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From: Dhaka, Bangladesh
Registered: Oct 2001

posted March 11, 2009 06:35 PM         

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so i've had lucid dreams before, not often but a few times and each time when i realized i was lucid, it was just me chilling, fighting shadows and what not. but two days ago i had a lucid dream which was so completely different than the ones i've had before, it left me feeling quite..heady.
i'm gonna divert now just a little bit to give a little background story. for a few weeks now, i've kinda sorta started seeing this guy and this is the first time i've even become interested in someone ever since my very disastrous and traumatic twin soul relationship..way too much karma for either of us to handle..and this guy is very sweet and VERY different from the kind of men i've dated before (selfish, self-involved, you all know the kind). of course i'm being extra cautious with him since i don't want a repetition of past occurrences. we started out as friends and then our mutual attraction sort of made us go in a different direction and of course i have all these feelings of insecurity and all this doubt about what he might be looking for...
back to the dream. we were in our apartment and my whole family was there, it was night time and everyone was sort of just talking to each other being very nice,etc. then i walked over to the window and sat down beside it and he came and sat next to me and that's when my dream just suddenly became lucid and it was an aweeesooomme feeling. the stars outside were suddenly so bright and there was a cool breeze and i was looking at him and i felt his distinct presence (i assume this was because he was there in his astral self). i also felt a since of euphoria and i said to him, i know this is a dream and i know you're here in your astral self, so i have to ask you a question that i can't ask when we're both awake. he smiled and said, sure. so i said this thing we have, is this just about sex, or do you like me. he smiled a mysterious pisces-man-with-a-stellium-in-scorpio smile and said something completely irrelevant (which i dont remember). so i said i guess that answers my question then and since this is my dream, i'm gonna chose to avoid getting embarrassed and walk away; and i got up to leave when he grabbed my hand and said, it's not that i don't like you, it's that i really really like you. i looked at him and there was this light above his head, i think i saw his halo and we smiled at each other and our eyes met and then bam, the lucidity was gone again and i don't remember the rest of the dream.
now my question is...what was this all about?? i mean i'd gotten used to seeing him every time i meditated, and his presence would be there when i was dreaming the usual kind of dreams, but this felt very intense, and very different...
insights anyone? any knowflakes have any thoughts on this? anyone ever experienced anything like this? Ra, Peri, any expert insights?
would love to hear what everyone has to say.

love n peace

Gooober

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From: Kyiv, Ukraine
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posted March 12, 2009 10:58 AM         

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I have a good feeling about this dream seems like it is very difficult for you to open up and and trust again so you are being extra cautious and you sort of want to know if he is worthy of your trust and attention and what he is really thinking about your relationship, so you ask him directly about it in your dream, he seems to be a really nice and sincere person and he truly likes you and wants to know you better but I guess it is too soon for him to know / admit how far he wants it to go ... it may be some sort of a precognitive dream, you may desperately want to get some guarantees or assurance that it is very important for him but he is not ready to tell you yet although from you dream it is obvious it is not just about sex he is truly interested and you might even want to leave cozz it might be too stressful for you to be in a situation where you dont feel the ground beneath your feet and he will want you back ... so if you think you like him enough to wait and see, go for it, give it a chance, let the process unfold naturally.

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posted March 13, 2009 10:10 AM         

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see my problem is peri find it hard to chill. i do like him a lot, but all these annoying suspicions keep nagging at me, i just don't wanna get duped again..
i did feel reassured by this dream, it felt very intense and good intense, but then i was like, is it my subconscious telling me stuff i desperately wanna believe? but i know you're right, it felt too good to not be true . also i think you are right about him not wanting to admit how far he wants to go..he's been scarred in the past too, so i'm not the only one being cautious.
he weaves in an out of my dreams quite often actually, but none of those dreams felt quite so different as this one. it makes me think of linda's poem, venus trines at midnight..
..finally, i sink into sleep
where you wait
and it happens again and again and again
three times
then suddenly, angrily
i leap out of slumber
to stay up till dawn
reading and eating cinnamon toast
look, something has to be done
i refuse to have an affair with a ghost
now that we're so intimately acquainted in dreams
for old times' sake
couldn't i run into your arms just once
when we're alone -- and awake?

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posted March 13, 2009 12:39 PM         

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cool poem

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