posted February 11, 2015 01:46 AM            

I'll start with the dream In which and an old frenemy of mine appeared in my dreams.
I don't know if he actually is my enemy or not as I'm not sure if I love him or hate him or am just neutral about him.I don't even know how he truly feels about me either.I didn't know what face to pull when I saw him.He looked amused like his usual tricky evil fairy self.I do have a cheek to call him an evil fairy as their have been times where I have behaved in the exact same ways. I probably just don't like competition.We were in my bedroom.The window was wide open.I think it was early in the morning the sun began to rise incredibly quickly and it suddenly became quite warm.It was amazing it was like I was viewing the dream in high definition the colours of the sun and sky were intense almost dreamy.We started to talk.I thought he had unfinished business with me.I think that he called this wild blue jay to come to him from outside.It flew in the window and came directly to him.I was amazed and jealous and slightly worried as I thought he wanted to cause trouble.The thing is I am interested in the occult and witchcraft but I really think the sad truth is have no power.I only wish I did.I can't really confirm if he had any power in real life but I know he did dabble or at least claimed to.That made me think this dream is interesting.The fact that he is here in my dreams charming wild birds from the trees makes it more creepy.I think we talked and I think he just talked about what he had learned.I can't remember specific details about what he said.I was fishing for information to try and figure out exactly what I was dealing with.I didn't have a choice as I thought I was dealing with a vengeful witch I had to be able figure out a way to take him down if I needed to if things got ugly. I had to be clever and very careful about what I was doing after all if he can charm wild birds from the trees imagine what else he could do.I was still amazed though I wanted him to do it again there was a hawk or a falcon flying outside.I asked him to bring it to me. He called it and it came to me.We continued to talk for a bit which at times felt like it was fun to chat and other times it felt like even though we may have laughed and smiled at each other it could have gotten really catty and viscous.We went outside because I heard a lot of noise.There was a fox hunt happening but I think the hounds had been distracted and had ended up chasing my cat.At this point I screamed an order at my old frenemy to call the hounds off.He did stop the hounds from attacking my cat.My cat had been injured but that was no problem to him as he healed my cat.The wounds healed in front of my eyes.I ended up having to explain to my grandparents who had just witnessed this what had happened.

The next dream started in my old primary seven class.My old nemesis returned for this dream.He was back for another round.He told me that I was self absorbed and that I didn't care anything but myself.I didn't give him the chance to make the first move like I did in my dream with the demonic teacher.I lunged at him him grabbed him and headed butted him.He fell backwards and it looked like I bust his nose.Another classmate who I recognised and actually liked in real life tried to step in but I floored him with a punch.Then my primary seven teacher turned up and told me off.It really was the real her it wasn't the shapeshifter this time.I walked out of the school.I think I got on a bus with some of my school mates and we drove around.For some strange reason we were going to a church.Although I did stop the bus and I got off.I went to a house I had never been to and knocked the door.To My surprise my aunt my dads sister who I haven't seen in a while because I haven't kept in contact with him or their side opened the door.She invited me in and said to stay a while.It was strange she seemed to be living all alone which I didn't understand because she still has one of her two daughters who would still be a young child who should have probably been there.To my surprise she wasn't nasty to me even though there would be some bad blood between us she talked to me like nothing had happened.I felt like it was as if she had lost everything and was all alone.It was like she was just a shadow of her former self it was almost like she had lost a part of her soul.After my visit I ended up driving through a city at full speed in a car with some other family members.We were driving to a beach near the edge of the city.There were cars chasing us and we had to run them off them road or give them the slip.We eventually go to the beach.There was a red sky .I had a feeling we were about to go on a journey but it felt like we were going to go somewhere that wasn't on this earth or maybe even plain of existence.Don't ask why I felt that way cause I don't know why I can't explain it.

