posted August 20, 2008 06:07 AM         

I tend to be sensitive to the energies around me and easily translate into imagery… I’m worried about what the universe is vibrating with that I’m picking up… My Higher Self must know something that is trying to tell me… and it must be awful…

I don’t remember most of it. But I do remember the big old and empty house, with dirty walls completely barren. The silence with the rumours of a presence, a heavy atmosphere. A very eerie clear day… I was kind of lost, not finding anyone, wandering around with that uneasy feeling…

I heard noise and I got momentarily outside. There were strange people, odd gigantic creatures I felt alien to me and I went back inside. I started to call my mother, trying to find someone familiar, someone I felt connected to… I heard her coming, she had been hanging the washing out in the balcony… And she appeared, very thin and pale, dressed with rags and… completely covered in fresh blood… her own blood… as if it was flowing out of her pores… She looked very ill and dragged herself along the house, as a vampire or as an spectre.

I felt sick. A mixture of pain, pity and terror. ‘Mum, what happened to you?’ She grasped ‘ Vampiritis’ as she was referring to an illness…

I run towards the front door, wanting to run away. And the door bolt was covered in thick garnet blood… but I grabbed it anyway, I needed to get out… ‘No!’ my mother grasped as if trying to protect me, as if the blood was infectious… Then I heard a kind of hissing coming from her behind, a kind of terrifying hiss… ´The reptile is coming…´

posted August 20, 2008 06:18 AM         

My teeth were painful, very painful all the time… As if they were going to come out… It felt as if I was going to shed them as snakes do with their skin… I kept looking myself in a mirror because I sensed them getting loose and I could see a new set of teeth showing underneath…

posted August 28, 2008 04:42 AM         

What a creepy dream! I'm not sure about the association between losing teeth and death, unless the "death" is of some part of yourself. Besides, there are new teeth underneath which suggests an eventual self-renewal of some kind. Before the renewal comes however, it is suggested that there is something you are having trouble coming to terms with (loose teeth).

Symbolically, teeth can be very much related to vampirism, which seems to be the case here. It could be suggested that whatever it is that you are having difficulty incorporating or coming to terms with is draining your energies.

If your feelings within the dream are a reflection of a waking life situation, then I must ask, do you feel lost, wandering, or alone? Are you in need of a meaningful connection with someone?

Is there something fearful or painful that you are running from or do not want to face?

As you mother is a subject in the dream, the waking life situation could involve her, or she could simply symbolize someone to feel connected to, as you stated in the dream. She could symbolize that feminine aspect of yourself which is in need.

The coming reptile seems to reflect your need or your fear as one which is primal, or basic, or deeply rooted.

Does any of this make sense to you?

posted August 29, 2008 07:36 PM         

Now that you say that, I definitely know what "the reptile" is... Need and fear, both things. Yes, primal and basic, deeply rooted. It had been haunting me for a while, especially the week before the dream... because I feel it is coming close, the time to face it is approaching...

It has always been there, inside me, that terror I don't quite understand. I cannot explain why it is there but it has always been.

But, why is my symbolic mother so drained, so ill? I suppose it makes sense that the feminine side of me is in need.

I suppose it's time to get out that empty house. That oppresive and lonely house. That awful house. The prison where my mother is slowly dying, where the reptile haunts me... Those eclipses on my natal cursed configuration, Saturn conjunct Venus in the 8th house. Messing things around, shaking me... making me think that is time for a change... that the reptile is coming... and I'm terrified...

Eclipses symbolise change, I'm shedding my teeth... Saturn has Venus trapped... The old barren house where my femenine side is trapped and slowly dies... The 8th house, house of transformation, house of death, house of sex... The house of the reptile...

What is the meaning of symbolic blood?? Why is the door bolt covered in sticky, coagulated blood??
An what about the noisy outside? The huge creatures?

In waking life, there is someone stirring up the change. Making things I had already gave up on posible. Things I fear and I had locked out of my life. Things that I need.
Someone I fear to lose and I deep inside fear to have. Someone I desperatedly need but who will bring changes that I have feared my whole life.