posted January 20, 2010 06:51 PM         

i must admit to being quite reluctant to believe in feelings and intuition and psychic-ness and all of that stuff that doesn't make logical sense or there is no hard core factual evidence beyond a "feeling." even though i seem to have a very strong ability to empathsize and understand feelings and i can get people without words (i seem to be an expert at this) it doesn't mean that i like that i have this ability. i have a very hard time accepting it. i get embarrassed to admit that i have feelings or intuition about anything. to me it sounds silly even though i know it to be true in what i feel. i guess in general i have hard time feeling feelings.

if i can admit it, i will admit that i do have a strong connection with this person. why, how...it embarrasses me to say that i don't know. but for some reason it's there. i try to deny it or ignore it but i can't. i rarely if ever dream about this person. but there have been 3 very vivid dreams (one from yesterday night) where i dreamed an event would happen involving this person and then the next day it happened.

yesterday's dream was one of those but it seemed so real dreams. and then this morning it happened. i sometimes feel as if these dreams are a form of communication with this person. or something weird is going on in the air that i have this dream and then something happens unexpectedly and out of my control involving this person in real life. it scares me, embarrasses me, confuses me, makes me wish it never happened.

posted January 21, 2010 09:08 PM         

Would you feel comfortable sharing any details of the dream?

posted January 22, 2010 07:40 PM         

the dreams are often just very normal but i've only had a few in the last few years and that's it.

but let me say first that recently i've kind of decided to myself that i'll try to break away from this person. just kind of disappear and be like forget about this unspoken bond we have. i'm going to go out of my way to just block it all out. pretend it never happened and be how i used to be before this happened. oblivious and a nobody to this person. i've been going on this route since november and it's funny how the moment i start to break away, things happen. that month and onwards...couldn't get away from this person. i'd turn around and literally be like ahhh!!!!

but that night when i had the dream, that was the first night that i didn't think about him or whatever about him. i have been stressed out at work and overworked that all i have on my brain is work as well as some personal things like a trip and all that.

i actually felt good that night like alright! i'm breaking away! but every time i try to break away something happens and i run into him at the most oddest place and oddest time. but this was the first time ever that i tried to break away and then i had a dream where i ran into him. i'm walking and then there he is walking across the street from me and we're both staring across the street at each other. the dream was as simple as that. the thing was, the dream seemed so real. i thought it was happening as i dreamed it.

and so of course, the very next morning i ran into him at the most weirdest time and weirdest place. when i mean weird i mean weird in that i'm at a place at a time where i never ever can be found at.

the irony is, i had cancelled out of a meeting which i was then forced to go to unexpectedly. i was upset that i had to drop everything to go and we were late for the meeting already.

after the meeting, i had to follow my colleague (who forced me to go) to a different floor as he had an errand to run, but he brought us to the wrong floor so we had to wait for the elevator again. because he took us to the wrong floor, the person in question here also showed up to catch the elevator after we had gotten off of it. i saw him and i just cringed like omg not again!!

and it's like, he shouldn't even be in the area we were in waiting for an elevator either. that was our first time crossing paths for this year. and i'm just like oh god...it's 2010 now...and it's continuing. my feeling before the dream and very recently has been that this person may be worried that i've forgotten about him or am deliberately forgetting about him. if i have any so-called psychic powers with him, that's the feeling i've been getting.

there's just been so many encounters and so many strange feelings i've had over the years that sort of proves that i may have some connection. there were times when i was away from work very randomly during the week, like on a weds or thurs, and i had a very strong feeling or sensation in my stomach like an aching or "missing you" feeling. i truly felt he was missing me or something like that. i can't describe it other than my stomach feels like it hurts and it's as if i'm missing someone and i'm aching for them and i can't wait to see that person.

and...okay not to sound weird but i have a personal website and it tracks ip addresses and i have his ip address and the days when i've felt these weird sensations...i'll look at my site stats and i'll see his ip address pop up on the day i wasn't at work. and i'm not kidding either. even i don't want to believe it.

