posted April 20, 2013 09:13 AM            

Obviously Hilary Swank had ben the female protagonist, but somehow i switched places with her. How strange.
In the context of the movie/ dream I was obviously working for some kind of unit (something lik you see on the TV crime series I guess), and actually in that dream I had been trying to book tickets for a real life concert, but it didn`t work.

On a side note: the dream before, when it mentioned the Oak King, who is so much connected to the summer solstice - well coincidentally that concert will take place on the 22nd june.

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Anyway, in my dream when I was giving in my credit card details, or wanted to, a lot of pop ups, well, popped up, and the screen froze, and it was clear that there was a computer virus at work. Well, I tried to start the virus scanner, but hte whole thing just froze and got totally stuck.

And not only my computer. It seemed to affect the WHOLE unit. Well, my boss ( a bit like I`d imagine a merging between fireman and secret agent, but quite loud. lol) was of course livid. I mean he was REALLY angry. He had been in his bureau, talking to someone, and then I just heard him shout one name, really angry, really loud. *insert name of male actor*

He sounded like a stern father, preparing to give his son the telling off of his life.
He rushed out of his bureau, a vein throbbing at his temple (I liked that man btw, he was rough and all, but I knew in the dream, he had a heart of gold; he wouldnīt really do anything bad or threaten anyone, just he was`t enthused about cleaning up the other guy`s mess ONCE again).

In the meantime *male actor* had arrived (either someone had summoned him, or he came on his own accord) - obviously he was playing the role of a very smart expert for something, having worked with us or for us, but nowadays being away from the real bureau/ unit. Some sort of freelancer.

He just shot me a single short glance which was enough to give me insight into the script of the relationship between these two "roles". Not too surprisingly the two roles we played had been a couple once ago, and the relationship failed.

He was dressed a little strange, too, all wrapped up in wool and I think wearing a shawl, but also wearing sunglasses. To be honest he looked a little slobby, okay, very slobby.

Anyway, so he then pretty much ignored me, but adressed the chief and instantly admitted that the computer virus was probably coming from him or hsi computer, and that he had tried to eleminate it, but that he didn`t succeed so far.

Well, the chief seemed to get even angrier hearing about it and then roared at him: "DONīT TELL ME IT IS BECAUSE OF THIS FLATMATE OF YOURS! I TOLD YOU THIS PERSON IS NOTHING BUT TROUBLE!"

WEll, *male actor* admitted that it was, and that the person had been gone taking all stuff with them, and him being left with nothing but his computer, and some more things I didn`t care to hear.
And well he got the task to get back on his computer, find the mistake and erase it, and if not, to reboot/ rewire the computer totally.

So he promised to do that,a nd the chief, after a fleeting glance at me, shuffled back into his bureau.

Before leaving though, *male actor* interestingly put off the shawl as well as the sunglasses and while looking at me started quoting a poem, I donīt really know what it was, but it was quite melancholic about love lost and the reminiscence of joy that`s passed.
Actually i sort of stumbled across a poem online afterwards. lol


"When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever the years,

Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder, thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk, chill on my brow,
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.

Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.


They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me...
Why wert thou so dear?

They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well..
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.

If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears"


WEll, I donīt know if it realy was this one, but it the feel was similiar, just that it was not AS depressed as the quoted one here. It was more melancholic than depressing.

And he ended actually with the strange words: "A famous (magnificent) farewell for your journey".

And then he was gone. I did not really see him leave in this dream.

Anyway, I was still standing there, and instead of dressing UP (cause I was preparing to leave as well), I was pulling OFF clothes. Surprisingly under the white blouse I was wearing, there turned out ot be a black polo neck, and when I wanted to pull it over my head as well, I noticed that there was a necklace around the neck of the polo and my neck of course, and it temporarily felt very tight, even suffocating for a moment, while I tried to get off the polo. But it was only then that I got aware I was wearing it, but even bfore, when I was unaware of it, it must have seriously restricted my throat.

