posted February 09, 2008 03:20 AM         

also, i posted ADDITIONAL things that have occurred in regard to this person, since the dream. and some of it is just flat out WEIRD... but in a WOW, way. feel me? haha... ok with that said... read on.

i've never been a huge "fan" of heath ledger, but he was someone i admired, for his talent, as well as his avoidance and dislike of the "fame" aspect to his career. i simply adored the man for being so real. i'm also in the same industry, but in a different way, and so i'm around celebs a lot. its nice when i see someone who actually is uncomfortable with the cameras and fame and just wants to ACT and do his craft. its refreshing. but again, no real "ooh ahhh" liking to him, lol. i may have mentioned his name in conversation once or twice a year, if even that, or when a movie was out that he was in.

now... as for say... jake gyllenhaal... haha... HE is my crush

anyway, so the day i heard he died, i was heartbroken. everytime the news came on, i broke down hysterically in tears, and it was so out of character for me... its not like i ever knew him personally, ya know? so this whole thing of me being so upset and distraught... i was totally taken back by my reaction. of all celebrity deaths i've gotten word of... i never reacted like this. an ex boyfriend of mine passed away over a year ago and while i was devastated, i didn't even react like this. i literally felt my heart broken in two. i just could not SHAKE it.

about a week went by and i finally stopped thinking of it, and didn't see any news bits on him the whole time. the dream that i had came on the night of jan 31st, and literally came out of nowhere. like i said, his death had not been on my mind for at least a week before.

the dream...

i think i was at a doctors office or waiting for someone to get off work, and the person behind the counter looked at me and said heath was in the back, so i was like, "oh he's here? tell him i'm here." (i guess we knew each other). so he came out into the waiting area and looks at me and smiles right away. so i walk over and he gives me this big hug as if we were old friends. he was leaning against the front reception desk talking to me, and i jokingly said, "wow, i'm so happy you're here. so what do you do all day?"...and he just smiled. so i said, "heath for real, have you met anyone? haha, do you watch your movies up there? haha, ok i'm kidding....but have you seen whats going on?" and we both cracked up. he looked at me and said, "no i havent met anyone, haha. i dont like to watch myself, i know, its so stupid, but i get all weird about it. and yeah i've seen everything. i just wish these *******s would get off it. i couldn't believe how many people were at my home. i miss my little girl."

as i'm writing this i'm just getting chills because i remember how sincere he looked when we were talking... it was nuts.

about 5 minutes later we were back at my house. i guess we were pretty close friends or something because i just got that comfort feeling with him.

but now he was pulling me onto his lap on the couch and just holding me... holding my hand... rubbing my back... he kept kissing my cheek and the side of my head too. it was actually VERY "sweet".. and the whole thing felt so real that i seriously woke up thinking he was in the room with me. anyway, we went to the kitchen and i asked him to give me 5 minutes cause i wanted to shower real quick and just change. my mom walked over and i gave her this look like i was trying to tell her something but not have him HEAR it... and so i was like, "mom... he just... he will not stop touching me or holding me and he's KISSING ME i dont know what he's doing what the hell is going on", and she just gave me this look back and said... "you should". haha i dont know. so i was in my laundry room getting two towels (i swear everything was SO detailed)... and i grabbed the towels, i was looking for the clothes i was gonna throw on, and i feel him behind me. he wrapped his arms around my waist, turned me around, and just kissed me. I FELT his lips... completely. if someone ever wanted to know what heath ledger's lips felt like-- rest assured, i can tell you. LOL. i remember looking right at him and he was so beautiful... all smiling... and laughing, and he had his long hair back... and for real... he looked like an angel.

it was so damn WEIRD, because in my dream, i KNEW he was dead. because i was JOKING to him about it. and he was laughing and saying how he came to visit me and let me know he was okay, since i've been so upset about it, and everything. he went to kiss me again, and he was really playful in such a sweet manner. and yet, i felt so comfortable with him. i truly felt as if he was someone i had known personally. there was no thought of fame in my dream... he was just heath to me. heath, who acted. and that was that. and who also was dead and just out of nowhere came back to life for a day. who the hell knows lol.

