posted April 14, 2008 02:38 PM
wow maybe someone can shed a light onto my life-long mystery...every once a year, or at times once in a few years, this girl from my childhood appears in my dreams. she lived around the corner from my old house, and i went to school with her. as a child i thought she was pretty. she played the piano and was rather quiet, and had nice long hair. but also she was not very active and and to me, who was the leader of the pack among the boys in the neighborhood, she appeared rather boring and neurotic as well. i have no idea what may have happened to her, last time i saw her must be like 16-17 years ago...
and her mother sort of considered my family as a rival or something. we had moved from a very big city to this small town, so perhaps to their eyes we must have looked rich and sophisticated (it was the opposite of that in reality!)... i remember there was some strange power struggle going on in the community.
this morning i had a dream with her again. we were in a house, and she opened a nice box and gave me a roll of white ribbon, and said "my mom made a dress for me with this ribbon, and she doesn't need the rest so she wants to give it to you". and although it was just a white ribbon and nothing fancy, i thanked her over and over, blissfully.
i woke up and made a note about it immediately.
what concerns me is that i have recently found out about my mother's severe illness. and i live in germany, but i was born in asia and grew up there for a while, and there, the color white can represent the color of funeral, on contrary to the black in the west.
beside this, i'm really puzzled about her appearances in my dreams, and they always seem to have some significance. but i never understand what she represents. i had much closer friends back then, she was sort of a friend, but i wonder, why her?
perhaps someone could explain what she might mean in my dreams? this has really puzzled me for years and years. i want to understand...