posted June 27, 2013 05:56 AM            

Anyone want to think along with me about my own dream?

There was more to it, because the dream fell apart in ‘3 acts’ so to speak.
The last act was where I went from a public building into a garden, where I met someone. Can’t remember much about that conversation, but I remember there were two men in my dream. Apparently I was seeing them at the same time. They were both travelling to the station and I didn’t want them to meet each other. However, one of them was my real life ex (who I found out about 6 months ago, he died irl). We lost contact irl after our relationship, but I was of course shocked that he really no longer is in this world. In other words, this man in my dream refers to death/passing over.
In my dream I didn’t want to let him go and insisted I would bring him home, because I didn’t want him to make his journey alone. I felt sad over this. So on our way to the station I sat with him in a boat (also symbol of passing over – think of the 6 of swords card) and tried to convince him I was going to bring him to his home (a different country). He wasn’t having it though and we were apparently splitting at the station. He said he 'had to do this on his own' and I couldn't come with him. The surroundings of the boat (little rowing boat) were very quiet and peaceful; meadows, sun shine, etc. and the boat was just slowly drifting.
So how would you guys look at this?
I thought both guys in my dream represented my ‘inner males’, but one direction is now cut off. I shouldn’t go there anymore. Also the train station speaks of new directions and I really am majorly changing my life around at the moment.
Also some grief over this passing of my ex-lover seemed to be important.

PS: I actually had to cry when I typed this, so it seems it is also still a part of the grieving

posted June 27, 2013 07:18 AM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
Hi,

Anyone want to think along with me about my own dream?

There was more to it, because the dream fell apart in ‘3 acts’ so to speak.
The last act was where I went from a public building into a garden, where I met someone. Can’t remember much about that conversation, but I remember there were two men in my dream. Apparently I was seeing them at the same time. They were both travelling to the station and I didn’t want them to meet each other. However, one of them was my real life ex (who I found out about 6 months ago, he died irl). We lost contact irl after our relationship, but I was of course shocked that he really no longer is in this world. In other words, this man in my dream refers to death/passing over.
In my dream I didn’t want to let him go and insisted I would bring him home, because I didn’t want him to make his journey alone. I felt sad over this. So on our way to the station I sat with him in a boat (also symbol of passing over – think of the 6 of swords card) and tried to convince him I was going to bring him to his home (a different country). He wasn’t having it though and we were apparently splitting at the station. He said he 'had to do this on his own' and I couldn't come with him. The surroundings of the boat (little rowing boat) were very quiet and peaceful; meadows, sun shine, etc. and the boat was just slowly drifting.
So how would you guys look at this?
I thought both guys in my dream represented my ‘inner males’, but one direction is now cut off. I shouldn’t go there anymore. Also the train station speaks of new directions and I really am majorly changing my life around at the moment.
Also some grief over this passing of my ex-lover seemed to be important.

PS: I actually had to cry when I typed this, so it seems it is also still a part of the grieving

Does any of you have any other takes on this? Love to hear! Thank you!

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First the 6 of Swords card popped into my mind as well. I guess this has to do with some kind of healing.

posted June 27, 2013 08:07 AM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
Hey Emsie

Thanks. Funny you also thought of the 6 of swords.
No. No love interest. I don't feel this dream is related with love tbh, but I read it more as my inner lover. The part that sparks you to put your creativity into the world. So most likely related to the 2 different lovers. One (inner part) ended, other continues and will bring new paths.
Thanks! This actually helped me!! This always works for me, people asking me questions which then 'opens' something so I can see it clearer It's sometimes the same as reading tarot for myself, because it's difficult to completely detach yourself from your own life

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My initial thought was that you must take your time to mourn, release and heal in order to be okay again.

OFF: It's so interesting how these tarot cards actually work.
I took part in a method called Autogenic Training.
There's a part in this method (quiet period) where one completely releases the outside world and reflects on his inner peace.

The psychologist girl (who was my mentor) told me to imagine myself in the middle of a peaceful lake where light waves swing me - because the feeling of light swinging was a returning pattern during the training.

posted June 27, 2013 10:46 AM            

Oh wow, lovely how the King of Cups became the bearer of this message to you
I love that they take a special meaning towards the owner of the deck.

For the dream: yes, there must be some mourning apparently. I wasn't aware of that. I'm actually feeling fine, but on a deeper level must come to terms with all the changes appearing.

Also I'm still open to more takes on my 'passed over' ex-BF.
His 'dreamself' (so this part of me) might have tried to point out, that 1 direction is now really closed for me

PS: I really have to figure out what release is making me so sad :-/ Whenever I think of the dreampart where he is having to make the last part of his journey on his own, I feel like crying. Really weird.