Anyway I got it all off (not sure if the necklace fractured or not). And then my doorbell rang and I woke up.
Well, my parents who live next to me, swear there was noone even near my door (they were already awake), but I definitely have heard that bell. LOL

posted April 22, 2013 01:30 AM            

through that dream I stumbled across that poem by Lord Byron.
And yesterday my brother suddenly started talking about the seminar he has been taking, about Lord Byron.

posted April 22, 2013 02:02 AM            

How do you feel about Hilary Swank? What does she represent to you? What are her most outstanding traits?

Lord Byron his poetry is all about love by the way... Rather melancholic.

posted April 22, 2013 03:11 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
Hey,

How do you feel about Hilary Swank? What does she represent to you? What are her most outstanding traits?

Lord Byron his poetry is all about love by the way... Rather melancholic.

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Thank you, Twirl.

Actually Hillary Swank does not really represent anything to me; I didn`t even see her in that many films.

However, for me there is a crystalclear reason why SHE was being mentioned in the dream.
The one film I remember having her seen in was "P.S. I love you" with Gerard Butler as well (and no, he was not the male actor from my dream).
I had seen that film during a trip last summer (13th august 2012 to be exact) and coincidentally had stumbld into the film again some weeks/ months ago on TV here at home.

The reason I remember the first time seeing it so vividly is two fold.
First of all or the remarkable astrology.

At that night Tr Moon on 6 Cancer was conjunct Tr Venus on 5 Cancer, opposing Tr Pluto on 7 Capricorn.

So thre was a transiting Venus-Pluto-opposition in the sky.

Tr Pluto was conjunct my natal Venus and pr ASC and pr PROSERPINA on 7 Capricorn exact, hence triggering my very personal natal square of Venus to Pluto on 9 Libra.

Tr Uranus on 8 Aries, opposing my natal Pluto and squaring my natal Venus, certainly had its say as well, as did Tr Sun conjunct progressed Vertex.

Just one of those days you know...

I stumbled across the film on 26th january this year again, however I did not think of it, though the first time I saw it flitted through my mind.
It is NOW that I dreamed that dream

Turns out that that night of the dream my pr Moon was or is on 6 Cancer PRECISELY opposing my Venus (and of course mimicking the transits of back then).

Tr Venus on 6 Taurus exactly sextile and trine.

Tr MErcury and Uranus both on 9 Aries opposing my Pluto.

Tr Moon exactly conjunct progressed Vertex (changing place with the Sun back then).

Well I almost shudder thinking what I may dream when tr Venus will be squaring tr Pluto again.
Though on the other hand, I have a pretty much good idea that the last time Tr Venus was squaring Tr Pluto (in march), that this might have been what really triggered thoughtpatterns that resulted in that dream.

Yeah, wel astrology fascinates me.

LOL

But what happened in august last year was just that I was having a neat little cathartic breakdown. Even though it really shook me and I cried a lot that night, it felt really releasing, like I shed a lot of "outdated emotional skin".

I can even say which line it was that made me eventually "break".

"You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. "

and that one (actually her mom said that when she asked about her dad; but I think it can be transferred to any important person in one`s life)

"
Holly Kennedy: Do you think we'll ever see dad again?
Patricia: No sweetheart, never. So you have to stop waiting."

So simple, just like that, you have to stop waiting.

And that was it. Door closed. And even though it took some more weeks and months until manifesting externally, I think it was then that I really started to change, my perception, my way of dealing with things, everything.
I put the past where it belongs - behind me.

I guess in a way it makes sense that Lord Byron would come up in a dream like this. He is pretty far back in the past after all, belonging to the century I for some reason resonate with. Probably pure romanticism of a past that was probably smelly, dirty and nasty. But it looks so good on film.

Yeah, that is pretty much the only connection or resonance with Hilary Swank that I can think of.

But it`s enough I guess.

posted April 22, 2013 04:15 PM            

Your boss is furious. He has a heart of gold though. He just wants what is best for you. He should be one of your helpers in the dream, but might very well be a bit pushy in getting things done right here and now. He sounds like your inner critic and those fella's are rather strict. In general they are against change (doing things different!?? Why? Reboot the system!) But really, that's not what you want now do you, go back to the old. The defeating thoughts have to go (thank you flatmate for clearing out so many old patterns yet

So what self-sabotaging thoughts are there? (Male actor) And more important: what actions you make in real life that come from these defeating thoughts? Sure, the effort for the eliminating is there, but it is not working. "Sloppy job!" Are you 'hiding' a bit in behaviour towards the outside world? (The wool etc.)? The clothes he wears (your inner male) are all for protection. And of course you did let go of a literal 'protecting layer' (the weight).