he kissed me once more and i finally said, "what is WITH you tonight??" and he replied, "you have the most amazing lips..." and then i smiled.

in my dream, towards the end before i woke up... someone put on a song. and it was a marc broussard one called "the beauty of who you are", and heath ran from the kitchen and said, "aghh i love this song you have to listen to it!" and i was laughing at him saying i knew the song and i think marc broussard is amazing.

i'll tell you right now, i haven't heard that song in a good 3 months. so i had no reason at all to be dreaming about it.
i dont know... it was just so crazy. i woke up singing the song in my head... and based on past experiences, that only happens when i need to get something from the words. without fail, i always look and they ALWAYS have some sort of relevance in my life for that specific time. EVERY TIME.
but i looked up the lyrics to this one, and they make no sense. http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/marcbroussard/thebeautyofwhoyouare.html

i've never had an affinity or anything to heath ledger. i have NO IDEA where this dream came from. NO idea. i felt his touch. i FELT him hug me as if you and i were hugging like we would never see each other again. that was the dream.

posted February 09, 2008 03:21 AM         

monday night, i was in the city (nyc) with my friend who was in town from chicago. i live in brooklyn, so pretty much every other night, i'm somewhere in the village or soho, and i wanted to take her to a few spots that i've been meaning to check out. on the way to one of the bars, we turned around the corner to the next street and as we were walking, the strap on my heel came loose, so i stopped and leaned up against a building and tried fixing it. so im tryin to get this thing not to fall off, and my friend let out this *gasp!* and goes, "nanette lepore! i LOVE her clothes!"

i looked up and saw the hanging sign, and i dont know what the hell happened, but i saw a quick flashback of all the news reports on heath's death, and i remember DEFINITELY seeing that sign in every shot. when i snapped out of it and stood up to tell her, some woman was crossing the street and coming towards us with a flower. she got right by us and bent down to put it on the side of where i was standing in the doorway. before i could put two and two together, she goes to my friend, "so sad isnt it? such a shame. why? why him?"...and she was just shaking her head to herself.

so i looked at her, then i looked at my friend, then back at her, and i was like, "wait... who are... you're talking about heath ledger right?" and she gave me this look as if i was a complete moron, and she goes, "who else would i be talking about darlin? this is his apartment, dont you know that?"

the building i was leaning against was HIS. how RIDICULOUS is that, seriously... it wasn't even like where i stopped real quick and i was in some doorway a few numbers down. i was in HIS DOORWAY. i stood there with my mouth open for what felt like 5 minutes. my friend who knew about the dream, she was BUGGIN out. after the woman left, she looked at me and was like, "are you KIDDING me!? you're kidding me right? please tell me this is some joke or something. WHAT THE F**K!?? we could've stopped ANYWHERE! and we end up on his street cause of your damn shoe. AT HIS FRONT DOOR."

i was so shocked i just started freaking out. even though it was his apartment, and the woman put the flower there and said it was his place... i still was trying not to believe her. or more importantly... i was trying not to believe that i just magically ended up at his apt. especially after the weird dream a few nights before. so i almost attacked my friend, lol, i was like, "gimme your phone, GIVE ME YOUR PHONE". i grabbed it from her hand and went searching on google for his death info and news stuff... and everything that came up kept saying 421 broome street in soho. i looked at the door... 421. looked at the phone... looked at the door... looked at the phone... then finally my friend was like, "im sorry... but this would be the biggest coincidence in the history of coincidences if there ever was one... and i just dont for a second believe it. this so was a sign. even just a confirmation from that dream you had. this is NUTS right now."
and seriously... im still like... ahhh what the hell was that. and i totally, without any doubt believe it. i know NOW, that my dream DID have meaning behind it like i thought. and i completely think this was confirmation of it. but what meaning, haha... beats the hell out of me.

