posted April 21, 2012 10:25 AM
This is the background:
This concerns a guy I met last year - I would not refer to him as an ex since we never had a relationship. There was a huge sexual attraction between us and at least on my side some emotional feelings beyond that of friendship. He made advances but we were both in relationships so I held things off feeling we would regret the consequences if we chose to get involved at that time. He now lives across the world from me, we are both single, he flirts with me in a very sexual manner when he does chat to me but has stated that we should be platonic because he is newly single and stuck in that country for at least another year. He also doesn't open up to me as much as he used to - I'm not thrilled with that because at the very least I'd like to be a good friend to him but since it's his choice I have left it where he wants it. So I have decided to not date anyone but to just meet people and find new friends because I clearly need time to get him out of my head. And then I had this dream last night. The Dream:
We are on a road trip - just he and I. I think in a country in a temperate climate. It's reasonably warm, perhaps it's summer. I don't remember details much. We have stopped at a little roadside bakery/cafe/shop place. He's wearing white long trousers which is a bit odd - it's not something I have seen him wear before. He's in almost full white from head to toe. We sit at a table, opposite each other. The atmosphere of the road trip has been light flirtation and while we haven't discussed it, it's fairly obvious to both of us that once we reach our destination there will be some discussion of the huge amount of sexual attraction we feel for each other.
He gets up for some reason to move around the shop and an old woman I don't know - very friendly and motherly - stops to talk to him. She seems to think we are on a honeymoon or that we are a couple. He sheepishly informs her that I am not his girlfriend (referring to the fact that we're friends) - something along the lines of "Oh, I'm not her boyfriend/She's not my girlfriend"
He comes back and sits down and I have overheard this and there is a twinge of sadness but I take it as him stating what the facts are at the moment not as an indication of what the future will be. I don't talk about it and a few minutes later, the same woman arrives with our food and then proceeds to scold me for being with him if he's not my boyfriend.
I am just shocked and astonished and he is just sheepish.
The next scene in the dream is at night - we have arrived at wherever we are staying at and we're in bed together. We're having sex -slow but fulfilling and I am on top which is a position I don't enjoy being in usually and therefore rarely use. There are little flashbacks to the foreplay session where he's been reluctant to show me his back. When I see it, his entire spine is visible through the skin and because something is wrong with it, there are little metal brackets in the skin around it to support - sort of encasing the spine somewhat. In real life he does not have this sort of thing at all and I have no idea where it came from. In the dream it's obvious that he's insecure and nervous about what I will think of him because of this.
So I comfort him, hug him and kiss his spine and tell him he's beautiful. Then it's back to the sex and it's very odd because it's clear that I am leading the whole thing and while I am a natural leader, I don't like doing it in bed and I know he would take charge anyway since he's very much that sort of person. So I find it odd that he's not taking charge, that this is the first time we are having sex but it's at such a slow pace but at the same time I am happy and fulfilled and I think he is too.
That's where the dream ends. Any thoughts?
Thanks.