In another dream I was in a house with a family I didn't know.I didn't know where I was or why I why I was there.There was just something really off about the family that I couldn't put my finger on.Even the house itself had a strange energy. The house just seemed to get bigger .No matter where I walked in it new rooms and corridors would be added.It sort felt liked I was trapped there the house itself felt as it was working against me.I ended up having sex with this man who I think was about to get married to this woman or was already married to her.I dragged him into this empty room to have sex with him which seemed really crazy as there were lots of people who could have walked in at any minute.I think they were going to have a wedding soon or hold some sort of ceremony.They had a room which looked like some sort of church or temple.I didn't notice who they were praying to though.The whole set up seemed very iffy.

In another dream I was walking through the corridors of what seemed like a mental hospital late at night.It was like a large mansion but it was still a hospital.We were free to roam through the house.I eventually came to a room which had a person who I went to school with and lived in my neighbourhood who I had actually came to blows with at one point in real life.It was nothing major but we have never really gotten along.He greeted me and asked me what I was in for.We talked a little bit and I started to feel like I wasn't in Kansas any more.From the way he was talking it was as if everyone here had made some pretty bad mistakes but we weren't being punished for them.There would be no more horror we would simply exist and live with what had happened but we could never leave.I don't really believe in Purgatory or Limbo but I think that place in the dream was supposed to be a state of existence like it.It wasn't a horrible place but I admit I wasn't happy about being trapped yet I just accepted it.All was calm and just was what it was.

This dream felt like I was in a video game or a movie.I remember being in a large building.There seemed to be some sort of disturbance happening around me we might have been in a battle or war zone. I wasn't sure where to go but like being in a video game I looked around to see which way I could go.I saw what I think was a an elevator.I'm not actually sure if that's what it was but I will explain what I mean now.There were already people in the elevator and I knew I had to get away out of here.I didn't know where I was in the dream but it was one of those were it seemed anything to could be possible.I wasn't sure what the danger was but I knew I had to get away.It was a bit like a video game and I just sort of knew I had to run for the lift and didn't think about whether it made logical sense or not I knew I had to run for it. I'm sure not if it was an elevator or a teleporter or a time machine or something that could take me to a new dimension.There where other people who I didn't know who seemed to be very important people.They might have lead countries or armies for all I know.I think they all followed the orders of this very tall and very muscely sharply dressed black man who was their leader.I wasn't really even sure what part I was playing in this whole story or what was happening around me.I didn't know if these people where friends or enemies.Whatever role I played in this story there was one thing I knew. I knew I wanted to seduce the leader.I decided this while we where fleeing the carnage and we were going up into the sky .I think we may have left the building and for some reason I think the elevator may not have been attached to anything.So I moved towards him while making lots of eye contact.I think I might have pretended to trip and he caught me which gave me to perfect excuse to have a little grope.I went in for the kill and he seemed up for it and we had sex in the elevator.The elevator stopped but I wasn't sure where we where.It could have been somewhere in the sky or the top of a mountain. There was a lot of mist or clouds.It could also be possible my mind created a blank background this sort of thing could happen in some video games I might play.I think we got attacked by some sort of creatures and there was other people trying to attack us.It was like a video game there was even some times were instructions would appear and the options I had would appear.I think this point I had to fend off the enemy and possibly keep them out of the machine we arrived in.Some of the people where either killed or lying unconscious I didn't have the time to check if they were ok or not. Like a video game the objective was to stay alive long enough to be able figure out would to do next.I didn't know where I was or who I was or what was happening but imagined I would just have to move forward and hopefully find some answers.

