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Topic: Hi Ra, I'm back...
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paisleyutopia2
Newflake Posts: 11
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Registered: Apr 2014
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posted November 30, 2014 01:46 AM
  
Greetings,
I hope your holiday was nice. I'm back to give you an update; and to ask if there's anything I can do to try to start dreaming again. I've been intending to get back with you to tell you, after that dream about my dad (w/ the potbellied guy & the blackbird) I don't dream anymore. I lost my mom 9.27, so, I kinda feel like I'm needing some type of answers. No, not just some type- specific answers- like why, & how, & what good's this ? I feel like dad's my guardian angel- it's quite possible my ma is too- it would just be a surprise- she was abusive; so I didn't take her death quite as hard. It's still kinda scary though & family dynamics also make this weird. Ma, dad, & I WERE kinda our own close knit unit. Because of how ma was- we were kinda separate from the other family. Now, even the how of how I found out is just HARD. seems everyone I've been close to has died. Leaves me feeling empty & f>#%£ng fulla questions ! I'm reaching out to you to ask what I can do- & what little I do have control over- how can/could it be possible for me to dream again. It could be my troubled mind- or my change in sleep schedules- I'm up later & sleep later...
Anyhow, I'd be most grateful for a finger pointed in the "right" direction so to speak. I really appreciated the dream interpretation from all of you all before. Thanks so much my favorite Egyptian God =) ! Take good care. CIP: Logged |
Love&Light
Knowflake Posts: 1424
From: India
Registered: Oct 2011
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posted November 30, 2014 02:50 AM
Welcome back paisley.  IP: Logged |
Randall
Webmaster Posts: 47460
From: Saturn next to Charmainec
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted November 30, 2014 12:57 PM
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Ra
Moderator Posts: 1216
From: Kentucky
Registered: May 2009
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posted December 02, 2014 04:23 AM
Hello paisleyutopia  I am so sorry to hear about your mother. Regardless of the difficulties you had with her, there is no doubt still a psychological impact, especially considering that your dad passed so recently. You are right, your "troubled mind" and change in sleep schedules probably come into play. A change in medications or dosages can also have an effect on dream recall. My feeling is that there is a psychological/emotional reason you are not remembering your dreams. I have no doubt there is plenty of activity happening in your unconscious world, but perhaps now is not the right time for it to begin seeping into your conscious awareness. It will. Give it some more time. You could try to jump-start the process by placing a note pad by your bed and writing down anything that comes to mind when you awaken, along with the date … a word, an impression, a feeling, anything … or write "nothing", as long as you write something. Let us know how it is going.  IP: Logged |
paisleyutopia2
Newflake Posts: 11
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Registered: Apr 2014
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posted December 10, 2014 01:33 AM
Thanks Ra, Randall, & Love&Light,
I really appreciate the warm welcome & kind words. I've not gone to bed a single night without pad n pen, since all those years ago when you first gave me that bit of advice Ra. Thanks again. Nope, no change in meds, everything's still the same. I'm just not. I'm in probate. I'm stressed about lots I can't control. Worried about how to pay bills in 2 different places until I can get their home in Atlanta sold, worried about a condo I might wanna buy, worried about if I get sick again, worried about any, and everything. Right now, I'm worried about a life insurance policy & praying that I can still get it. It was dad's. Ma left it for me. Got sent in late & now the co is; of course, trying not to pay. I'm lawyering up. I hate them- not really; but they can lie better than I could ever dream of & they speak legalese better too ! I am happy though that during our last conversation, my ma refused to speak to me the entire day- but at some point, looked over at me and said, "I love you." I said, "I love you too ma, but sometimes, I don't feel you do." She stared out the big picture window contemplating what I said. It felt good that she heard me. Before I left, I got right in her face, kissed her forehead, smiled and said, "okay beautiful; I'll see you next time. I love you !" That felt good too. It was genuine. I didn't know any other way to be. I loved her. I understood she was abused; so she did what she knew. I'm just happy I learned better from dad. They were polar opposites. Dad marched with King. Ma sat in resturants- but her temper was too bad. They both amazed me with their history's. Now, I can only wonder if they found one another again. Or if dad enlisted to come back, & serve more. I don't think he'd let ma suffer alone in purgatory - I don't even know how that happens. I only know they loved one another. I know "What Dreams May Come" might've comforted me- but Robin's gone too. I just keep thinking if I can keep my schedule of exercise up (swimming & yoga), maybe good sleep will abound. I do hope so. *sigh* Thanks again. So much. I do hope to have an answer for you soon. For the record, I've tried camomile, sleep time (dad's fav tea for me=), valerian drops (a very few & not for long, because of side effects/possible conflicts), & Deepok/Oprah meditations too. Nothing works. I tried meditating when I woke to set a pattern for the day. *thud! head hits wall* can't do it. My dog loved it though... But, her name IS Zen. Night all.
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MoonWitch
Moderator Posts: 1787
From: The Beach
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 10, 2014 12:06 PM
Have you tried essential oils? I'm a building a collection of oils now to make my own blends. I haven't experimented a lot yet for my dreams but I plan to and I know there are a lot that are good for lucid dreaming.Rose, sandalwood, patchouli, clary sage, clove... those are off the top of my head. IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 1216
From: Kentucky
Registered: May 2009
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posted December 11, 2014 04:19 AM
That last conversation with your mom was just beautiful.Give it time, Faruka.   IP: Logged |
lalalinda
Moderator Posts: 4107
From: nevada
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 11, 2014 10:36 PM
Welcome back paisleyutopia2
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"For all those who believe, expect a miracle.”
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 47460
From: Saturn next to Charmainec
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2014 01:34 PM
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paisleyutopia2
Newflake Posts: 11
From:
Registered: Apr 2014
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posted December 13, 2014 02:38 PM
Thank you MoonWitch/lalalinda/Randall & Ra ! Thank you all so very much. I pray your holidaze are filled with love & happy surprise ! Take care. xo, paisley IP: Logged | |
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