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Author
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Topic: Upsetting Dream
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srhale_dallas
Knowflake Posts: 3
From: fort worth, Tx, USA
Registered: Sep 2007
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posted September 22, 2007 09:46 AM
 
I had a dream last night unlike any other dream I have ever had in my life. I am not one to be haunted by these sleepy visions, but ever since I it happened I can't stop thinking about it.
To give you some background, my mother has had lung cancer for about a year and half. She has been in remission twice, (this presently being her second term). This cancer keeps coming back in different parts of her body. So my dream took place in a funeral home that my father called me to. I walked in and my brother and father were standing waiting. I asked what we were doing here and he said that mom had died suddenly. I was in complete shock and started running around the funeral home looking for her. I finally saw someone walk by with my mothers body on a gurney . I followed the faceless person down the hall, as I did it seemed the hall got longer and longer with every step. I finally reached the room where they left my mothers body, I stood there looking over her. It was cold and damp I could see my breath. I was crying and asking my mother to talk to me, to tell me what was going on. She then appeared as a mist next to me. Translucent like a spirit. She gently put her arm around me and said everything was ok, that she was safe. I told her I wasn't ready for her to go. During this dream I kept telling myself to wake up but I was like something was holding me down forcing me watch. I couldn’t wake up, I was screaming and sobbing. In and out of conscience it seemed. This force was so strong I couldn't get off the sofa. I then saw in the dream, I saw people standing over my mother preparing her for burial. I walked in and they all turned to me, with warped faces and dark eyes, pushed me away and shut the curtain. I finally woke up to realize that the pillow was literally soaked from the tears and my clothes a bit mangled. I got sick after I awoke from the dream, and trying to convince myself it wasn't real. I woke up thinking it had really happened. I really got a glimpse of what it will feel like when she passes. I could feel it in the dream that uneasy, weak, unbearable sadness. I could feel it in the pit of my stomach. This was so real! It's not the dream so much that scared me (as that did too) but it was the feeling of something or someone holding me down making me watch this, making me go through this. Please help me in understanding actually what this means. Anything and everything, honestly.IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 1833
From: Atlanta
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted September 29, 2007 04:45 AM
Hello srhale  I would guess that it was probably part of yourself "holding me down making me watch this, making me go through this." The purpose for this you have stated quite clearly ... "I really got a glimpse of what it will feel like when she passes." Your higher self, perhaps in cooperation with your very caring mother's higher self, is working through the possibility, preparing you in a small way for overwhelming feelings. Dreaming this sort of stuff is your mind's way of thinking about it without having to consciously invest too much energy in something so painful. I would consider this dream as healthy and healing, even though it seems so 'bad'. Does this make sense?  IP: Logged | |
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