posted September 09, 2007 03:59 AM         

i had a flight, and i missed it, so i had to take the next flight which was gonna cost me 200-300 dollars more than my original flight, i was mad because i had gone cross country by car but for some reason i had to get back home...

then i had a dream...
i was at his house, and there were people everywhere who were very close to him who knew him from his teen years, and a few people who knew him from his adult life...
people kept calling him by his real name(to me anyway, the name he uses)(friends from the adult life)...and people from his childhood were like "WTF? thats not his name..." basically he had a different name, and all his childhood friends were making fun of him...

then cut to us...
in his bedroom quiet, and alone and hes holding me not to go,(my flight to go back home),,im getting mad at him because he doesnt realize i missed my flight for him, and now its going to cost me a lot of money...i completely forgot to set my alarm for the next day because i was with him...

then cut back to the room full of people(friends)...there is some sort of thing going on where someone says his real name, and starts talking mad sh--t about him, and why he is the way he is...his last name is different, and this friend says to me "he isnt rich like he says he is, thats not his last name either, him and his brother(he doesnt have a brother) use to beg for money all the time from me"...

the cancer guy is getting really angry but trying to stay calm cause everyone(including me the most) were finding out all this weird sh-t about him....i was confused...

then cut to a scene
its in a quiet kitchen in his house(his house is cozy, woodsy) and hes crying and angry and says to me"i know you are the one, and i know youre suppose to be the mother of my first child, but im too stupid to figure it out, i dont know why im acting this way"..

and cuts to another scene, and thats about it...

posted September 26, 2007 04:45 AM         

Are you angry about a missed opportunity (missed flight) and the excertion of extra energy (costs more money) because of it?

Is he somehow different now than when he was younger? (different name)

Is there unfinished emotional business? (withhim but need to go) Are you wasting energy on him? (costs a lot of money)

Has he misrepresented himself to you in some way, or do you suspect it? (people say stuff about him)

In what way are you still confused about him? ("I was confused.")

Do you feel as if you could or should be with him? Are you looking for answers as to why it didn't work out?

No need to answer all those questions. Does anything make sense?