The last one had old faces from the past appear in it.I think there was a girl I went to school with and she let me know that I had made quite a few peoples lives miserable.I think she meant that I had sent some pretty bad energy their way.I can't really remember everything I dreamt about the night I had this dream.I feel like most of it didn't matter.What I will say is a lot of the people I met I was just disconnected from it was as if it wasn't even important who they were or how I interacted with them because I was moving forward and was inevitability going to leave them behind any way.I found myself just moving through lots of different random places in this dream to.It was like there no plot.The bit I do remember although I'm not exactly sure what happened.I think I was in some sort of shop and I decided to go into a room in the floor.The room I think was like a store room.I think there might have been some blue lights it had a sort clinical feel to it.I think I was in a sort of negative mood.I think I went into that room because to be left alone and also because I wanted to do something more enjoyable than whatever it was I was supposed to be doing.What happens next is messed up.I think there was a dummy or mannequin floating in the air.At least I think that what it was.I think it was an inanimate object.It is also possible it could have been a robot or perhaps a sleeping alien or demon.Thing is If it was a living thing I couldn't I could sense any sign of life.I can't remember what its face looked like exactly it could have been wearing a mask as it had a long face and head.It looked like a really black mask but it could have just been scaly skin.I sat on top of it and started to have sex with it.All of a sudden It just came to life to.Its face started to move and I could feel it start to turn into living flesh.This happened while we floating in mid air.I think it had red eyes.It was hard to describe as it was like I was looking down own it while the view was zooming in and out.Also at times the face seemed distorted and shadowy sometimes it was like my vision was becoming blurry.The really messed up thing was I wasn't afraid or ashamed I just continued on.Whatever it was seemed to enjoy what was happening.I wasn't even attracted to this thing and yet I just continued like I was this inhuman creature with no feelings.It was almost like that thing was more human than I was.I am not really what happened It could have already been alive but a part of me did wonder did I turn an inanimate object into a living breathing being with a conciousness.Afters a man told me that my shame had been recorded for all time.In a strange way I think he meant that the entire universe would hold the memory what happened in its conciousness forever.I think he meant that I had committed some sort of crime against nature or against the order of the universe by doing what I did.

posted February 11, 2015 05:51 PM            

To me Anti Heroes or Antiheroines would be characters like
The Punisher http://www.comicvine.com/punisher/4005-1525/

Faith from Buffy The Vampire Slayer http://www.comicvine.com/faith/4005-42342/

Anya from Buffy the vampire slayer
http://www.comicvine.com/anya/4005-20100/

Angel from Buffy the Vampire slayer http://www.comicvine.com/angel/4005-20094/

Spawn http://www.comicvine.com/spawn/4005-3381/

Vampirella http://www.comicvine.com/vampirella/4005-1677/

The Huntress http://www.comicvine.com/helena-wayne/4005-45563/

Pantha http://www.comicvine.com/pantha/4005-32362/

Lady Death http://www.comicvine.com/lady-death/4005-1847/

Magneto http://www.comicvine.com/magneto/4005-1441/

Catwoman http://www.comicvine.com/catwoman/4005-1698/

Poison Ivy http://www.comicvine.com/poison-ivy/4005-1697/

To me an unwilling hero would probably not want to be bothered saving the world but would probably be forced into doing it by circumstances .They may become a hero by accident and may not have intended to be a hero.Perhaps they could be a bad guy or girl who redeemed themselves.

Obviously all of the characters I mentioned where fictional and had supper powers or special abilities.I don't expect to be able to do what they do but there could be ordinary things I could do to help make things better in this world instead of being destructive.A lot of the characters I mentioned had potential to both good and bad and aren't easily defined.Some are more destructive than others but even though some of like them Poison Ivy or Magneto are villains they occasionally do good and do have some good intentions.

I think these characters could be described as unwilling heroes although I could be wrong

Squall Leonhart http://finalfantasy.wikia.com/wiki/Squall_Leonhart

Prince of Persia http://princeofpersia.wikia.com/wiki/Sands_of_Time
http://princeofpersia.wikia.com/wiki/Prince_(Sands_of_Time)

The prince from the from the game series not the movie which Disney ripped off.Don't get me wrong Jake Gyllenhaal is cute but Disney don't do the game character justice

