posted March 02, 2008 05:58 PM         

I hope someone can give me a clue of what this dream could mean...

I had it a few days ago. That had been an exhausting day. The previous night I hadn't slept well thinking of an important meeting I had that day. Where I expected problems, obstacles, someone at work to make my life complicated...

I was drained when I went to bed. Phisically exhausted after a hard day of negotiations at work, feeling sick with PMT...

In my dream, I saw that little and shinny black snake. As soon as I saw it, I knew it was coming after me. I somehow read it in its intelligent eyes. I left quickly trying to let it behind... But then I realised it was there, around my wrist, biting my hand... Pain was sharp, unbelievably deep and intense... My sight blurred in anguish...

When I opened my eyes (in the dream), I was in hospital feeling completely exhausted and drained (the same as before going to bed in real life). Very weak. I had been very close to death.

My family was there. I felt so warm, so nice. Everybody was loving to me, caring and affectionate...

But was really sticked out was his presence. This guy who I love so much in real life. Who is officially only a friend. He was there. In his eyes there was that clean gratitude to life because I was safe, that tenderness... While he held me close to help me get out of hospital, while I leaned on him to walk... We didn't talk much, we only looked to each other's eyes...

It's weird because I recall a dream like this, where a snake bite should mean betrayal and problems, where I am supposed to be close to death, as a lovely dream... Because he was there to hold me. Because of his sweet presence...

posted March 03, 2008 02:43 AM         

Maybe the fact you guys didnt talk much but just looked into each other's eyes, could mean the changes could be hidden or not obvious at first. It feels like his response to you is with love but with caution and responsibility. Maybe It means it will take time for the changes to occur.(for some reason or another-maybe another love?).

posted March 04, 2008 04:52 PM         

Problems with this guy? That we are apart... I don't know what prevents him from jumping in... I think he's shy...
I'm also quite unreachable without pretending it...

Deception? Is there supposed to be any? As far as I know,he is very sincere, very clean... And I'm not deceiving him for sure...

Yes, maybe changes are hidden, not obvious... That's why I'm not aware...

YES, YES, YES... Love (I'm sure he loves me...), caution (that's why he approaches so slowly) and responsibility (he needs to be sure, because he's serious?).
And also yes, I'm sure it will take time for changes to occur... This process has been progressing very slowly for months now, more than a year!!! There must be something blocking him... That snake? What could it be?
Not any other love on my side... And none that I know on his... Could it be something different?

Maybe we are seeing a person who is not real, an ideal... Could it be my perception deceiving me? Our charts suggest a powerful influence of Neptune that makes us live always in a rainbow...

Seeing the real him, could that be the snake? Seeing some kind of truth? Something that hurts and it's close to destroy my life but then bring us together???

posted March 05, 2008 03:58 AM         

I agree with writesomething in that 'change' could be in the cards for you, but I think it has more to do with work than the guy you love, though it could be that, too.

I think the snake bite to your hand reflects the anxiety and uncertainty you had concerning the next day's meeting, and perhaps your expectations of being "bitten" by those people. The snake was wrapped around your wrist because in some way you felt that maybe your hands would be tied, that you could only do so much. The snake is black, representing the depth of your anxiety, and perhaps a warning to be careful.

It could be that the negativity you are/were facing will change into something more pleasant, as indicated by the snake (which can symbolize change/transformation) and being close to death in the hospital ... I hope so. Or, the pleasantness with the guy in the rest of the dream could be your psyche's way of maintaining psychological/emotional balance, while indulging in a little escapism/wishfulfillment.

What do you think?

How did the meeting go?

posted March 05, 2008 06:14 PM         

Yes, it is so clear now... The snake was related to the meeting. It was an important meeting. A payment milestone worth 3 million euros. In my hands. The customer project manager has changed recently and I don't like her much. As my counterpart, I need to get her approval, I need her to agree to pay me, as a representative of my team and my company.
She has been proving difficult in the past, being inflexible, not reasonable and too thick to understand implications of some actions and to try alternatives. It's hard to work with her. I had been hearing rumours that said that she was reluctant to pay, that she was 'making noise' escalating worries and issues to her superiors.
She even rang me the previous afternoon to tell me that she wanted to talk to me in private before the meeting to discuss her concerns regarding the acceptance of the milestone. I knew she didn't want to pay and was looking for excuses. To use the payment as a pressure measure to get other things I didn't want to provide. I had done my bit and was almost betrayed. Denied a payment I deserved. Which would have made me look bad in front of my superiors even when I did my part.

I knew the snake was coming to bite me. Yes, I was expecting things to be difficult and even go wrong.

Yes, I felt my hands were tied.

The meeting was tough. Other 3 people were there to help my cause, even two from her team... We spent 4 hours going around in circles. I was close to lose my temper in a couple of ocassions. She was just being stubborn. I thought at a point that I lost, that I wouldn't get paid no matter what because she was not going to reconsider her position.

But finally she just agreed, very uncomfortably, but still agreed... We will get paid!!!! So I was close to death but I survived.

What I can't quite make sense of is the presence of this guy... It means something... It was too powerful, what I felt... It was linked to the previous... It wasn't just escapism... It had a common thread...

posted March 28, 2008 07:39 AM         

You were so right… I can see it now… Maybe my dream was foretelling whas was about to happen.

He told me 10 days ago that he didn’t want a relationship. It was not direct, we talked in general terms… Not that I declared or anything and he rejected me… No… But I implied that he was creating expectations and then he made sure I knew he was not intending to have a formal anything with me… I think he got scared.

I feel deceived. He has made me believe for 2 years now that he was interested in me, that he wanted something more than a friendship.

It has been a close-to-death experience figuratively. I’m espiritually broken, it feels like dying in a hospital bed, painfully numb, as in a emotional comma. It feels like being poisoned. I’m debating in the dark.

The bite provoked a change. I’m distancing myself from him. I’m still lovely but I keep far. If he doesn’t contact me I just ignore his existence. I think he’s starting to notice… and I belive he misses me now.