posted August 10, 2014 01:53 PM            

Recently in dreamland things have started to get interesting.

In one dream that worried me a little I saw my picture in a newspaper.I felt a little bit worried that I had done something wrong.

Another dream I had which was hard to describe it seemed like I was running through a city.It seemed like the elements where going crazy.The wind was blowing.Parts of the city where on fire and other parts where flooding.It seemed like the environment was literally changing before my eyes.I mean one minute I would be running through a a crowded street and the next second I would be underground crawling through the sewers.It was like reality was imploding.I just had a feeling that I didn't know where I was going and had know idea where to go I just knew I had to keep moving.A lot of the time I probably couldn't have doubled back if I wanted to because the places I had came from sort of disappeared.When I think about it now I wonder if I was being herded like an animal.

Another weird dream involved me and my mother and grandfather and this woman I had never met before.It started in a house that me, my mother and grandparents used to live in.As usual in my dreams I have a feeling that something is not quite right.I don't know why but I just felt like there was some sort of unforeseen danger.It seemed like my mother and grandfather where worried but where trying to hold things together.I didn't like the woman she didn't talk much.I think she seemed shrewd and and business like.I got the impression she was watching everything and taking note of everything that was happening.She was dressed in a purple sort flowing sari/dress/suit I'm not really sure how to describe it.I think she had her hair in a sort of bun.It was very neat and tied back.It was like a hairstyle like Xenia Onatopp from Goldenye had or one like Mrs Hardbroom from the The Worst Witch (a childrens show I used to watch). Here's what they were like.She seemed to have similar mannerisms like they did.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6coOEEaALLg&hd=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StFXWESWXtk&hd=1

She had sort of sharp cat like eyes.
I just felt as she was a dangerous woman.
Perhaps I have watched to many movies but I wondered if her sense of dress reminded me of archetypes of women like spies,female ninjas,femme fatales,sorceress and shape shifters that sort of woman.I also felt concerned because she reminded me of a woman I know in real life.I think she had the same name as the woman I know plus small mannerisms where just like her.The thing that confused me was the woman I know is Caucasian but the woman in the dream was of an Asian ethnicity.It sounds insane but I really think it was the woman I knew but she had somehow managed to change her physical appearance.I like the woman but I must admit sometimes I wonder if I should trust her.Anyway we went out to get something to eat and the place we went to had a really weird buffet.I saw frogs with little frogs inside their mouths.Then to my horror this big black mosquito bit me on the arm and I heard someone shout hurry up and kill it before it lays its eggs inside you.

I had another one which I can't remember a lot about.In the dream me and my mother where just behaving like brats.We were smashing up our surroundings,littering,throwing lit fireworks at people and committing random acts of vandalism and causing general chaos.The start of the dream wasn't like that though and it seemed we were like our normal selves.I felt at the start we really did try to follow the rules and where being decent human beings.I got the feeling that people looked down their noses at us and tried to make us feel alienated.I think me and my mother just became like feral animals.Near the end of the dream I pulled blades and various sharp objects from and through my hands and arms. I think there may be more to this dream but I'd like to hear some theories before I reveal more.

In the dream I had last night I was in my very first childhood home.I think I was living there with my real life pet cat.I think I had sorted myself out and was standing on my own two feet.In this dream I had to play a new role as a caregiver to a little red fire breathing dragon which was getter bigger and bigger.I did wonder how I was going to feed it.

posted August 14, 2014 04:37 AM            

I haven't forgotten about you. I've been feeling a bit brain-dead the last few days, but I'll be back for you as soon as possible.

Thanks.

posted August 14, 2014 08:01 PM            

That's no problem.I hope you are enjoying your summer and are having a good time.Hopefully you will feel rejuvenated and bright and bushy eyed and be back to your usual self soon.If I could I'd send you some positive energy

posted August 15, 2014 02:52 PM            

The first dream suggests there is "new" information (newspaper) about yourself that you may need to take a closer look at (self-photo), perhaps having to do with uncertainty, self-confidence, or even guilty feelings (worried about having done something wrong).

The next dream suggests that your world is changing, or you are concerned about possible change, and this is causing a great deal of mental unrest and anxiety. There seems to be anxiety/stress about moving forward, or being forced to move in a certain direction with no hope of "going back".

The next dream again suggests that you are feeling uncertain, lack self-confidence or confidence in others, and have issues concerning trust (the woman). It could be suggested that past patterns and/or family issues may be at the root of your insecurity (old home/mother/grandfather). Possibly, there are choices you are being confronted with (buffet) that are not appealing (frogs), or perhaps recent circumstances/issues/growth is spawning an appearance of unconscious material which is readying a "leap" into your conscious awareness (frogs with little frogs in mouth). This may not be stuff that you are particularly conscious of yet, but at least subconsciously the concern about being "infected" by/exposed to this material (likely emotionally charged) is there (kill mosquito before eggs laid).

The next dream suggests that there is a great deal of conflict within you (chaos) and part of your mind/psyche is rebelling against, or completely exasperated with, how things are in your life. Our arms and hands symbolize our method of/ability to connect with the world, connect with/embrace others, embrace life, reach out, and also to defend. This dream indicates that you have issues concerning these things, that you have sustained injury regarding that part of your psyche, and that the time is here, or is coming, to remove these emotionally/psychologically damaging "objects". The time is coming to heal.

The last dream reveals a perfect culmination of the issues/conflict of the previous dreams. It reflects the bridging/rectification of your past (childhood home) with a stable, hopeful future (standing on own two feet) as you begin to consciously accept and "care for" the unconscious material (dragon) you are currently grappling with, unafraid of giving life to it (red), being transformed by it (fire-breathing), and allowing it to culminate or grow with a new purpose/perspective (dragon getting bigger).

What do you think?

posted August 15, 2014 08:53 PM            

Sometimes I do feel a bit guilty.Although there also times I feel no guilt,shame or remorse I just feel numb.I also worry that people are gossiping about me or spreading lies about me in real life.So what you said made sense about the newspaper dream.I was actually thinking along the same lines.I mentioned that dream because I was really worried that it was actually more of a sign from the universe.I know that I should be thinking positively and rationally but I really do have fears that some people in my life are trying to sabotage me.I feel like a bit of a pariah but that's nothing new I have always felt like I was outside looking in.

I both fear and crave change.

A lot of my problems did start in childhood so you would be correct.
I do have problems interacting and reaching out to others.I have been diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome but sometimes I wonder if I should have been diagnosed with a personality disorder perhaps I'm a potential Narcissist,Sociopath or Pyschopath.

At the moment I feel very emotional but at the same don't really know how to say what I want to say.I would like to tell you more since you have taken the time to reply to me but I really just don't know what to say.

I'm sorry to say this to you but a lot of time I wonder why I continue to carry on with my life.I only remain on earth because sometimes I worry that Hell is very real and that I've fallen from grace or that If I kill myself things will be even worse in the next life.To be honest I would be happy if I just ceased to exist in all realities.

This song describes how I feel http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYAxfM7efMg