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posted January 13, 2011 05:30 AM            

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Ok quickly before I forget.

Somehow I became pregnant with SunChilds baby (the one she recently gave birth to. I read her thread for the first time yesterday)It somehow transferred out of her into me. The baby was due any day but I looked kind of like her first 2 pics. I'm laying down on the couch in the house I grew up in (it looks a little different with the furniture in different places) and I start to feel this weird sensation, first it was my water breaking but it felt more like when I have a heavy period in the first 2 days. No mess or water was actually spilled. Then the other thing I started to feel was this weird pulling sensation like the baby coming out. I mentioned this to my friend? who was with me and then I reached down and sure enough I feel and see the baby crowning. You know how in dreams you can see from 2 angles at the same time, well like that. So I got up and and start yelling that the baby is coming. "It's coming!" we're both yelling (whoever was with me)Finally someone realizes we meant the baby (my family was in the other room) and the mid-wife comes running in. Since theres no time to go anywhere she starts arranging newspaper on the floor, takes my shoes/sneakers and piles them together, this was apparently to raise my bum off the floor. Then for some reason she removes the newspaper from where I was supposed to be lying and just put some tape in like an x where my head was supposed to be, and puts the paper after the shoes where the baby would come out. I'm really upset about this. The x is way too close to the shoes and there's no way my head could lie on there at the same time when my bum is on the shoes. The mid-wife was pretty. She was lean, good body. Just right. Her hair was in a ponytale with a few wisps hanging around her face. She was a dirty blonde kind of, or like a blond gray..she was about 40 something maybe 35? I think her hair made her look older than she was. I remember thinking this when I looked at her. I thought she was beautiful. I wanted to just look at her for a little bit. Anyway she's waiting for me to undress and lie down, when I start crying in racking heaves because I just realized I'm going to give birth alone, my husband (my first love) is not there to hold my hand. Neither is SunChilds husband. I lay down and she tells me well I think the baby went back inside, seems it doesn't want to come out when you're this upset and wants you to have someone with you. I just nod my head. Come to think of it I think SunChild might've been the one with me on the couch.

This is where it gets muddled. I think the next part is that I'm still pregnant. I'm walking around some weird place with my mom, sister and my grandma. I think it was around this church I went to once when I was really young. I'm telling them how I'm not going to induce labor or get vaccines because that's the way SunChild wants it and I agree with her 100% We're walking a certain way to back inside and there are these huge teradactile birds around. The wind starts blowing and they go over to where they have their eggs and cover them with their wings so that they don't blow away. I turn around and say "C'mon lets go another way, they're protecting their young and I don't want them to attack us bc they think we're taking them." I wasn't scared just understanding. (They did look scary though) My grandma then says "I'll show them! I'll take all their eggs!" She says this in English I think, which she knows not one word of. I just exclaim "Grandma" (in our native tongue) we start heading inside.
Then it switches. This part is even more muddled.
I'm hanging out with my friend trying to walk around and forget what happened. I was upset about the whole baby thing. We're in a department store and her bf suggests we go into the sauna. I ask the the dry or wet sauna. He said there's one of each and we go into the dry one. The people had their clothes on in there and I didn't want to take them off. I just wasn't in the mood. It looks a bit like a long dressing room with a window at the very end. I didn't pay much attention to anything else, I was pretty much zeroed in on the window. We start walking there at a leisurely pace. There's a man standing in front of it. It had tattered red curtains and you could see out from below them, through the bottom of the windows. The window itself was practically on the the floor and didn't reach much, reached our waists I think. As we're closing in the man kind of adjusts himself like he was peeing. I look down in front of the window and sure enough there's a wet line expanding very slowly. It looks rather like this __________________ We looked out the window from the bottom and could see a truck loading/unloading things. I say this sauna is colder than I'm used to. Actually it wasn't warm at all but this bothered me only initially. We go back to where my friends friends where waiting for us. I tell them about my dream. How it was so vivid, how I could feel the water breaking, explaining how it was like a heavy menstrual flow, how I could really feel the roundness of my stomach but the only thing I couldn't feel was the baby moving around in me, well because I'd never experienced that in life. And then it was gone. I remember feeling sad about that, very sad. That and the fact that I had no one to hold my hand. It wasn't crying sad, more melancholy sad. We walk around some more at this point I ventured off on my own and I stumble upon some of my mother's clothes which should've been hanging but where half hanging out of the garment bag. I take them all out and start rearranging them. There was a dress and a pair of pants and 2 empty clothes hangers. As I'm rearranging them (to put them in order, mess bad)I remember wondering how it would have worked out, with the baby. Of course I couldn't keep it because it wasn't mine. I was just giving birth to it. But I could visit the baby. I pictured running up to the baby and hugging it, holding it, buying gifts for it. This comforted my sadness a bit, I just hoped it would be ok with SunChild and her husband.
As I finish tidying the clothes and hangers my mom and Will Smith(?) crawl through the window that was there (bringing in full sunshine by the way once I turned to look) and I asked my mom why here clothes where there and she told me bc she had been hired as a personal shopper. (Funny because my sis and I would always dress my mom) I say "Why would they hire you?" she says "Because I know how to put together things". I think that's either where it ended or all I remember.

