'm suprised that they didn't ransack my pockets, that they trusted me. I don't feel compunction, all I want is to get rid of that lighter, so I'm running in the wood. There I see two creature sitting and talking about another one. They fear it, it's bigger and dangerous. This monster appeares, kills those two and starts hunting me and telling me "I'll handle you". I don't fear as much , I've heard many legends about those monsters in the wood, and I know that it won't hurt me.  IP: Logged |
Peri
Knowflake Posts: 1476
From: Kyiv, Ukraine
Registered: Dec 2003
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posted August 03, 2006 08:46 AM
I think in real life you may be experiencing some difficulties at work or school, you just feel that you don't fit in with people there. So in protest, you might have done something bad, something that is traditionally considered to be bad but in fact it is something really insignificant put a lighter in my pocket. Later you are scared that you might get caught with what you've done but everything goes smoothly and you get away with it.
Then it probalbly caused you bad conscience (the monster) but you don't really pay attention to it don't fear as much..I know that it won't hurt meDoes it make any sense to you? 
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Ra
Moderator Posts: 1254
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Registered: Jun 2005
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posted August 04, 2006 02:01 PM
Hello Lady331  I have a lightly different view ... This dream could suggest that you may be unable to fill your needs/desires because of insecurites (want to buy something/feel insecure/don't want to buy anything) which perhaps developed during childhood (little girl/schoolmates). It could be suggested that there are untapped inner resources (lighter), such as confidence (or some other potential you have), that you have "hidden" from yourself and others (pocket) and which you feel too inadequate to use because of your insecurities (steal it). About what do you feel ashamed or guilty? What, in waking life, do you feel like crying about? Again, it seems that "inner resources" (purse full of money) are the key to getting through your insecurities (they let you go), but you are uncomfortable with using them (want to get rid of lighter) and would prefer to keep these energies "hidden", secret, or pushed back into your unconscious (woods). But it's just not that easy. There is inner conflict (two creatures) and unexpressed fear (they are fearful) within you which remains unresolved (running in woods) and is growing to "monstrous" proportions. Whatever this conflict and fear is related to, whatever the monster represents, it is used to "handling"/controlling you on a sub/unconscious level ("I'll handle you."). However, it seems you are beginning to become more aware of it, and it's power over you is becoming less (don't fear as much/know it won't hurt you). So, similar, but different than Peri's thoughts. Have either one of us struck a chord?  IP: Logged |
Lady331
Knowflake Posts: 91
From: Slovakia
Registered: Aug 2005
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posted September 09, 2006 12:47 PM
Thanks...
Ra, you're absolutely right, as usual.
Peri, thanks for trying.  IP: Logged | |
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