this past tuesday night (the 5th), i had a quick dream of him. he hugged me again, and when he backed up he looked at me and said, "they know today." so i said, "what? who knows what?" and he said again, "they know today", gave me a warm smile, and i woke up. about 2 hours later, all over the news were the results of his toxicology exam on what it was that caused his death.

i sat in my bed like, NO WAY. he said to me in my dream, THEY KNOW TODAY... and then HELLO, the results are in. they do know. haha, so friggin crazy.

i brought all of this up to my mom, because if it was one thing, ok, i'd laugh and say, cool. but she believes in all the weird stuff, so i figured id throw this at her and see what she thought of everything. she laughed and said, "for someone who believes in past lives, im surprised you didnt think of this first". so i was like, what are you talking about? and she said.... well... all this heath ledger stuff, could just be... some cool stuff. simple as that. how you knew the results were in tho, and that he told you that... thats weird. how you ended up at his front door without realizing it... thats weird. so i was like-- alright, but your point? and she said, "when you were a little girl, you were around 3. remember the squirrel that would come to the window at our old house? the one you used to feed?" (LOL i fed a squirrel. way to go mom, thank god he wasnt rabbid or something lol). so anyway, i vaguely remembered and i said yeah why... and she said... "i let you name him. and you said to me, i want to name him sydney. and when i asked you where you got that name from, you said 'where we used to live mommy'" so i was like-- ummm.... wtf? haha. and she continued to say, "then when you were 4 years old, i was cleaning one day and you ran up to me and said, "i have to go to australia. and when i said why do you have to go? you looked at me and said, because my friend is there."

after that weird flashback with mama dukes, she said, "there was no way at the time, that you ever heard of australia or could have known it even existed. when you came up with sydney, i ignored it. but when you said you had to go to australia, i immediately thought about how you could have been remembering a past life there, connecting sydney and such. you even used to walk around speaking with an accent, and there's just no way you could have learned that where we were living, and who you were around."

posted February 09, 2008 04:41 AM         

I have read this thread in it's entirety...

I do not have a physical answer for you, there simply isn't one at all that I can see. As far as a spiritual answer well, yes. Your awareness of a past physical existence seems to have been triggered. This may or may not comfort you?

You now have a choice to explore this area of your psyche further or choose to ignore it and move forward with this lifes journey.

Be aware that some of what you may discover while exploring may drastically alter this life's experience so please be careful if this be the path you so choose.

Many never have an awakening experience or even a thought of having had previous lives. Others have always just known and certain things will trigger memories, events and the like. You seem to be the latter, as am I myself.

Yes, while these events seem phenomenal, exciting, and surreal... You must see how they may assist or hinder your path at this time and go from there. Take this as an adventure, and just allow it to unfold...

I hope this is of some solace to you or at least verification that you are not losing your mind, LOL!

posted February 09, 2008 10:51 AM         

THANK YOU. it definitely did make me feel a tiny bit less crazy, haha, and very much comforted. at first i wanted to brush it off as just another dream... maybe a visit dream since it was SO very real... but in general, just another dream since he was all over the place the weeks before. but i know in my heart that a connection of some sort is definitely present. even if i never figure it out till years have passed, or even i have passed... i'll be okay with it.
i went on a hunt yesterday in my bedroom through old journals and diaries... to see if ANYTHING at all was written about australia, maybe something i dreamt of, etc.

nothing.

know what i did find though? which blew my mind lol...
back in september, i went through this one week of trying out this dream technique to remember things, etc. and i would write down my question before i went to sleep, and then the next morning i'd write what the dream was, and i'd pretty much have my answer, which amazed me.

