posted January 03, 2009 03:43 AM
Hi bunnies,I agree with Ra.
Specifically, a couple of things come to mind and this is to do with guilt over what you perceive as your lack of care for your daughter in these instances.
Was there an incident involving a swing where she got a bit hurt or upset? You were directly involved and thought you were careless?
Secondly, did you allow your daughter to go and play with the neighbours and afterwards you were plagued with guilt over the possible ramifications. Looking back you feel you were too flippant in the decision and believe you had been careless in remembering just how precious she is.
Well, if these apply then you are thoroughly burdening yourself and placing yourself under a lot of pressure. I can see your point but we are only human and its impossible to foresee all dramas. Its easy to berate ourselves in hindsight, but rest assured, anyone who worries that much is generally pretty caring and is doing their best.
You sound like you're losing confidence in mothering a bit, it happens to most of us at times. There are so many things to worry about with kids, I know. As a suggestion, I think you are very tired, see if someone you can trust, preferably a female that you like, can take her off your hands for a few hours once a week or even over night. You need to feel that someone else can share the burden of care I think.