i have a connection with a male friend as well, and there will be times when i'll feel violently ill or this feeling like something's not right with my friend and he will call me and tell me about something going terribly wrong with him. with him i know and accept there's a connection because we're close friends. and we've both acknowledged that we both are close in that way. but with this person, we're like sort of strangers or acquaintances but that's it. i wouldn't call him a friend.

i will barely admit to having some sort of connection with this person, but now it's like, this is bleeding over into my dreams and it's like why? i already feel as if we're chained somehow when we're both awake, but to go to sleep and feel him almost try to reach out in the dream...that's insanity.

i had another vivid one involving him last night that seemd so real too. he popped up on IM (which i don't use) and he kept messaging me and messaging me. i've never had a dream about him messaging me ever. i woke up feeling scared.

i guess firstly, it's really hard to admit having a psychic connection to anyone. that seems strange. but then it's like to go one step further to say i may have a connection with an acquaintance i've had a few conversations with but that's it. that's hard for my mind to believe.

i try not to talk about this anymore as this was one of my promises from back in november, but it's hard when it keeps returning. i don't know what to do with it. i try to block it out or pretend like it doesn't exist to make myself feel sane but then insane things happen. the dream scared me which is why i had posted this question.

does it happen to anyone else or am i just cursed or crazy?

posted January 22, 2010 09:00 PM         

May be a karmic bond with you guys...even though he is still not a very intimate friend of yours. As much as you try to distance from him he is there...push pull between you there is a reason the Universe has him around you.

I don't know your story with him but the way he is trying to reach you in your dreams through messaging may be indication he is contacting you...he may not be aware of it yet in his conscious state but there is definitely a connection for whatever purpose, yet to unfold...and that is why you cannot keep him away.

posted January 22, 2010 10:31 PM         

i tried to get to know him or be normal friends, but i failed at that. he just seems very guarded and hard to get to know or very guarded towards me. i'm really sensitive so if someone isn't opening up, i don't press them. like if someone doesn't elaborate on a point, i don't ask a follow up question. i asked him once about what jobs he had worked at in the past but he just said oh of course i've had other jobs. i sensed he didn't want to elaborate because my past jobs he noted were "exciting" so i just left it alone.

it's already hard to be friends with a complete stranger who you don't see very often, and harder if they're seemingly so shy. i'm not an outgoing person either but at least i tried to say hi and be nice.

the irony is, he was the one who started following me around one day and it persisted for two years until finally i was like okay i better just say hi and make this normal. i don't go around being friendly with strangers or wanting to know people i don't know hence why it took so long.

after my efforts to get to know him and to be a friend failed, i just kind of tried to gradually drift away from him. i honestly thought that after i finally acknowledged him that we could start on the road of being friends like i am with the friends i have. one day you meet, you say hi, you continue on from there. but it was not the case. all i got were walls and walls and sometimes no walls at all and it was more walls again. so i just gave up. it's like hey, if you don't want to be honest friends with me, then i can respect that.

i tried to think about why this has happened. if it's karma or fate, what's his reason for being in my life for? he doesn't seem to want to be friends with me so then what has this been good for? what's he still doing in my life for? to make me feel uneasy or weird because this is happening?

i've matured enough now, as so many years have gone by, that now i just pretend as if it doesn't happen. it's easier for me to deal with this if i just pretended it all away. but then i started having the dreams, well it's just two so far, and i'm like, okay now this is a new level of crazy i just cannot handle.

posted January 22, 2010 11:18 PM         

No you are not crazy!

Yes I had a connection with someone where at first it seemed like the relationship was just going to stay in dreamland but it sure manifested into a very intense one in waking life. Not sure how long you've known this guy for but it sounds like he may be a little intimidated by you...