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posted January 13, 2011 05:30 AM            

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Weird right?

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posted January 13, 2011 11:31 AM            

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Nah, not so weird, when I first came here, I dreamt of Lexx sitting on my bed, dressed in a Emerald green dress with a high color, kind of like a queen in days of old, and she had an important message for me.
She said later that she was thinking of me that same day, so no, not so weird.
At any rate, I'll need to take some notes and think about it for awhile.
I've just woke up, and haven't had any coffee. I'm lucky this is coming out in English.....

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posted January 13, 2011 04:37 PM            

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Omigosh! wow, I'll have to come back later to re read and reply!!!!

I used to have dreams about visiting Randall, and hanging out with T.

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posted January 13, 2011 06:17 PM            

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Yea but I don't even talk to you!
I guess this is what happens after reading every thread on this forum.

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posted January 18, 2011 05:14 PM            

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LOL I know! ... I'm still half way through reading it, keep getting interrupted.

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posted January 18, 2011 08:22 PM            

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Me too. I haven't forgot you, littlecloud, I just can't concentrate these days, let alone string words together coherently.

I'ma go ahead and blame the full moon cos I burst into tears at the docs office today while watching 'Ellen'. I don't think Ellen is meant to be a drama! Anyway, I swear I will dissect this dream or die trying.

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posted February 01, 2011 07:00 PM            

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any thoughts Gypsee wind?

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posted February 03, 2011 11:05 AM            

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Originally posted by GypseeWind:
Nah, not so weird, when I first came here, I dreamt of Lexx sitting on my bed, dressed in a Emerald green dress with a high color, kind of like a queen in days of old, and she had an important message for me.
She said later that she was thinking of me that same day, so no, not so weird.
At any rate, I'll need to take some notes and think about it for awhile.
I've just woke up, and haven't had any coffee. I'm lucky this is coming out in English.....

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I have a pretty good idea what that dream meant!
StarrofVenusGirl and a few others down through the years since I came to LL (March 2005) have had similar dreams.
I have had dreams with quite a few here at LL in them.
Some wonderful, some strange, some terrible.
However, some may be past life rememberings, not mere dreams.

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posted February 03, 2011 03:00 PM            

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I'm just wondering if this dream had more to do with the fact that I read her entire pregnancy thread that day before I went to bed.

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posted March 02, 2011 01:08 PM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
I'm just wondering if this dream had more to do with the fact that I read her entire pregnancy thread that day before I went to bed.

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That is possible of course.
However,
it could also have triggered a real memory in you!
How do you feel about SunChild?
I will read your dream over very carefully and get back to you asap on it!
Please remind me if I get distracted.

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posted March 09, 2011 04:56 PM            

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Originally posted by LEXX:

How do you feel about SunChild?

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So I think I figured it out thanks to this question. Although, not entirely happy with the answer a bit creepy.

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posted March 13, 2011 06:25 AM            

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I'm curious now!

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posted March 13, 2011 03:22 PM            

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So embarrassing to say this but basically I'm jealous of you. You have everything that I crave, a family, natural living, and someone to love that loves you back.

My mind translated that into transference of the baby into my body symbolizing changes, transformation and new beginning, and my holding the baby inside me was symbolic of keeping something that wasn't mine inside me. I guess my sadness came from the fact that this truly was not my child and that I would have to give it back to you, but that the happiness in the end was not mine and would end with the birth of the child so I suppose I was trying to hold on to that somehow....

Again sorry for sounding creepy....so humiliating to post this...

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posted March 13, 2011 03:58 PM            

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That makes sense. And it isn't creepy at all. It's understandable. We all have our burdens to bear, and SunChild has gone through many trials to get where she's at. Focus more on the journey and less on outcomes, and you will have all that you dream of in the appropriate time, littlecloud.

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posted March 13, 2011 08:44 PM            

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I know she has had a rough time. I think there a some parallels between her and I which probably fueled that dream as well. Thank you for that Randall.

Currently I have been focusing more on the journey which has been my saving grace. Normally I would've been focusing only on the outcome and not the lesson I should learn. Here's to hoping I start learning faster and with more ease lol

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posted March 16, 2011 09:48 AM            

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Yeah, being overly-focused on outcomes can be myopic, because you should be open to possibilities not yet conceived of.

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posted March 25, 2011 12:08 AM            

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Thanks for sharing... glad you have in mind what you want out of life....
It's like a germ within your soul.
It will grow... like mine did.
If I knew in advance the trials I had to go through to get there I don't think I would have gone through with it.
But I did, one step at a time.

Love to you LittleCloud.
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posted April 09, 2011 06:32 PM            

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Stupid steps!!! Someone should put them closer together :P

So another pregnancy dream!!!! I dreamt I having twins and I was happy about it. I felt a lot bigger than I looked...
Well this one is at least positive...I will accept whatever change is coming.

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