posted November 24, 2010 06:24 PM
Hi Bene,I agree with Gypsee totally.
I would like to add my interpretation:
Are you thinking of holding a seance?
You're wondering perhaps if you should start a psychic/spiritual 'club'/get-together complete with food like a buffet? - chicken is definitely on the table as well as guacamole, haha.
You think it would be a good way to show your bff and others that you really have some connection/future/valid position to metaphysical/astrological/psychic people - networks.
But you have a niggling doubt...is this hypocritical? - you do a self-check of your motivations. Do you really have to prove your nature/natural aptitudes/foresight/forward thinking and tenable persona and connections - you think.
You hate the superficial way of people but you wonder if you yourself are not a tiny bit attracted to the show and excitement of living outside the square and putting on display your - (can't find the word in this - but it keeps coming up) - suffice to say natural inbuilt inclination/receptivity to the significance of cosmic interplay within self and between people etc.
(Spiritual/clairvoyant vision perhaps - along the lines of the elements in SunChild's posting on such.)
You did have a very valid experience that you treasure and you often reflect on it to make sure you maintain the correctness of the meaning and the sensations of awareness that you experienced.
Some people, you think, think you are a crack pot or will finally crack up eventually with all your 'scrapbook' of details that depict the threads, coincidences and significances through your life.
You don't think you get enough artistic credit for the validity in your awareness/insight/experiences (Same word/concept that I can't quite put into words).
You won't be pushed under a barrel (mushroom and pizza idea).