posted February 12, 2015 02:30 PM            

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I'll start with the dream In which and an old frenemy of mine appeared in my dreams.
I don't know if he actually is my enemy or not as I'm not sure if I love him or hate him or am just neutral about him.I don't even know how he truly feels about me either.I didn't know what face to pull when I saw him.He looked amused like his usual tricky evil fairy self.I do have a cheek to call him an evil fairy as their have been times where I have behaved in the exact same ways. I probably just don't like competition.We were in my bedroom.The window was wide open.I think it was early in the morning the sun began to rise incredibly quickly and it suddenly became quite warm.It was amazing it was like I was viewing the dream in high definition the colours of the sun and sky were intense almost dreamy.We started to talk.I thought he had unfinished business with me.I think that he called this wild blue jay to come to him from outside.It flew in the window and came directly to him.I was amazed and jealous and slightly worried as I thought he wanted to cause trouble.The thing is I am interested in the occult and witchcraft but I really think the sad truth is have no power.I only wish I did.I can't really confirm if he had any power in real life but I know he did dabble or at least claimed to.That made me think this dream is interesting.The fact that he is here in my dreams charming wild birds from the trees makes it more creepy.I think we talked and I think he just talked about what he had learned.I can't remember specific details about what he said.I was fishing for information to try and figure out exactly what I was dealing with.I didn't have a choice as I thought I was dealing with a vengeful witch I had to be able figure out a way to take him down if I needed to if things got ugly. I had to be clever and very careful about what I was doing after all if he can charm wild birds from the trees imagine what else he could do.I was still amazed though I wanted him to do it again there was a hawk or a falcon flying outside.I asked him to bring it to me. He called it and it came to me.We continued to talk for a bit which at times felt like it was fun to chat and other times it felt like even though we may have laughed and smiled at each other it could have gotten really catty and viscous.We went outside because I heard a lot of noise.There was a fox hunt happening but I think the hounds had been distracted and had ended up chasing my cat.At this point I screamed an order at my old frenemy to call the hounds off.He did stop the hounds from attacking my cat.My cat had been injured but that was no problem to him as he healed my cat.The wounds healed in front of my eyes.I ended up having to explain to my grandparents who had just witnessed this what had happened.

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Open windows, sun and the sky show contentment and luck in the next time. The frenemy appears to me like your personal teacher to learn the different meanings of birds and how to use them.

posted February 12, 2015 02:31 PM            

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The next dream started in my old primary seven class.My old nemesis returned for this dream.He was back for another round.He told me that I was self absorbed and that I didn't care anything but myself.I didn't give him the chance to make the first move like I did in my dream with the demonic teacher.I lunged at him him grabbed him and headed butted him.He fell backwards and it looked like I bust his nose.Another classmate who I recognised and actually liked in real life tried to step in but I floored him with a punch.Then my primary seven teacher turned up and told me off.It really was the real her it wasn't the shapeshifter this time.I walked out of the school.I think I got on a bus with some of my school mates and we drove around.For some strange reason we were going to a church.Although I did stop the bus and I got off.I went to a house I had never been to and knocked the door.To My surprise my aunt my dads sister who I haven't seen in a while because I haven't kept in contact with him or their side opened the door.She invited me in and said to stay a while.It was strange she seemed to be living all alone which I didn't understand because she still has one of her two daughters who would still be a young child who should have probably been there.To my surprise she wasn't nasty to me even though there would be some bad blood between us she talked to me like nothing had happened.I felt like it was as if she had lost everything and was all alone.It was like she was just a shadow of her former self it was almost like she had lost a part of her soul.After my visit I ended up driving through a city at full speed in a car with some other family members.We were driving to a beach near the edge of the city.There were cars chasing us and we had to run them off them road or give them the slip.We eventually go to the beach.There was a red sky .I had a feeling we were about to go on a journey but it felt like we were going to go somewhere that wasn't on this earth or maybe even plain of existence.Don't ask why I felt that way cause I don't know why I can't explain it.

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posted February 12, 2015 02:34 PM            

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In another dream I was in a house with a family I didn't know.I didn't know where I was or why I why I was there.There was just something really off about the family that I couldn't put my finger on.Even the house itself had a strange energy. The house just seemed to get bigger .No matter where I walked in it new rooms and corridors would be added.It sort felt liked I was trapped there the house itself felt as it was working against me.I ended up having sex with this man who I think was about to get married to this woman or was already married to her.I dragged him into this empty room to have sex with him which seemed really crazy as there were lots of people who could have walked in at any minute.I think they were going to have a wedding soon or hold some sort of ceremony.They had a room which looked like some sort of church or temple.I didn't notice who they were praying to though.The whole set up seemed very iffy