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Originally posted by Emsie:
My initial thought was that you must take your time to mourn, release and heal in order to be okay again.

OFF: It's so interesting how these tarot cards actually work.
I took part in a method called Autogenic Training.
There's a part in this method (quiet period) where one completely releases the outside world and reflects on his inner peace.

The psychologist girl (who was my mentor) told me to imagine myself in the middle of a peaceful lake where light waves swing me - because the feeling of light swinging was a returning pattern during the training.

And these days the King of Cups card ALWAYS appears in my thoughts while being in the 'quiet period'.

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posted June 27, 2013 03:21 PM            

I see this dream as trying to deal with the 'controlled irl' emotions of knowing someone you gave a part of yourself to, and who gave you a part of himself in the most special way is gone.

it's not easy.

Not wanting him to meet the other man:...maybe the part of you that is 'keeping him alive' doesn't want to meet the part of you, which is the more painful part, that knows he is now really not here with us anymore. not someone you can pick up the phone and call or randomly get in touch with in while

you sat with him in a boat: you didn't get to say somethings, and when someone that once was this close to us passes away, a part of us passes away to, you are going through a 'little death' to, and it isn't easy.

Bring him home,: you are still protective of this person deep down inside you, even if you lost touch, so a part of you can't really accept how this has happened in the first place.

for me when i saw dead loved ones in dreams, they really were the same people and had messages. you still haven't got over it (And it will take a long while, specially that you weren't in touch and then found out), but somewhere maybe his soul to cares about you, and wants you to know, one little step a day, but also don't blame yourself?? (i know we are far away from others but sometimes strangely we can't stop thinking 'what if i had done this or that different, "butterfly effect" maybe they would still be here)

it's a grieving dream is how i interpret it. and you need time and it is okay to feel sad and frustrated and to really cry about this.

you are going through a time of change for sure and it could not be moe clear from this dream.

you are also a very senstive and intuitive person, and this could have been a real message from 'beyond the veil of death' as i like to call it, with his own soul connecting with you at some level to help you with this grieving process.

Dont' know why but if feel this song here may be a good thing for you at this moment, because some of the lyrics.

Which Way Your Heart Will go

it was even used in a movie related to this subject, 'Ghost Town'

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Darling theres no way to know
Which way your heart will go

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posted June 28, 2013 05:33 AM            

The thing is though that we had an 'agreement'. We were together for the time I was living abroad, so when I left we also left it at that... So it was really 'closed of' well, but when I found out through google he actually passed away, it felt different.

I actually did sit down and wrote a poem when I found out, but then he appeared before my 'inner eye'. Raising his eyebrow, saying rather sarcasticly: Really?! about my 'dramatic sentences' and then I had to laugh. Because he was like that and he would have done that. He was very funny and very good in putting things in perspective. So I then put the poem away and giggled.

Bring him home,: you are still protective of this person deep down inside you, even if you lost touch, so a part of you can't really accept how this has happened in the first place.
This is true. Altough he was ever so charming, funny and well loved, he really went through a rough time and could be very depressed. So I kinda had the 'taking care' role at times and tried to make him feel better...
Seemed like there was no 'saving' (making journey alone). Think that resonates well...

posted June 28, 2013 07:27 AM            

But that was such an odd way for you to find out!! maybe the energies were working so that they let u know.

For now i do think it is about moving, with what looks like a very beautiful memory of a very good experience you had, after you sorted out your feelings about them passing away, and the gentle energies of this person in that dream, also suggest this is what they may have wanted for u to do!

posted June 29, 2013 07:35 AM            

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I found out through Google actually... And found a blog where someone wrote a memorial for him with pictures and all. Soooo, that was rather odd.

The thing is though that we had an 'agreement'. We were together for the time I was living abroad, so when I left we also left it at that... So it was really 'closed of' well, but when I found out through google he actually passed away, it felt different.

I actually did sit down and wrote a poem when I found out, but then he appeared before my 'inner eye'. Raising his eyebrow, saying rather sarcasticly: Really?! about my 'dramatic sentences' and then I had to laugh. Because he was like that and he would have done that. He was very funny and very good in putting things in perspective. So I then put the poem away and giggled.

[b]Bring him home,: you are still protective of this person deep down inside you, even if you lost touch, so a part of you can't really accept how this has happened in the first place.
This is true. Altough he was ever so charming, funny and well loved, he really went through a rough time and could be very depressed. So I kinda had the 'taking care' role at times and tried to make him feel better...
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