i found the last dream i wrote for that week, it had no question. but i guess i wrote the dream anyway since i remembered it so well. as im reading, i see the name heath ledger. i dropped the book and picked it back up in shock... so i read again. apparently i dreamt of him once in september, and i didnt even remember this until i read it. i thought that first dream where he came to me with the song and everything, i though tthat was the first dream he was ever in. low and behold, not the case. and what i wrote about was that apparently we were being attacked by bombs. there were a bunch of people there - we were in dirty clothes, and i saw asian women, and i tried speaking to them in japanese, but it turns out they were the enemy. i got shot, but i knew it was a dream almost, so i was able to heal myself. at the end of the page i wrote...
"i fell to the ground, and a guy that was a spitting image to heath ledger, if not him, crouched down and kissed me. he pulled me up and made me folow him behind an open building, and he held me until i woke up."

i just think its funny that the week of dreams i actually decided to write down, he was in one of them. and i didnt even remember it. what possessed me to go searching through journals like a frantic maniac, haha, i have no idea. you ever just get those urges to do things out of nowhere sometimes? lol thats what happened.

either way... i wonder if that dream had anything to do with australia and another life. crazy to think about tho!

sorry for yet another novel, haha.
but thank you for the insight. i'm so curious to see what the connection is. i almost wish now that i had a chance to meet him before he passed. i wonder if there would have been a recognition.

posted February 10, 2008 10:14 AM         

your story and experiences sound amazing, and i'm so glad you let me in on them. the moonstone is something i definitely have to run out and get for my dreams. i've been using jasmine incense for years - and they also aid in psychic dreaming... very well actually.

it makes me incredibly happy to know i'm not alone in this. it was difficult at first because i couldn't understand why i didn't feel any connection to him when he was alive. of course i thought he was beautiful... but he wasn't someone that stayed in my thoughts AT ALL. but when i realized there definitely is some sort of connection between us... i've been fascinated ever since.

that's so weird that you're actually IN australia right now! haha. small world all my life, even during high school and college, i would always tell people that the one place i wanted to travel to was australia. i was actually SUPPOSED to go. i've been a dancer since i was 3, and at the age of 16, i was accepted into this month long program for the arts as one of the 12 best dancers in the state of ny. the dance director, her name was katherine, and she was australian. she wanted to take us all back to australia a year later to take some classes and do some performances, but it ended up not being able to happen.

yesterday i was on the phone with my best friend and we were talking about heath, and as she was babbling away, i went to say something and i caught myself before i could... because i was shocked at what was about to slip from my mouth. and she heard it... and she noticed the change in my voice and she said -- what were you just gonna say? whats the matter? i KNOW you, haha... say it. so i stopped for a second and explained to her that as she was talking about him, my voice got very soft and quiet and i was about to say "i miss him". WHERE that came from, i have no idea. it was so weird though.... the feeling was almost unexpected, and if i didnt have such a strong will to stop myself, it would have slipped into conversation.
i dont know.
strange!

the dream i wrote about in response to yourfriendinspririt... it's really the only thing i could think of in regard to a confirmation of a past life with him. i did a little searching online because the bombs in my dream, of course, made me think of war.. so naturally, i checked. after searching around a bit, i saw that australia was attacked by japanese bombers back in 1942. that sounds similar to my dream, especially the japanese part, and if thats the case, i'd be shocked! haha. thats about the only confirmation i could see tho... aside from him visiting me in my dreams and what not.

posted February 11, 2008 06:41 AM         

I just don't know what the connection is though...It feels to me the connection is like we're each others halfs (my birthdate is
5-10-89 and his birthdate is 6-5-79) and this picture of him (below)
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that's Pete and I on 10-9-07 at Sam Ash in Hollywood, Ca
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is what I found hours ago that made me really confused about the connection because the sign around his neck looks like the info that would be on a birth certificate. 7 days later from that date in the same year, I seriously was either given a re-birth or the whole 6 months I was going through littles changes at a time that just were happening. I would look in the mirror and see my right side of my body but as translucent like that side was missing. my friend Danielle who is a healer that I had met in July of 06 and On Nov.23.06 that's the night I felt like it was going to be my last, thank god for Danielle being there comforting me and helping me find my light and what path to go down. The next day , I felt part of me was still not completely there... June 23.07 I met Pete Wentz and that is another novel.
I'll post it after this

