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Topic: I threw my father down the stairs
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Panthera Leo
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posted March 04, 2015 09:13 AM
  
I was in my old house in the living room.I see.I seemed to be on edge.I looked as if I was feeling dead on the inside.My parents were arguing and shouting at each other.My mother walked out of the room and went upstairs my father followed her.I seemed to be in a mood were I just thought nothing about the fighting .I just wished it would stop.I wasn't really surprised as my parents were always arguing.Then I heard serious squabbling and voices getting louder and Like things had gotten physical .So I rushed up the stairs and into the room my parents where in.My father was furious he had my mother pinned to a bed and was strangling her.He looked like he wanted to kill her.I think my cat was also in the room scratching and spitting at my father trying to help my mother.I instantly without thinking grabbed my father dragged him out of the room and to to the top of the stairs and I pushed him down them.I watched as he tumbled down them and hit his head on a door near the bottom of the stairs.He didn't get up.Then the view changed and went up the stairs and I saw myself looking down on him from the top of the stairs with this expressionless unmoved face.It was an unemotional as when I had grabbed him and threw him down them.IP: Logged |
GeminiKarat
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posted March 04, 2015 03:33 PM
May I ask: Where have you been when you saw yourself? Did you watch yourself?Please read it as an opinion:
This dream indicates that overpowering feelings or negative experiences (=strangling) come to the surface (=stairs up). They have something to do with the past (=old house) and the experience that a person cannot force love (=tie up) authoritatively (=father).
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Panthera Leo
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posted March 04, 2015 06:24 PM
Thank you GemminiKaratIt started with me viewing myself and my parents.I saw them go out the living room.Then I saw myself. I then viewed my father hurting my mother.I saw myself grab him and throw him down them.I viewed him as he tumbled and then from the bottom of the stairs I saw myself. I think what you said seems to make sense.
I'll be very honest lately I've been thinking about the past and things I'M struggling to let go of.On top of that I can't get rid of this feeling that people are backstabbing me and betraying and plotting against me.My mood has been really foul and have been feeling drained and quite tired.It made feel very vengeful.I felt almost soulless like I just wanted to put a permanent stop to the people who wish to harm me.
It only ever happened once when I was younger but I once saw my father loose his temper and beat my mother in the living room of that house and then storm out.After I witnessed that I couldn't never really look at my father the same way.I carried a lot of hatred for him for years after that.The dream reminded me of that time. I used to see my father as an enemy.I think the imagery of me pushing him down those stairs could be almost symbolic of destruction of those who harmed me.
I got mad last night and tried to create my own curse to stop those who harmed me.
I wonder if that dream means it will devour those who caused me pain. I know it was a horrible dream but I just can't help but feel nothing no guilt, no shame or no remorse.I just felt nothing I just woke up and started my day.That's the ugly truth. IP: Logged |
Ayelet
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posted March 04, 2015 06:46 PM
Hello Panthera Leo. I think you want to protect your mother. And perhaps the rage inside you took the form of a violent quarrel between your parents. You said you saw your father as an enemy, so perhaps he came to represent in the dream all your enemies, and thus the dream is related to the special situation/mood you were in upon falling asleep. Perhaps much of the violence in you stems from your father's image and the charged relationships between your parents. You are watching yourself acting violently against your father with no remorse. Perhaps it is so as you play the role of the hero, saving your mother. It is interesting to note you finally watched yourself from below, while you were upstairs after throwing your father down. It is as if you were viewing yourself from your father's point of view. I see a conflict here.IP: Logged |
Panthera Leo
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posted March 04, 2015 08:13 PM
Thank you AyeletI think there has always been a part that did always wishes I could have intervened and protected my mother.I still do want to protect her although I will admit I have been more preoccupied with protecting myself.I shouldn't be surprised that my father appeared in the dream since I have harboured some ill will towards him
and some of his his sisters for the way they behaved towards me and my mother.Perhaps a part of me did want to be a hero.I will be honest though I don't really think being a hero is my main motivation. I think carrying out my spiteful intentions are the main goal.I really feel more preoccupied with ridding my self of those who hurt me.I think what I care most about is winning the war.
I think in real life I have been more concerned with other people who wish to harm me but at the same point it does make that my father appeared.At the moment I don't consider my father a real threat to me.I feel like he has messed his own life up and is going nowhere.As far as I'm concerned he has already dug his own grave.I may have made my fathers life a little bit more unbearable lately so maybe it does make sense that I saw myself from his point of view.Perhaps I do have a little sympathy for the devil although only a little. Its a bit late so I'm going to say goodnight Ayelet and GeminKarat
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GeminiKarat
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posted March 05, 2015 03:02 PM
I have my Moon in opposition to my Mercury. It is in my natal chart that I feel betrayed by those who I trust. I did attract many evidences for my feeling in order to have a real life evidence for my feeling. I will always have this feeling and I changed the approach to that feeling. Then the universe sent me some guinea pigs in real life to prove my change. I guess I made an improvement, because I meet new people and they help. I am still working on that feeling, BUT I do feel a progress. (and I am old   )
I know more than one dream, where the dreamer feels nothing and watches himself in the dream. That is actually not the truth, there are many feelings connected with such a dream and a lot of work. From my side of the computer you can always have an interpretation of your dreams.You are welcome. I wish you a wonderful dream! 
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