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posted February 12, 2015 02:36 PM            

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In another dream I was walking through the corridors of what seemed like a mental hospital late at night.It was like a large mansion but it was still a hospital.We were free to roam through the house.I eventually came to a room which had a person who I went to school with and lived in my neighbourhood who I had actually came to blows with at one point in real life.It was nothing major but we have never really gotten along.He greeted me and asked me what I was in for.We talked a little bit and I started to feel like I wasn't in Kansas any more.From the way he was talking it was as if everyone here had made some pretty bad mistakes but we weren't being punished for them.There would be no more horror we would simply exist and live with what had happened but we could never leave.I don't really believe in Purgatory or Limbo but I think that place in the dream was supposed to be a state of existence like it.It wasn't a horrible place but I admit I wasn't happy about being trapped yet I just accepted it.All was calm and just was what it was.

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posted February 12, 2015 02:38 PM            

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This dream felt like I was in a video game or a movie.I remember being in a large building.There seemed to be some sort of disturbance happening around me we might have been in a battle or war zone. I wasn't sure where to go but like being in a video game I looked around to see which way I could go.I saw what I think was a an elevator.I'm not actually sure if that's what it was but I will explain what I mean now.There were already people in the elevator and I knew I had to get away out of here.I didn't know where I was in the dream but it was one of those were it seemed anything to could be possible.I wasn't sure what the danger was but I knew I had to get away.It was a bit like a video game and I just sort of knew I had to run for the lift and didn't think about whether it made logical sense or not I knew I had to run for it. I'm sure not if it was an elevator or a teleporter or a time machine or something that could take me to a new dimension.There where other people who I didn't know who seemed to be very important people.They might have lead countries or armies for all I know.I think they all followed the orders of this very tall and very muscely sharply dressed black man who was their leader.I wasn't really even sure what part I was playing in this whole story or what was happening around me.I didn't know if these people where friends or enemies.Whatever role I played in this story there was one thing I knew. I knew I wanted to seduce the leader.I decided this while we where fleeing the carnage and we were going up into the sky .I think we may have left the building and for some reason I think the elevator may not have been attached to anything.So I moved towards him while making lots of eye contact.I think I might have pretended to trip and he caught me which gave me to perfect excuse to have a little grope.I went in for the kill and he seemed up for it and we had sex in the elevator.The elevator stopped but I wasn't sure where we where.It could have been somewhere in the sky or the top of a mountain. There was a lot of mist or clouds.It could also be possible my mind created a blank background this sort of thing could happen in some video games I might play.I think we got attacked by some sort of creatures and other people trying to attack us.It was like a video game there was even some times were instructions would appear and the options I had would appear.I think this point I had to fend off the enemy and possibly keep them out of the machine we arrived in.Some of the people where either killed or lying unconscious I didn't have the time to check if they were ok or not. Like a video game the objective was to stay alive long enough to be able figure out would to do next.I didn't know where I was or who I was or what was happening but imagined I would just have to move forward and hopefully find some answers.

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posted February 12, 2015 02:39 PM            