There's more to your dream, but this is it for now How does this resonate?

For all the aspects you posted, thanks, I'm sure it's great for the others. For me I have absolutely no clue what it all means, lol. But I do know the myth of Pluto and Persephone of course (transformation, lol)

posted April 23, 2013 04:36 AM            

I have some slightly different thoughts. Perhaps between Twirl's and my own thoughts, something will make sense.

There are a few elements throughout this dream which stand out to me.

--- acting (ie, not being yourself)

--- communication/understanding problem (computer virus)

--- a need to rethink, reprocess, or change/fix communication (erase/reboot/rewire computer)

--- two different male figures, one an authority figure (boss/"like a stern father") and the other more peer related (male actor). Is the boss , as Twirl suggested, your inner critic, or does he represent someone in your life … your father or someone else? The male actor appears "all wrapped up", concealed (sunglasses), makes excuses about the problem, and "says more things I didn't want to hear" (another communication issue) … Does the male actor represent an ex boyfriend? If not, who?

--- Lastly, more communication symbolism (necklace restricting throat). This could mean a disconnect between thinking (head) and feeling (body) or, as the throat contains the communication chakra, a problem with self expression and/or true listening and true hearing.

Interestingly, it is only after the male actor reveals his true self (sheds covering/sunglasses) that he speaks clearly his heart (poem). And it is only after you begin to reveal your true self (shed clothing) that you realize there has been an issue/restriction concerning your own internal/external communication (restricted throat).

Then there is the doorbell … "wake up!"

So, what does all of this say? Perhaps you can put the rest of the pieces of the puzzle together in a way that correlates to an issue in your waking life.

What do you think?

posted April 25, 2013 05:47 AM            

wowwww ceri

<333

u keep calling out my govm't name haha

posted May 19, 2013 08:27 AM            

"The credit card difficulties I take as 'self worth' or 'giving 'yourself credit' for something. However you are not at that point yet, because there is still a virus (some old belief systems preventing you to fully tap into that energy). And it's not just the brain (computer) but effecting the whole unit (you/how you run your life)"
Yes, that is very true.

Actually last week was exhausting, not just because of workrelated reasons, but I have been "purging" a lot. Old emotional baggage coming up for me to look at it. It doesn`t really affect me anymore emotionally, as I have grown out of the situations, but of course it had a big part in my life. And I have been doing some reevaulations.

Fittingly last night I dreamed of a SCorpion. Just a little one. But interestingly it was crawling out from my bosom (?).
I tried to get a hold of it, wanting to kill it, without getting poisoned, but it slipped away, and as a matter of fact I hesitated to smash it with my foot, which I had the chance to (it was just an animal and had the same right to live as I do; just not in my house and definitely not on or under my skin lol).
I opened the door and it simply slipped out and "walked" away, and I closed the door after it.

Quite unexciting, if you consider it being an animal whose sting can actually kill.

But I see it as a sign of releasing old "poison" and doing it in a completely undramatic way.

"s there enough joy and love in your life? "
Can there ever be enough of this?

lol
But I am trying to letting more of this in, yes.

posted May 19, 2013 08:34 AM            

thanks for your input. Both of your views are invaluable for me.

"a need to rethink, reprocess, or change/fix communication (erase/reboot/rewire computer)"
Definitely.

Communication is definitely a big thing for me. That includes the communication between my mind and my heart, yes. And it also includes that step from REALIZING something for myself and starting to MANIFEST or EXPRESS it externally.
And that is actually the part of the path I am on at the moment. Expressing myself more I think.

posted May 20, 2013 03:16 PM            

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posted May 20, 2013 03:34 PM            

No, you did not mention it, but yes, I figured out that much myself. lol
Actually I suspect that EXACTLY the issues I had eaten away are surfacing on my way back over the same weight. I spent almost a month on the same digits but am racing over the 2 kilos below it within a week or so.

I guess, on my way up over it, this certain issue was not addressed properly, which it has been now.

It is a ncessary thing.