You will know what you need to know when the time is right. Meantime if you don't already have one why don't you keep a journal and see where this "relationship" leads...because even if it doesn't become an intimate one maybe all these "fated" events between you two are guiding you to someone/something else...

posted January 23, 2010 12:38 PM         

i do keep a journal in general and do account for this story as well. i still have no idea what this is for. i used to think oh maybe it's to teach me to have some courage and to put myself out there. i'm generally afraid of people i don't know so guy or girl, cashier...anyone...i find it hard to be sociable or open to anyone. so to actually "put myself out there" to greet someone and try to make conversation with the addition of the strange/intense encounters (but never addressing them)...that's a huge development for me. and i recognized that. and i'm grateful for that.

but then that didn't work out so well, but i was still proud of myself that i broke the silence first and tried to make an effort to make a friendship or friendliness type of thing. at least i know in future, i'll be able to be more bold and brave.

there would be times when we'd be normal and have great conversation like normal friends would. and it's funny, after one time, my male friend asked me, did you hug him before you left? and i just made a face and said are you kidding me? why would i do that? we had a nice personal moment between us and we were walking together and we stopped. but then i stepped away from him to stand further away from him. imagine you and i are standing very close to each other and facing each other and then i suddenly take a huge step back away from you. why? because i felt that after so long of him being so guarded that i thought i was doing the right thing by giving him some personal space. like i said before, i don't force people to be my friend or anything like that. if i sense that they're very guarded towards me or don't like me, i back away and try to act neutral and cordial. if they show me that they are now liking me more or whatever, then that's when i become more open with them again, too.

but then after that moment it was like starting back at square one, and i was just like well time to call this quits. i've had this going on for over 4 yrs now. not once in those 4 years have i asked to exchange numbers or emails or anything personal like that because i only ask of that or need things like that if i'm a friend to someone. i know how to keep boundaries and respect boundaries and all that. so after i gave up i figured well journey's over. but it still persists.

i sensed upon our first official meeting that he seemed not necessarily intimidated but i guess inadequate when comparing our backgrounds. we're very, very similar people but what we've done or experienced are vastly different. but then i don't think that means anything because i know he's good friends with people who are highly successful and done many things he hasn't so i don't know why i'm any different. my hope was that at least we could be normal friends like the way i see him be around other people, but that's not the case.

posted January 24, 2010 10:55 AM         

well either this man's energy is so persistent in your life, still is because he is a mirror for you - like you said you backed off and since then it went back to square one...showing maybe you need to be bolder, not necessarily for him but for your current and future relationships.
Or maybe there is meant to be more between you for intimacy, something I cannot say that only time will unfold.

Seems you have a good grip on it though and you are right its good to respect boundaries but its also wise to follow your heart and what it urges you to do.

So maybe he is your guide to help you conquer your shyness...
Just the fact that you are aware of yourself shows you will get there soon enough!

posted January 24, 2010 12:53 PM         

yeah i thought it was that, a way for me to come out of my shell. but really now, is there not a more simple way for me to learn to step outside of myself? ;-) i know lots and lots of timid and shy people and they don't have to go through this! makes me laugh.

my problem is just what you stated. respecting boundaries versus following your heart. once i feel or sense that someone puts down boundaries for me, i remain in place. doesn't matter what i feel or know to be true, because the boundaries are there, i adhere to it. you know the whole it's not what they say but what they do thing? no sorry i can't understand that.

i hope i figure this out soon. i thought i did, but it doesn't seem to be the right conclusion. my thinking is, as soon as i figure it out, this craziness should end. i've waited for so long, tried to evolve and mature in the meanwhile, and yet i'm still not freed from this.

would you be able to elaborate on your own experience? what did you take from that?

posted January 24, 2010 06:38 PM         

Well when you think you've figured it out thats when you are in for more

What I learnt from him and that experience is to obey the signs of the Universe...what is meant to be will be and no matter how I pushed he pulled and I was in it as long as we both needed to be...

