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posted January 27, 2014 04:58 PM            

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I tried cutting cords again because my very first bf contacted me and I suddenly thought of my most recent ex. I wanted to return his negative energy and just forget about the whole thing so I could move on. Last nite I dreamt of him. He was lurking in the background watching me talk to one of his good friends about something really trivial. Afterwards they left together. I felt that they were talking negatively about me and judging me. It wasn't a good feeling. I felt abandoned.
keep getting dreams like this. him watching me not sure why.

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posted January 29, 2014 04:40 AM            

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Hello incognito

"He was lurking in the background watching me …"

That is exactly what is going on … in your mind. It is not actually him, but your projection of him and his energy that is lurking within your subconscious. He is in there because you have unfinished or unacknowledged emotional business attached to him, and he will remain there until you free him. Forgiveness is the best way. Perhaps some visualization would help. You could try to visualize yourself forgiving him, and watching him walk out of your mind, away from you, into some beautiful and distant sunset.

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posted January 31, 2014 08:04 AM            

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but i miss him. I think it is him tho cos in the past he told me about his dreams of me. He describes what I actually do in real life. Not just mundane stuff like washing the dishes and sitting in front of the TV. Actual weird stuff that I have done and and thoughts I have about him that no one knows about.
Its really creepy. I was shocked to hear what came out of his mouth but I never let him know how accurate he was.

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posted March 02, 2014 08:46 AM            

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Last night I was blissed out on flu meds and feeling like I could solve every problem in the world. I rarely take any medication, I rarely get sick. If I do I go the holistic route or sleep it off. This time I took 1 tablet as I have a lot of work to do. As I slept, ppl were coming in and out of my personal sphere mainly happy and chatty with me. I was laughing - in a happy mood. Lots of banter. Suddenly someone comes over and says in a real serious tone 'DON'T LET GO' Real loud and clear. Loud enough to wake me up. I feel a bit drunk so I have to repeat the words to myself like whaat? Don't let go of whaaat? As I lay there, half asleep I realize that the guy is my ex, it was his voice and his energy. I'm still smiling and really tired so I just go back to sleep.

I'm pretty sure he is in pain. I can feel it because sometimes I get teary out of the blue and I know its because he's feeling sorry. I never did anything wrong. I haven't responded to his e-mail on Jan 1 - it was my new years resolution not to talk to him, and he doesn't have my number.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so empathetic though because I really feel his sorrow on top of my own and it makes me cry.

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