posted May 19, 2008 04:29 AM         

First one I was visiting friends who live in another state and we were going to garage sales (My best friend was with me in the dream and going to garage sales is something we do together- the people I was visiting ar eher cousins, incidently). There was a man at one of the garage sales and he fell down and had an epileptic fit.
People were crowding around him arguing about what to put in his mouth, but I told them all to move away, loosened the collar of his shirt and said to leave him alone til he finished fitting.
Later, I was standing in a crowd of people waiting to get something to eat, it was my turn but I hadn't decided yet so I just ordered anything off the menu so as not to hold people up. I then stood back from the crowd eating and the same man was there and had another fit.

Never had a dream where people fitted before.

Another weird dream I had the night before that dream was-
I was away visiting friends (different friends, further away) and saw people I hadn't seen for ages. I was babysitting a friend's baby and it was like a tiny doll and when I changed its nappy I noticed it had tiny male genitals, it was exactly the same as a doll but I knew it was a real baby.
Its mother came home, then a whole lot of other people too and we were all talking, laughing and catching up until I realised it was a wake for one of my male friends (the husband of the woman whose baby it was) it was very sad- I didn't even know the guy was dead. Then someone told me his friend had also died 2 weeks earlier and I became more sad as he was a friend of mine also and he also had children.

posted May 21, 2008 04:05 AM         

These dreams obviously share some similar characteristics and items, and the meanings seem to be related.

I get the feeling these dreams have to do with internally "crowded"/confusing feelings (lots of people around in all dreams) that you have distanced yourself from emotionally (visiting far away friends) concerning problems with a man, or maybe men in general.

There are indications that you have "discounted" yourself due to low self esteem (garage sales/ordered anything so as not to hold people up). In other words, you feel as if your needs/desires are not important or of value, in an unhealthy way. These concepts of yourself lead you into a sort of bi-polar confliction .. "laughing" one moment, and being "very sad" the next.

The baby could suggest that a certain "masculine" aspect of yourself is not yet fully developed, lending to your imbalance. I suppose the dead men could suggest the same, that certain "masculine" aspects of yourself are not functioning, leading to imbalance.

What do you think of that?

posted May 21, 2008 06:57 AM         

I must confess these dreams confounded me somewhat, I couldn't quite grasp the 'feeling' behind them- I can usually feel whatever emotion the dream relates to but I couldn't with these.
I actually do have bi-polar disorder, but it is well under control at the moment- maybe my outward control is now leaving the mixed emotions and dramas to my sub-conscious???
Maybe the medication I'm on is masking symptoms that are manifesting in my dreams???

I don't have problems with men in general- I have a few close male friends, I always have. Although I was raised without a male influence and my one long term relationship was with a man who was more child than man.
I really don't know what to do about this issue I seem to have with men, I've been single for nearly 3 years now and I can't pinpoint any particular issues- I don't think I have any issues with men, maybe more with myself and the fact and I have NO IDEA how to tell them what I want.
For example when I like a man I can sleep with them but I can't ever say 'let's hang out' or whatever, I can actually be a bit rude and dismissive which prevents them from asking me to 'hang out' (apparently).

It seems from these dreams that its getting worse.

Maybe I just have to be brave, talk and be more open and be prepared for rejection cos it sure won't kill me

Had an interesting dream last night but I have to sit and think a bit more before I can get it straight in my head to post it.

posted May 21, 2008 07:28 AM         

Dreamt it was summer and I went to a house where a girl I know lives (next door to the pisces, my best friend used to live there). The house on the other side of her had been pulled down so I helped her get all the timber and carry it into her yard for firewood.
She said something unflattering about the cancer-guy I've slept with in the past and I didn't like it (made me feel a bit ill) but knew it wasn't just her opinion it was others too.
My best friend and her husband arrived and I went home to have a shower before I was going to come back for a few drinks or something. I felt better about the cancer-guy cos they both love him and I was looking forward to seeing him although I felt a bit ill at the thought (felt like anxiety at rejection).
I caught a train that whizzed past so quickly it didn't stop, you just had to jump on and hope for the best or not get on at all.
I got off the train somewhere and went into an old person's nursing home (I'm studying to work there in real life) to have a shower but it was crowded and all the old people wanted to talk to me so I talked to them to keep them happy but I knew I was running late and I just wanted to go.
One old man I was talking to passed away while I stood there, he was smiling I could see his teeth.

Dream over

Definately a weird one. Jumping on the super-fast train whizzing by was pretty bizarre.