posted August 29, 2013 08:18 PM
Thank you for the replies so far.He has told me before he doesn't believe in sharing energy. Not that he was closed to it, but it seems every time he tries, the results could be explained by something else or just felt like a dud.
There are a few times we would talk to one another and I would feel nothing from anyone else. Then when our conversation ended and he left, I'd feel other people's energies crashing into me and be overwhelmed for a quick sec. It was like he would naturally shield when we spoke.
I think sometimes, he was very aware of my energy, but would wait for me to make all the moves.
Like with the above, I would try to initiate contact with someone else and he would come into my mind instead. I would keep clearing it and restarting the mental image and he'd be back. Final straw for that day was when I was trying to imagine marriage instead and I was holding hands with him. It weirded me out because I felt as if I was unintentionally perving him, even though I was not trying to consciously to imagine him.
Another time, I was on an 8 hour road trip, I noticed he was depressed, so I imagined visiting him and putting flower leis around his neck. As I did this, he embraced me. I pulled away and he would reach out and hold me until we were in an intimate position. This was a couple of months before I started dating my bf. He was the one who set us up.
I've been told by others that a lot of people were always talking trash about me because they were afraid that I loved him. He is someone I trust and care about. I don't try to consciously give him anything or talk to him anymore because I don't want to have that kind of contact with him.