I apologize for this being kinda hard to understand. I hope one of you know what "connection" it is...

posted February 11, 2008 06:51 AM         

Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz III "aka" Pete Wentz from Wilmette, IL.
Pete and Shana on 10-9-07 at Sam Ash in Hollywood, Ca

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posted February 13, 2008 05:41 AM         

But back to the topic... I started reading your post, but didn't have time to read all of it right now so I'll go back to it when I have more time. A few things popped out at me though... I wouldn't call myself celebrity obsessed either, I've met a few people who would be considerd famous because they're friends of friends and whatnot. What you said about the staring and staring from your twin soul... my God, that's actually familiar to me too. I met this guy for one day... there was the staring... and after we parted I felt like suddenly something was missing from me and I'd been irreversably affected. But I've had to get over it, and that's ok with me because I have Mr Gemini now. But yeah... the whole thing I keep being told about the man with curly hair always makes me certain that it is Marc. And when I'm told that he's smiling, that somehow tells me it's him too - because in my dreams, the thing that always stands out to me is his smile... he's always smiling at me like he's just so happy. I remember in the first dream I had about him when I was a kid, the one where he was walking around in my house, afterwards I told my mother that he was smiling and that he had a really big smile! I was really extraordinarily struck by it. Oh actually, after one reading I got I even showed the psychic a picture and said "Is this the guy?" And she said "I can tell you without a doubt in my mind that THAT is the man I saw." ... I still wasn't 100% sure even after she said that, but now looking back I think I *should* be sure! It's hard to completely suspend disbelief, you know? So like for example if I ask him a question in my head and I get a reply in the form of words in my mind, that could easily just be my imagination but somehow I feel that it's not. Like recently I just asked him if there's anything he would like to tell me... and the words that came into my mind were "Thanks for not listening"... which I thought was weird! Then I realised what was meant, was that months ago I watched a documentary about him where they said horrible things like that he was selfish and that he had some weird scheme with his money or something like that... and I was like, "no!" and stopped watching it because I felt like it was all just a slanderous documentary against him. Something that I need to look up/find out about is whether or not he was into books... cos in the last dream I had about him, he had a lot of books - so I feel like that's something he might have really liked when he was alive. I don't know whether you get to read books when you pass over! I would like to have better communications with him, really.

It'll be interesting to see how frequently your dreams about Heath continue...

posted February 14, 2008 01:52 AM         

I have to say that things seem to be really picking up their pace with Marc. I haven't seen him again in any dreams, but it seems like every time I ask a question now it's answered for me. eg, since it was told to me by the psychic that my spirit friend said that there is some music that raises my vibration, I wondered to myself whether Marc would use that language... the next day, I listened to a song by him and it had the word vibration in it! "Your vibrations are burning at my feet" (or something along those lines). Then just now, I found my answer about the books - I watched a YouTube interview where he mentions that he wrote books as a child!!!! He even talks about poetry that he's written that he believes is from a past life incarnation!!! I didn't know he was into past lives... it's crazy, he talks about things that I would talk about! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RWA48mFd5gY

I never realised how tiny he was until I saw this video - now I see why people always referred to him as an elf! That's what people say about me because of my size and build as well! The smile is the smile I see in my dreams, and the way he flips his head... he did that EXACT thing in the dream I had where he swam up to me in the water... he swam up and when he got to where I was and we were holding on to a piece of floating wood, he flipped his hair just like that and smiled! lol!

He says he doesn't drive... he never learned to drive because he always knew he would die in a car. I've never learned to drive either and I'm 32...

posted February 14, 2008 09:03 AM         

just like marc...
I'M a libra with a sag rising, haha! though i have a cancer moon. but still, how funny. maybe thats why you and i get along so well lol.
and its funny that you said you dont drive and you're 32. my best friend lauren is 29 and doesnt drive, and SHE is taurus with sag rising. haha.

ok ill update you on the heath stuff when i get back in a few hours. i've been dreaming of the "other" celeb from my story you were reading almost every day this week though.

posted February 14, 2008 06:29 PM         

Also just wanted to add, like you with Heath, I've never had that "ooh ahh" response to Marc either! But I do think he's absolutely gorgeous and beautiful - it just doesn't have any real 'lustful' factor to it! haha.

