posted April 22, 2014 04:29 AM            

Before I get to the dream … Are you telling me your father passed? I am so sorry. I know how close you were to him.

posted May 06, 2014 06:57 PM            

This is a straightforward communication from your father. He is telling you that the things you want to say, the things you want to relay, to tell your mother, those things that are "bugging" you and causing you anxiety, must be transformed, changed (kitchen/burn) and released (rinsed down the drain). He is telling you that what is done is done, and speaking negatively about what transpired is not going to change anything.

Acceptance and forgiveness at this level is nothing short of extremely difficult, but it is not impossible. Holding on to anger and resentment is toxic, mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Your father loves you and is suggesting that you try to transform the negativity and release it.

Karma will even the score. Let go and let God, as they say.

Cerita, you are the love of your father's life, and he knows you have the ability to take the high road. He knows that you understand more about the spiritual nature of things than does your mother. He wants to tell you that, as hard as it is to accept, he and your mother made an agreement before they manifested here to learn certain things from each other, to work out some karmic debt, and that much of this has been accomplished. There is still work to be done, however, and you must have faith that the greater plan is being worked towards. He loves your mother. He is trying to help her in ways that you may not understand and which may not be evident, but work is being done.

I don't know where this is coming from, but in my mind I hear him saying, "You are my crown jewel, and if nothing else comes of this existence, I know I have helped to create the person that you are, and I am very happy for that. I am sorry for the pain you have suffered, but you are a light, you always have been, and I will continue to be with you and to revel in the light that shines from your being. Learn from this. You will suffer through it, but you can learn from it. The suffering is temporary. The light is eternal. Always know I am with you and I love you."

I hope I have not overstepped my boundaries here, but I've got to tell you what is in my head, as always.

posted May 10, 2014 12:05 AM            

I realize I'm more like dad than ma & am trying to remain the bigger person. It's just not very easy anymore & quite honestly, I'm tired of my every kindness being taken for weakness. Although, I will say this, a weak person could not endure all of this. My ma has cancer for the second time in her life. I believe it came from unforgiveness, abuse & hate.

I realize that could happen to anyone. I'm trying my very best to break the cycle. I feel I have overall; just not so much so with regard to stuff related to her. I'm simply hurt. So I'm staying away to protect myself. I'm prayerful I can continue to even speak & be cordial.

My family is very splintered right along in now. Many are angry they couldn't see dad while he was ill. Lots of his co workers were as well. Lots of folks didn't attend his funeral because of similar hurts. & I feel it. For all of them.

Sorry, I ramble a lot (remember=)?). It's just going to take quite a bit to heal all of this. I'm grateful for your kind words & wisdom. You're always thought well of & forevah missed, & loved my dear Brotha !

I thought of you this year at Dragoncon (my first year attending), for some reason I want to make you out to be a member of a Joss Whedon fan club (love him, Firefly n Serenity, MARVELdom), & Star Wars !! =)). Oh my ! It just only seems right that whatever KZ (& great) things are happening in the world, I can think of a great friend like you & feel I have just cause to smile.

posted May 13, 2014 11:31 PM            

Today; this AM, I had another dream.

It was something. Caucasian man lying on his back on a raft in the sea- looking up at the sky (I was looking down @ him), he had on jeans n a red n white gingham plaid shirt- a huge black bird on his chest. The song, "I'll fly away" playing...

Them another spiritual - where he sings aloud, " floods of joy o'er my soul like the sea billows roll " - he takes hold of the bird n literally flies away.

I then woke up.

posted May 15, 2014 04:34 AM            

I'll have to give this next dream some thought.

I would love to hear the thoughts/ideas of anyone else who wants to chime in. Anyone?

posted May 27, 2014 07:56 PM            

Since this reminds you of your father, perhaps that's what it is about. The symbols can be translated that way.

The sea can represent the collective unconscious, a realm he is now able to navigate (raft) and use to communicate (bird/singing).

A bird can represent freedom, thoughts, or communication, especially spiritual/divine. A black bird, therefore, represents communication with, or messages from, the unconscious realm.

Why a Caucasian man? I'm not sure. Maybe it is a reference to his change in form, and his freedom from form (bird/fly away).

Taken all together, this dream could be seen as a reply per your request, an assurance that though he has changed form and may not be immediately recognizable, he is free, happy, and able to communicate with you, especially through dreams (the unconscious/black bird), and you will know it is him (potbelly, etc.).