posted August 21, 2008 04:59 AM         

I was reading yesterday letters from my ex great love and how he wrote (that was his second contact with me, 2002) that he is going to help me about my health and other things, I only have to agree. No conditions, nothing. We went apart next year, 2003 (although we didn't have direct contact: only letters, phones and mails).
After that I was thinking how long I am begging and asking for help about my health and there is nobody to help me (only words don't help very much as I am in terrible situation). I was trying suicide more times since then (the very first time, I was nearly 24 years old).

This morning about 3:00 am I have terrible Neuralgia pains in my right eye and neck and woke up. I took another sleeping pill and got asleep.
Then came my dream; I was lying down on the hill on one meadow with not much grass. It was clear weather but no Sun. Down there was valley and again hill. There were many people, most of them men.
I didn't realize that about one or two meters left from me was one man lying down just like me (parallel). After that he came close to me, has embraced me. In that moment I have seen that is my ex friend. I knew somehow what he wanted just right there and told him: please not now, people are looking us. I have looked at my watch and have seen the date: April 6th. That date has no meaning to me at all. I woke up at 4:50 am.
I must say that in the year 2002 I have told him (looking his Natal Chart and ruler of his 5th house in 9th and is going that year direct) that he is going to meet new love in the year 2003.

He went to abroad to work (February 2003) and we wrote mails to each other, but not very often because this country is in Asia. I wrote him mail April 29th, 2003 that I can't stay with him because I am sick all the time (there was other reason as well)and have no idea what is wrong with me (now I know).
What happened: about that time he really met very young woman and has fallen in love with her (he told me that February 2004) and she was with him 9 months and had to leave to her Country. He told me also that he is very much in love with her.
To him has happened bad thing. February 2006, he had brain attack and since then he is in wheel chair. His young love comes sometimes to visit him (he has enough money) and she wants to marry him to stay in EU (she lives in one Asian Country).
With me he doesn’t want to talk anymore. In fact his nurse told me, that he hardly can speak.

I must say, that I am over all since two years but don't know why I have dreamed about him and why I have seen just April 6th?

posted August 29, 2008 04:35 AM         

Well, I think the dream was brought about by the letters you read and reflects the situation that has become between the two of you. There was attraction (he embraced you) but there was really no future (not much grass/no Sun).

As for the date, I do not know. If you gain any insight as to what the date means, I would love to know about it.