I also need to make a correction. I'd said that Marc and I are a seventh house stellium - this is incorrect, in fact in composite we're an EIGHTH house stellium. It's in the progressed composite that we're a seventh house stellium.

posted February 17, 2008 01:57 AM         

I've had some more developments...

We went to Adelaide, South Australia for a week and we're back in Sydney now. In Adelaide we were passing a record store... I used to buy a lot of CD's/LPs/DVDs and stuff like that... I was huge music fan, but more recently there's nothing that really grabs my attention in the music world enough for me to really purchase anything. But I got this vibe that was like, Marc really wants me to go in here because there's something special for me... sounds weird, right? So I went in and randomly looked around for a while, didn't see anything special. But then I looked through the DVD's, which were randomly arranged/categorised... and I found something I never heard of before... a 3 hour DVD of Marc Bolan TV performances, interviews, and a documentary about his life! I immediately bought it and last night now that I have a room with a DVD player, I watched it and it is amazing!!! I learned a lot about him, like he used to not take drugs because there was so much crazy stuff already in his head he thought it would be scary if he was on drugs... lol, sooo funny because that's just like me! (Unfortunately he got into cocaine when he started hanging out with David Bowie though). So... after I finished watching the documentary last night, I felt very much open to him. So before I went to sleep, I protected myself with white light and angels, and said "Marc, if you would like to come and talk to me while I'm sleeping, I'm open to you." I've never done that before, but it felt right. All the same though, I didn't expect that anything would really happen or that I would dream about him... but I did! I can't say for sure whether it was a real visit or just a dream, but I do know that the physical sensations in it were very real. We walked along a pathway together and he was holding my hand while we talked... I can't remember all of the conversation but he said something about how he prided himself on his "normalcy"... I don't know if there's such a word! And he was always dressed up quite uniquely for his shows, so maybe he meant that he felt like this was normal for him, I'm not sure. I noticed that I seemed to be the same height or taller than him, and I said something like "I think I might be taller than you, baby?" (I wouldn't usually use 'baby' as an endearment but in the dream it came out so naturally) then I looked down and I noticed he had bare feet and I was wearing my sandals that have built up heels on them - so I think he must be around my height in reality or only slightly taller. I can't remember what he said. Then I remember turning inwards to hug him and I moved my hand over his chest (affectionately - not sexual), we hugged each other and I told him that I loved him. I'm only ever sincere if I tell someone I love them (I've only said it to two people in my life), but this was the most sincere and heartfelt "I love you" I've ever said, even though it was in a dream! I remember very clearly how his hair felt. I remember him replying, but it all seems garbled now... I had another dream after that, which was about something else altogether and it was an emotional scene with me and Mr Gemini so I woke up upset by what happened in that dream rather than focusing much on my Marc dream. Anyway, today we went for a walk in Sydney and then I recognised the white concrete pathway that I was walking along with Marc in my dream! Although from the dream I only clearly remember the concrete path, maybe the wall, and even though the background is fuzzy, it seems that he and I went for a little walk around the Sydney Harbour (by the gardens) last night...

So... I'm not sure how wise I was in asking Marc to visit me, given that it actually happened... there was nothing scary about it but maybe I should be careful about inviting him in case I leave myself open to other (unwanted) energies...?

Also I'm a bit worried because I learned in the documentary that he died in a Mini... and I realised this morning that my sister drives a Mini which I've never liked. She's had it for about a year and I've always thought it was the worst car in the world... I hate it and I don't like being a passenger in it - it feels wrong. Thinking now of asking her to sell it or else never get a ride with her again!