posted June 08, 2015 11:19 AM            

My family have recently started appearing in my dreams.A lot of them have no business being in my life never mind appearing in my dreams.I am really sick of my subconscious giving them any time of day or should I say dream time.

The first one I had involved my mother and father and many extended members from both sides.We were in my grandmothers(Dads mother) house.My mothers side where having a noisy around my grandmothers home and talking to my dad and relatives from his side who lived with him and my grandmother.My favourite aunt was criticizing my dad and making all sorts of digs and smart ass comments at his family.Then some more aunts and cousins from dads side came in to visit.I made sure I stayed out of the way in the living room while all this happening.To be honest I didn't want to be there and I was happily just acting as if everyone was not there.Then they saw me and they had they nerve to acknowledge me,say hello to me and decide to give me some time alone with my dad.The nerve know one asked them to leave. I bet they thought they where being reasonable and I was the difficult one.Maybe I'm wrong though maybe it was a good thing that they didn't know what to say to me or have much to say.Maybe I should savour the look on their faces that said "I feel uncomfortable like a worm squirming on a hook and want to make a quick exit".I have to be honest sometimes I wish I was like Medusa and those who looked at me would turn to stone.Its a pity those who gaze at this abomination and hate me and are disgusted with me didn't just turn to a pillar of salt like Lot's wife.

The next dream I had took started with me walking near where I used to to go to school.I bumped into an old classmate and made small talk with her.We walked into the school for some reason.Perhaps I wanted to see what had changed in the old dump.I probably shouldn't talk badly about the place as it was more like my fellow students and the teachers that made me spit venom and bring my shadow self to life.I didn't stay long and quickly departed like a bat from Hell..I ended up in a shopping centre.I was inside the shopping centre standing near a huge window when all of a sudden a huge wave of water burst through the windows and knocked me off my feet.Water started to pour in through the windows,walls and roof.The room was filling with water.It was filling to the ceiling.I started to swim through the centre stopping every so often to get some air.Eventually I came to a part of the centre that hadn't been flooded.I bumped into my uncle the one I had the dream about me strangling and drowning.We just talked as we where walking through the centre until we got to an exit.

The last dream was probably the worst.Me and my cousins were in a house I used to live in.My cousins were drinking and using drugs.I didn't like what they were doing and looked at them like they were completely idiotic for risking their health.Then one of them went into the bathroom and was in there a little while.She didn't look good when she went in.Then my other cousin went in after her.We discovered my other cousin floating face down in the full bath tub which was full of water that looked like there was vomit and possibly some blood in it.I went downstairs and remember my grandfather my mums dad and my mothers sister the mother of the cousin who was in the bathtub were sitting at a table.I think he made a comment like it was good thing that I had the common sense not to drink myself to death or do drugs or that my common sense was a good thing and I should listen to it.
The next part of the dream took part in some place I didn't recognize.It was like some large old building.Which was changing around me as I walked through it.I came to a small room with lots of filling cabinets and looked through them.To my disgust I encountered another cousin the one who makes me want to projectile vomit, the She Demon in Saint's clothing. As usual she was behaving like some spoilt little princess.She was attention seeking as usual and parading herself around like some girl who is trying to be Miss Universe.I probably should pity the little diva because she really is oblivious to how God awful she really is.I Suppose I shouldn't really blame her she grew up with my father's side of the family its no wonder she's a spoilt,selfish,manipulative,two faced little snake.
She sees my Tarot and Lenormand cards and picks them up without asking me if she can look at them and then she just looks threw them then throws them down and they go all over the place.I swear I hardly ever have sweet dreams and as usual there is never an Evil Queen around when you really need one.One who can rid me of little princesses like her and get them out my face.

posted June 11, 2015 03:13 PM            

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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
The first one I had involved my mother and father and many extended members from both sides.We were in my grandmothers(Dads mother) house.My mothers side where having a noisy around my grandmothers home and talking to my dad and relatives from his side who lived with him and my grandmother.My favourite aunt was criticizing my dad and making all sorts of digs and smart ass comments at his family.Then some more aunts and cousins from dads side came in to visit.I made sure I stayed out of the way in the living room while all this happening.To be honest I didn't want to be there and I was happily just acting as if everyone was not there.Then they saw me and they had they nerve to acknowledge me,say hello to me and decide to give me some time alone with my dad.The nerve know one asked them to leave. I bet they thought they where being reasonable and I was the difficult one.Maybe I'm wrong though maybe it was a good thing that they didn't know what to say to me or have much to say.Maybe I should savour the look on their faces that said "I feel uncomfortable like a worm squirming on a hook and want to make a quick exit".I have to be honest sometimes I wish I was like Medusa and those who looked at me would turn to stone.Its a pity those who gaze at this abomination and hate me and are disgusted with me didn't just turn to a pillar of salt like Lot's wife.

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posted June 11, 2015 03:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
The next dream I had took started with me walking near where I used to to go to school.I bumped into an old classmate and made small talk with her.We walked into the school for some reason.Perhaps I wanted to see what had changed in the old dump.I probably shouldn't talk badly about the place as it was more like my fellow students and the teachers that made me spit venom and bring my shadow self to life.I didn't stay long and quickly departed like a bat from Hell..I ended up in a shopping centre.I was inside the shopping centre standing near a huge window when all of a sudden a huge wave of water burst through the windows and knocked me off my feet.Water started to pour in through the windows,walls and roof.The room was filling with water.It was filling to the ceiling.I started to swim through the centre stopping every so often to get some air.Eventually I came to a part of the centre that hadn't been flooded.I bumped into my uncle the one I had the dream about me strangling and drowning.We just talked as we where walking through the centre until we got to an exit.

