posted June 20, 2011 06:35 AM            

sometimes my dead maternal grandpa appears in my dreams but i don't know what it indicates. he developed Alzheimer's disease and made everyone's life hell towards the end, but i was very fond of him.

first, i was in a car which my mother's husband was driving, who i have not been allowed to see for 20 years since my mother separated from him in reality. we passed my grandpa walking by a road, and i said "oh let's pick him up". but the husband didn't stop, as if he feared something, i looked back and grandpa was running, not to miss the ride. i was screaming from the top of my head, "grandpa! grandpa!" the car went around a big round curve, and far behind i could see grandpa finally getting too tired and sit on the ground.

second, i saw my partner, who as long as i've known him wore the same thing everyday because he's so poor, dressed up all nice. he was asking me about what he was wearing. he dressed a bit in the style of Steampunk, not nerdy over the top, but elegant and casual. i remember the half-done skinny tie around his collar in gold/yellow tone.

third, i was in a room, which apparently i was sharing with my mother, again, in this Steampunk style (don't know why, i didn't watch a movie with that theme or anything recently!). something happened and i saw the headboard of the bed started fire by itself. i didn't panic and looked around the room with several fluid options (cup with coffee etc.), then just fetched a jug of water and poured it on the fire. i was thinking my mother would nag at me ruining the upholstery… then i thought i had to smudge the room. i didn't have sage or rosemary and decided to do with lavender.

posted June 20, 2011 11:23 PM            

I would guess the first indicated you might be leaving your past behind. Is this new flat in a different location than your family? I would think that you are going to feel alone but with one source of a person that you know but have never been close with or on the alternative side you are going to feel alone but someone you haven't seen in a long time will help you.

Ok second part! Your partner dressed up "all nice". This I feel is a reflection of yourself since I am taking partner as a person you were in a relationship with. The steam punk style speaks to me as futurish. Maybe you are moving with a job that has better rewards and money? I feel like it is saying that you are going to be doing better at least monetarily in this move. That is just what speaks to me.

Once again in the third dream the steam punk style feels as though it is talking about the future. You didn't say how your mother reacted but you did say that you thought she would nag which I take it she didn't. Maybe this means that your move will make her more satisfied and less criticizing of you? So lavender means to cool off. Do you need to stop stressing yourself so much over this and just let it happen?

I see the lavender as an overall theme. You are worried about what is to come and I think your dream is telling you to stop thinking and just let it happen. You are leaving a sense of security behind but you are opening new doors. I wish you the best lechien!

Just my thoughts. If they are wrong I'm sorry!

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Joe

posted June 21, 2011 07:29 AM            

you are really right on with the theme of change… i'm in dire need to make some changes in my life that got stuck in one condition for some time now. there will be a little hard decisions perhaps, but i should be ready for them.

i've moved away from my birth country ages ago, and at the moment i don't have any contact with most of my family members. so they may as well all be representing the past, or what have kept me from evolving. especially my mother who is controlling, it seems that in the dream i'm a bit concerned of what she might think of me, but it has become much less important and i'm caring about my own things.

the part with my dressed-up partner sounds nice, i AM planning a little business project and it's going slowly but i want to stay hopeful. overall, i seem to be handling things and directing my life towards a good place.