posted April 12, 2015 08:36 AM            

As you know, I'm taking a hiatus from the forum for the time being, but I really wanted to share this dream for interpretation because I'm a little confused. I don't know if it is a message, some advice about future dealings or simply the projection of my subconscious.

The dream:

I received some presents from My ex.

He wrote that he was registered on LindaLand as 7 December 1989 and that LeeLoo had told him in a reading that there was an ex praying for him - he realised it was me and he thanked me for it.
[Note: He was born on the 7, but not in December 1989]

He sent the gifts to a cafe (?) and I had to pick them up and they made me cry. In the dream, I was paranoid that he could see what I was writing on social media, wasn't sure if he knew that I was Ikja.

As the dream went on... I ended up finding some letters which he wrote to me. One letter had been held up by like 2 years though, so I got it at the wrong time. (I can't remember the contents of this letter). Then, there was another letter which he wrote as part of a series of letters to many people - perhaps maybe to a few LindaLand users.

On the front of this letter. He put my name: Ikja; Category: Friend; Reason: Because too much stuff has happened between us to be anything more. . In the rest of this particular letter, he was telling me how my year was going to be, without him in my life.
[Note: He has actually said this to me in real life]

However, he was taking on the role of someone who was into astrology. So, he was telling me about the transits etc.; and then he told me about his year and it contained phrases like 'hopefully I meet the 'right lady'' - seemingly this implies that the right lady for him wasn't me.
[Note: He is not someone who is into astrology!!!! He finds it interesting, but wouldn't intentionally "follow" any advice given.]

This really devastated me, so my friend called him on my behalf. We ended up going to his house and me and my ex really fought verbally - about our relationship. [Note: This has happened more times than I can count. Well, discuss about our relationship have taken place on several occassions].

I told him that he could have told me all the stuff he wrote to my face, and he said stuff like I didn't have a good enough job etc. I said to him that I thought he thought he was too good/too self assured because of the job he has and that he didn't have any right to judge me.
[Note: I'll be honest, this is something that I do fear. My job is not rubbish, but compared to his... It's perhaps a "step down" in his eyes]

For some reason lots of family members were there and I told them all that there was a lack of honesty amongst them, me and him and all of us. I ended up making suggestions on how to improve our relationship with each other and once I gave them examples of how to improve all of our relationships with each other, they all seemed to come round to my way of thinking.

At the end we were all sitting down and talking. Once I was explained to my ex calmly about why what he did upset me, he seemed to be thinking more calmly about our relationship. Like ruling out a reconciliation wasn't definite anymore, and then I woke up 😕
[Note: I have only ever spoken to him quite animatedly about our relationship. Never from a place of calm! Eek]

Timing of dream

I had this dream on the first afternoon that I came back from holiday with my friend. Throughout the trip, I had moments to think about the relationship with my ex and I found/find that I am more accepting of our relationship being over and the fact that we might never reconcile. I'll be honest and stick to my truth, I can never say that I would never get back with him at this stage. Despite what he has done, because that would be a lie, but I understand that I have more power now. I am in control of whatever I instigate and respond to in regards to this situation between us. Perhaps I'm becoming better equipped to be with or without him.

However, I don't understand why dreams have an element of truth in them, and then some abstract themes. Do you have any ideas what dreams like mine are trying to communicate? - reality? hopes? fears? maths future?

posted April 12, 2015 02:40 PM            

Thanks for responding!
I appreciate it because I am puzzled.

I didn't meet a man in 1989 who was in love with me, as I was born in 1990. My ex was born in 1988. I've never known someone born on 7 Dec either 😕😕

posted April 12, 2015 02:57 PM            

Using numerology

7 December 1989

7 = My Current Personal Month Number
12 (December) = 1+2 is 3, My Current Personal Year Number
1989 = 1+9+8+9 is 9, My Day Number Yesterday (when I had the dream)

Then they all add together and equal 19, which reduces to 1 - new beginning? So this dream might be advice or a heads up...

posted April 12, 2015 04:02 PM            

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I seem to have loved you in numberless forms...

LeeLoo's Esotericorner

posted April 12, 2015 04:34 PM            

This situation has plagued my mind since 28 September 2013! Since that day, I have always felt like a victim. Like I loved and wasn't loved back in the way I wanted/needed to be loved. I felt guilty and I felt ashamed. It has been a very long battle, but I do feel like I am coming to a place of acceptance with it and I am not ashamed to say that I loved innocently. Perhaps naively, but I just loved and I am not ashamed any more. It happened and it was real for me, even if it wasn't for him.

I think what I find frustrating is that when I was ready to walk away about a month ago now, my ex came back and started to make conversation. This was on the day Saturn went retrograde. So, I was confused about whether we were supposed to get our foundation right before Saturn went direct again.

I desperately wanted to believe that we had a future, and I read cards and horary charts. That's what I wanted, but when I look at the situation; and as I thought about the situation over my holiday... I found that I began to feel more comfortable with never getting back together and not talking.

Yes, I do wonder what the future holds and perhaps I do still hope/wonder; but I can see how our relationship just might not be for me. My approach is different now, I don't NEED that relationship. It would be nice to have my friend back, but I am worth more one sided love or what appears to be that; and I have never felt that as strongly as I do now.

This must be the revolution! Thanks LL x

posted April 12, 2015 06:41 PM            

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Originally posted by ikja:

P.s. funnily enough, he was born on the 7th and I was born on the 16th - how mad is that!

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posted April 13, 2015 09:49 AM            

@ikja A dream can be a reprocessing tool as LeeLoo stated and you are breaking a circle at the moment for the powerfull new beginning.

@LeeLoo: You are in the middle of a powerfull new beginning. Whenever there is a message, it is: You are going to be famous.

To both of you:

posted April 14, 2015 02:53 PM            

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
Thank you, GK, you are so sweet
Where do you find those gifs? so original, so YOU

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I wish you all the best!