so maybe that is why he keeps popping in your life, so continue to ask your questions and you will get your answers, which will lead to more questions but in time you will either develop a friendly relationship with him or you will overcome your shyness and once you do you will see he won't be an issue anymore.

posted January 26, 2010 07:30 PM         

...well you are not alone in the waiting game. We live and learn and learn and keep learning. There isn't a timeline on this otherwise it would be too easy

It took us a few years. The way out though is through it all...no matter how frustrating it gets you will always see the changes you will be making and the aha! moments you will be getting and you will know its worth it.

posted March 05, 2010 02:23 AM         

I am dreaming of someone alot lately as well.

We've talked but we haven't seen one another since October.

I seriously think he's pulling on my cord, because he comes to me so vividly in my dreams. Last night, or the night before, he was crying. Like really sobbing, and he was telling me something, I remember the word "urgent" being used, in the conversation. And I remember myself saying, "yes, I will remember, I promise!"

Now, I've forgotten, but, I just wish whatever the heck he is trying to say, he would just call me, text me, IM me, something other than this.

But then, I have to wonder, does HE even KNOW he's doing it??? IDK.

posted March 06, 2010 12:01 AM         

definitely do not mind any of your sorts of musings angsty or non-angsty thanks for responding

do you hear from this person or see them suddenly after the vivid dreams? do you feel as if you're inexplicably chained to this person and you wonder why it is the way it is?

my only concern, if i can call it a concern, is that i rarely if ever dream of this person but it's just as of late that i do or have dreamt of this person. that's fine and all, i mean, we all dream about someone at times. i wouldn't wonder about this if i didn't have the part two real life portion of the dream occur right afterwards. i've known of this person for several years now and including the dreams i've mentioned here, there are only 3 others i can recall so that's it for now in total. not many. i was averaging one a year until now and it's like why?

however, do you feel the same way about having these dreams? do they make you feel a bit nervous? like makes you wonder...wow are dreams and psychic connections real? am i crazy? why does it have to happen to me? why can't it just be normal and we communicate like normal everyday people instead of through signs and dreams and non-tangible routes?

i will admit that the day before i had the dream, i came across signs of this person and whenever signs occur that remind me of this person, i start to get anxious because i know something's gonna happen that will involve me crossing paths with this guy and it always does happen. it's come to the point now when i get these dreams or signs, i get my guard up waiting for a surprise attack.

this may sound funny but at this point...i think i'm just tired or worn down by all of the psychic connections/signs/dreams. i used to feel more special and wow about it but now i'm like oh god, it's happening again, someone hide me. i'm tired of participating in this if it really truly does exist in the first place that is. overall i'm just tired of signs and dreams and what not.

sorry...when it happens for so long and continues on without an explanation or resolution it makes me feel resentful as opposed to special now. it's like if i can't figure this out after this long then i'm turning off my so-called psychic abilities and quitting.

but even then i know i'm not escaping from this. i've tried before and it's like trying to run away from your own shadow or your past. you just can't get rid of it until you figure it out. which i've tried and thought i did but i can't get the right answer.

posted March 07, 2010 08:39 PM         

Stopandstare try asking yourself before next time you fall asleep why you are seeing him. What do you need to know about this dream. If you cannont communicate with him consciously try this method for yourself.

Gypsee
is it Mr Pisces or Mr Scorpio...
Try asking him to tell you what he needs next time you go to sleep too.
If he cannot tell you otherwise maybe you guys can talk this way. Obviously he needs you.

posted March 08, 2010 07:17 PM         

i know this sounds stupid but like...i guess for me i would love to just share something about what's going on with me with him since i haven't had a conversation with him in over a year. it's like, i already have interesting stories lined up for when i get my next chance. and this email from him seemed like my chance.

i thought it was so real. i do remember what i wrote in my email back to him. but then that was it. i don't remember anything else.