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posted June 11, 2015 03:15 PM            

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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
The last dream was probably the worst.Me and my cousins were in a house I used to live in.My cousins were drinking and using drugs.I didn't like what they were doing and looked at them like they were completely idiotic for risking their health.Then one of them went into the bathroom and was in there a little while.She didn't look good when she went in.Then my other cousin went in after her.We discovered my other cousin floating face down in the full bath tub which was full of water that looked like there was vomit and possibly some blood in it.I went downstairs and remember my grandfather my mums dad and my mothers sister the mother of the cousin who was in the bathtub were sitting at a table.I think he made a comment like it was good thing that I had the common sense not to drink myself to death or do drugs or that my common sense was a good thing and I should listen to it.
The next part of the dream took part in some place I didn't recognize.It was like some large old building.Which was changing around me as I walked through it.I came to a small room with lots of filling cabinets and looked through them.To my disgust I encountered another cousin the one who makes me want to projectile vomit, the She Demon in Saint's clothing. As usual she was behaving like some spoilt little princess.She was attention seeking as usual and parading herself around like some girl who is trying to be Miss Universe.I probably should pity the little diva because she really is oblivious to how God awful she really is.I Suppose I shouldn't really blame her she grew up with my father's side of the family its no wonder she's a spoilt,selfish,manipulative,two faced little snake.
She sees my Tarot and Lenormand cards and picks them up without asking me if she can look at them and then she just looks threw them then throws them down and they go all over the place.

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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
I swear I hardly ever have sweet dreams and as usual there is never an Evil Queen around when you really need one.One who can rid me of little princesses like her and get them out my face.

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posted June 11, 2015 06:10 PM            

You are right about not being able to escape your roots.I think I just want to be able to move on without having my family put obstacles in my way and being constricted by them.I don't want to cut them all off.Some off them I do want to cut off because I don't have the will or energy to try and sorts things out with them. I am just prepared to say things didn't work out and I'm not investing any more energy into you any more goodbye for ever.Unfortunately for some I may have to wait a little longer to say goodbye because of other family members who I care about.Some of them I haven't heard from in a while so if I don't hear from them there will be no goodbye.

I have to wonder why my uncle would help me.Perhaps I really am bad to the bone. If I'm honest I couldn't care if my uncle had genuine good intentions towards me.I would still want to cut him off.I really don't want him to help me.I will admit I have always wanted to have the last laugh and be able to say I don't need you any more.I would love to be able to get my life together and no longer need those who made my life difficult and have them need me so I could abandon them and neglect them and walk away from them in their hour of need with a complete lack of guilt or remorse.Sometimes I know I could forgive someone and I sometimes know there's no real reason to hold the grudge but I still do.I am like the elephant that never forgets although sometimes the hatred and negative feelings dissipate.The thing is I really hate to go back on a decision I've made.I find I don't really need reasons to dislike someone any more I just decide I don't like them any more and that is final.

I would like to delve deeper into the past and my heritage and find about where I came from.I would love to be able to communicate with the spirits of my ancestors I wish I could see and hear them and discover what they know.

Can I ask you why you think I may have psychic gifts ?
If its not to personal a question to ask can ask if you have any Psychic gifts or intuitive abilities?I can't remember if I have asked you that before but If I have I apologise.

posted June 13, 2015 04:18 PM            

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I have to wonder why my uncle would help me.Perhaps I really am bad to the bone. If I'm honest I couldn't care if my uncle had genuine good intentions towards me.I would still want to cut him off.I really don't want him to help me.I will admit I have always wanted to have the last laugh and be able to say I don't need you any more.I would love to be able to get my life together and no longer need those who made my life difficult and have them need me so I could abandon them and neglect them and walk away from them in their hour of need with a complete lack of guilt or remorse.Sometimes I know I could forgive someone and I sometimes know there's no real reason to hold the grudge but I still do.I am like the elephant that never forgets although sometimes the hatred and negative feelings dissipate.The thing is I really hate to go back on a decision I've made.I find I don't really need reasons to dislike someone any more I just decide I don't like them any more and that is final.

I would like to delve deeper into the past and my heritage and find about where I came from.I would love to be able to communicate with the spirits of my ancestors I wish I could see and hear them and discover what they know.

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Can I ask you why you think I may have psychic gifts ?
Morrigan would be a great Phantom Queen to call upon and the great thing is she isn't Evil which is another great bonus.
I have to admit my calling upon her to deal with my cousin wouldn't really be a good reason to call upon her as I'm sure she has a lot more important matters to attend to.I will admit my cousin is just one of those people who the very mention of of her name or the sight of her drives me absolutely crazy.I have to learn to be able to just deal with the fact that she and many others like her exist.I am not some crazed dictator I can't make a decree that no one shall never speak of them to me again.

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Originally posted by Panthera Leo:
If its not to personal a question to ask can ask if you have any Psychic gifts or intuitive abilities?

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posted June 13, 2015 08:10 PM            

I should try reach out to Morrigan and ask if she can help me develop myself a bit more.I will also be also trying to research ways to help develop my intuitive side.I actually happened to discover a site of shaman who is located in Northern Ireland.I'd like to read more about him.I think in some time in the future I would love to perhaps work with a shaman to help improve myself and learn more about my spiritual nature.

You must be really lucky to have had intuitive abilities since childhood.You must be a very intense person with the Sun being conjunct Pluto.I have never really looked at progressions so I don't know much about them.Seven planets in water signs that's a lot of water.

I'm a life path number 7 as well.From what I read it seems to describe me pretty well. I calculated my mother and my grandmothers(mum's mother) life path number and I think if I calculated it right they were both life path number 7.I think my grandfather(mums father) was a life path number 1.All four of us were very close but I wondered if it was a weird relationship having 3 closed off 7's revolving around a number 1.I don't really know a lot about numerology though.I have only read a little bit about it and can't remember much.