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Topic: Dreams Regarding Self Sacrifice and Death
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NativelyJoan
Knowflake Posts: 504
From: Boston, MA
Registered: Sep 2011
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posted November 21, 2011 06:49 PM
  
For most of my life I seem to have the same gut wrenching themes in my nightmares. It starts like a normal dream. All is well. I'm at an event with friends and I leave by myself and as I'm walking I notice a mother and child walking toward a fence. I get this feeling that they shouldn't go that way so I run in front of them and tell them to stop while I continue around the fence and run into a man with red hair who begins to attack me. He rams his fist into my delicate face, I fall over and he continues to pummel me. He's got a gun aimed at me and I continue to physically fight for my life while feeling completely powerless. I grab his arm to try to twist it or break it. I manage to snap it and elbow him aggressively in the face. He slums down and I breathe a sigh of relief. I start thinking that I can't grab the gun and kill him morally and proceed to hope he's passed out so I can just run. But due to my hesitation he manages to regain his composure and use his other arm to grab my hair and slam the gun against my head. The mother and child are watching the whole thing from behind the fence screaming. I silently say my prayers and prepare to die and hear the gun go off. Except I'm not dead, the red haired man is. He was shot by a figure I couldn't see. I then wake up shaking.This is pretty much the pattern of my nightmares. Last night I had a nightmare that me and my mother were waiting to hail a cab home. After waiting for what seemed like a lifetime the cab arrived. The cab driver was high on drugs (it was very late) and he had a friend in the passenger seat who was passed out also from drugs, there were syringes on cab seats. My mother was furious and got ready to go off at the cab driver when he got out of his car and aimed a gun right at her. I moved in front of her, into the line of fire and screamed please don't do this, stop and as he unloaded it I woke up. This isn't the first time in a nightmare where I've stepped in front of a gun for my family or people I don't even know, but somehow the killers never succeed in killing me or the person I'm protecting. The gun man or woman always gets killed by someone or something unknown. It's odd. What I realize from those dreams is that I don't think I could kill the killers, even if I tried, which in my dreams I don't even try, I just attempt to knock them unconscious. Someone or something else always intervenes and does the deed. It's interesting, I've been killed in my dreams and had people who've attempted to kill me killed. But I've never hurt or killed anyone in my dreams. Any who, I once told my mother about this and she said she thinks I have guardian spirits. That in a sense if I were to be in danger, I'd be protected or at least guarded by angels. In my nightmares I sacrifice myself. I'm not sure why, and I do that with my friends and family in real life. I take the fall because apart of me knows I'm strong enough to endure it, even though it feels like I'm dying during it. I think I'm too willingly to sacrifice myself and I've been slowly learning how to balance that and not be so willing. I'm also terrified of feeling powerless because of past abuse. Maybe because I'm so willing to sacrifice I will be saved, I have no idea... It makes me realize though that the universe is listening, the spirits surround us and I'm not alone. Opinions and insights are welcome  IP: Logged |
amelia28
Knowflake Posts: 1046
From: dumont, CO
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted December 01, 2011 04:32 PM
Someone has crossed the boundaries with you and you are afraid that this same man will cross the boundaries with other women and even children. But you feel that you have the strength to deal with this and you do and you want to protect those that you feel will not be able to defend themselves from this man.IP: Logged |
amelia28
Knowflake Posts: 1046
From: dumont, CO
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted December 01, 2011 04:33 PM
red hair=dangerfence= boundaries that in this dream are not been respected. Gun is a phallic symbol so the boundaries crossed might be sexual in nature and unwelcomed. IP: Logged |
amelia28
Knowflake Posts: 1046
From: dumont, CO
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted December 01, 2011 04:38 PM
You don't feel comfortable with the idea of killing so even though you are doing everything you can to protect others and self from this dangerous man at the end somebody else does the killing except that you don't know who this someone else is so is probably actually YOU but your unconscious cannot handle it so in your dream its hidden from you that you did the killing.One last thing: I have to say that this dream is very mars in aries with neptune in the 11th LOL. so cute. IP: Logged |
NativelyJoan
Knowflake Posts: 504
From: Boston, MA
Registered: Sep 2011
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posted December 15, 2011 06:13 PM
Amelia! I just stumbled on this, sorry I didn't respond sooner. Wow that was really intuitive and incredibly incisive. Thank you so much for sharing that, it's actually completely accurate about my past experiences. You should definitely share you wisdom in regards to dream interpretations with as many people as possible. I'm sure they'll feel truly touched as I was by your insightful words. IP: Logged |
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