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The last one had old faces from the past appear in it.I think there was a girl I went to school with and she let me know that I had made quite a few peoples lives miserable.I think she meant that I had sent some pretty bad energy their way.I can't really remember everything I dreamt about the night I had this dream.I feel like most of it didn't matter.What I will say is a lot of the people I met I was just disconnected from it was as if it wasn't even important who they were or how I interacted with them because I was moving forward and was inevitability going to leave them behind any way.I found myself just moving through lots of different random places in this dream to.It was like there no plot.The bit I do remember although I'm not exactly sure what happened.I think I was in some sort of shop and I decided to go into a room in the floor.The room I think was like a store room.I think there might have been some blue lights it had a sort clinical feel to it.I think I was in a sort of negative mood.I think I went into that room because to be left alone and also because I wanted to do something more enjoyable than whatever it was I was supposed to be doing.What happens next is messed up.I think there was a dummy or mannequin floating in the air.At least I think that what it was.I think it was an inanimate object.It is also possible it could have been a robot or perhaps a sleeping alien or demon.Thing is If it was a living thing I couldn't I could sense any sign of life.I can't remember what its face looked like exactly it could have been wearing a mask as it had a long face and head.It looked like a really black mask but it could have just been scaly skin.I sat on top of it and started to have sex with it.All of a sudden It just came to life to.Its face started to move and I could feel it start to turn into living flesh.This happened while we floating in mid air.I think it had red eyes.It was hard to describe as it was like I was looking down own it while the view was zooming in and out.Also at times the face seemed distorted and shadowy sometimes it was like my vision was becoming blurry.The really messed up thing was I wasn't afraid or ashamed I just continued on.Whatever it was seemed to enjoy what was happening.I wasn't even attracted to this thing and yet I just continued like I was this inhuman creature with no feelings.It was almost like that thing was more human than I was.I am not really what happened It could have already been alive but a part did wonder did I turn an inanimate object into a living breathing being with a conciousness.Afters a man told me that my shame had been recorded for all time.In a strange way I think he meant that the entire universe would hold the memory what happened in its conciousness forever.I think he meant that I had committed some sort of crime against nature or against the order of the universe by doing what I did.

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posted February 12, 2015 08:27 PM            

Its's slightly interesting about you saying that my frenemy could be a teacher.Do you think its possible he could reappear in real life ?

Hopefully the birds will help me achieve my freedom.

I am glad that I'm hopefully getting the mirror part of nemesis out of my system.With any luck I'll stop seeing him in my dreams.I bet he will be glad to stop seeing me to because everytime I see him it ends up like a scene from a Kill Bill movie and it ends up like this lol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TrZuYfti-pE
Well it is never that intense but like those two we really hate each other.It feels like we would love to do that.I wish I had some of their moves I'm going to have to tame that part of me that wants to battle my enemies.I am trying to be more peaceful and more forgiving its just doesn't come easy to me.You are right though people can change.What you said about the car and driving does make a lot of sense to me.I like the part about the red sky and water as they say as one door closes another one opens.

Do you mean there are secrets in my own family.It wouldn't surprise me at all with some of my family.

What you said about the hospital also makes sense.I do need to work with my own ego.I do encounter others in my life who need to work on theirs to but at the same I have became like them.I may not even enjoy the constant arguments and stalemates but I can be indifferent to other people and act as if its them or me.This part of me whether it is right or wrong makes it a lot easier to deal with opponents in a cold,indifferent and efficient manner.I can be indifferent but I can also be capable of immense hatred if I really don't like the person.Although I'm hoping as I gain my independence and freedom and sort my life out I will feel contented with myself and these petty squabbles won't happen as much or have a hold on me.

I suppose it does make sense that I would want to be able to be a capable person and be able to match or maybe surpass my leader or teacher.

I'll take your last interpretation as advice not to join the dark side

Thanks again GeminiKarat for your words of wisdom.Your brilliant as always.

Venusincap89 I'm glad my dreams are keeping you entertained.

posted February 14, 2015 09:20 AM            

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Its's slightly interesting about you saying that my frenemy could be a teacher.Do you think its possible he could reappear in real life ?

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Do you mean there are secrets in my own family.

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I suppose it does make sense that I would be able to be a capable person and be able to match or maybe surpass my leader or teacher.

I'll take your last interpretation as advice not to join the dark side

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Thank you GeminiKarat

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posted February 14, 2015 04:23 PM            

Oh god I wonder what secrets will crawl out of the shadows.When I think of my fathers side of the family I think of this theme song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhydimuYvHo Don't get my wrong I love the Addams Family but they are dysfunctional and my family can make things complicated.I used to think my mothers side wasn't to bad but there are a few bad apples including myself lol. It wasn't such a perfect picture as I had once thought.

I should also point out that I meant to say that it would make sense that I would want to be a capable person and be able to match or maybe surpass my leader or teacher .I forgot to add the want to to that sentence.It probably sounded as it I I thought I already could surpass my teachers.I haven't quite made it to that point where I can match or surpass my teacher or leader.Hopefully I will get to that point though.