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taurusvirgoleolady1974
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posted February 01, 2010 05:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for taurusvirgoleolady1974     Edit/Delete Message
my father died april 13, 2009***
my dream was two nights ago. i was walking around his neighborhood crying and literally lost that he had died. i walked past his house, and his wife and my brother came out and said "Good news! hes not dead! hes okay!" i was so happy and i ran in the house. sure enough there he was, sitting on the floor and said "Baby why are you crying? dont cry, I told you i would be oka." then i just kept hugging him and touching him. i said i am so glad you are here. i was crying tears of joy. then, it was like someone yanked me out of the dream. my happiness was interrupted; i woke up being very upset. it was like someone was teasing me! i started crying and calling his name. it seems as if i am back to square one now. i cant seem to stop crying.

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GypseeWind
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posted February 01, 2010 06:45 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message
Please don't cry! You'll make me cry. Could you think of it as your Dad affirming to you that he is alive and okay, where he is at now??

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taurusvirgoleolady1974
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posted February 04, 2010 10:44 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for taurusvirgoleolady1974     Edit/Delete Message
hi gypseewind, i saw your post in astral! thanks! i just cant seem to shake it.thats why i wanted to post my chart. thanks for caring.

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GypseeWind
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posted February 05, 2010 02:03 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message
I know, I saw your post in Astro.

I just wanted to say from experience, that I know what you mean.

It wasn't that long ago of your dad's passing.

when my Grandpa (who raised me, and was LIKE my dad) died, I had dreams like yours, I would wake myself up wailing "no, don't go, please, please" Ugg, it was awful.

I believe that we have these dreams when someone passes for them to comfort you, even though as you say, it triggered your upset.
Also, he still may be close by you.

My dreams of my Grandpa slowly dwindled and dwindled, and I knew he'd moved on to other plane. I cherish those dreams, and wish I still had them.

Every now and then, he will come to me, and I am so happy to see him when he does.
I believe at some point you will get there too, it's just so new for you right now.

And excuse my rudeness before, I meant to say, my condolences and sorry for your personal loss.

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taurusvirgoleolady1974
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posted February 05, 2010 12:38 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for taurusvirgoleolady1974     Edit/Delete Message
Wow Gypsee my condolences for your loss as well. i know it hurt in an awful way when you had those dreams and you asked him not to leave. Theres something special about a Grandpa, isnt there? Especially since he raised you.
Today, Im feeling a little better, I have not shed one tear.
The older i get, i know we will see our loved ones again. I have that faith. just wish they were here.
I respect people who are unselfish enough to not really mourn and know their loved ones are in a better place. I want mine back. maybe i can be like that one day, unselfish. They dont miss us, we miss them.its such a great place, they cant wait for us to get there. Until then...we just have to keep going, dont we?
If you would like to share some memories, on one of these forums, that would be great. i would like to hear sometimes.

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GypseeWind
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posted February 05, 2010 02:24 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message
Yes, you are so right, there is something very special about Grandpa's!

I know how you feel about the selfish thing. I have told in my personal thread in the Know Two Are Alike forum that in 18 or 19 months (?) not sure, I've been to, as of last week or the week before, 14 funerals!!
I thought God was out to get me, I really did!
I mean, it started on April 14, 2008, when my best friend died, and it's just gone from there, with two Aunts, three cousins, and a bunch of friends.
Last year, a gal that was in my wedding was killed (on April 14th, no less!) in a freak traffic accident.
But, yeah, I was mad, mad, mad, for a long time.

I felt like people had purposely LEFT me.
When my Grandpa died, he was the last of the four that raised me collectively, that being, him, my Granda, my aunt and my uncle. They all died within 2 years of one another.
I thought I'de lose it, and I sorta did for awhile.

And, I think a tribute thread is a wonderful idea! You could start something like that in LL2, or you could start your own personal thread in KTAA, if you feel up to it. Of course I would share, and I'm sure others would too!

Talking about it does help, despite what others say. RE: my best friend that passed on April 14, his widow will not let anyone discuss him in her presence. It's just awful!
She feels it's depressing, and we should move on.

I feel that we should talk about him, remember him, and celebrate his awesome life.
I think that people deserved to be remembered with warmth, and love, and dignity, otherwise, it doesn't seem that we've made a mark during our lifetimes, you know?

Glad you aren't crying today. It gets better, I promise.

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Mystique
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posted February 06, 2010 02:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Mystique     Edit/Delete Message
TaurusVirgolady

May God comfort you, I know how hard this is. I have had many loved ones leave before me and with each one brings memories of the previous loved one's passing, and all those emotions come back rushing to stay with me for a while.
I used to look forward to sleeping just to see them and I also realized that when I was very emotional that is when I couldn't see them.

There is nothing anyone can say to really relieve the pain you are going through even though we all try, especially since we have had our own partings but you will heal slowly that is for sure!

We always stay connected with our loved ones no matter which realm we are in so I hope that will comfort you a little.

Mystique

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