posted November 01, 2015 07:48 PM            

I thought what you said about the diamond was very interesting.Although I don't really have a much of a career or financial security and am not very successful in this world.I certainly hope it isn't my time to check out of this wicked world.It could be possible that I have served my purpose in this universe however I don't feel like I have aaccomplished anything or made any sort of difference in the world.I am still not sure what the universe wants with me and how it wants to use me as its pawn.I really have been feeling rather morbid lately and have wondering what will become of me.

I wonder what sort of ceremony he could have me participate in lol.

I really don't know what he is or what I should call him.Names like sprite,gnome,fairy,dwarf or goblin come to mind.I'm am sure there are plenty of other creatures in mythology worldwide that could be similar to those creatures so it would be hard to tell what he is.I didn't feel much of a Celtic connection with him.

I am sure there must be some connection to him however I don't remember ever calling to any little folk before.I may have to try and think of any deities I may have prayed to or spoke my thoughts to out loud.It could be possible that it may have something to do with something I've called to however I am confused because the man reminded of fairy like creatures and the like.

The other little men in my dream appeared after I walked through a college and saw the person I saw used to be best friends with posing nude for an art class.After that I walked out a girl went crazy and ran unto a busy road.Then I it seemed like I was in the middle of nowhere near a dumpster and an old car park where I was approached by a hooded figure of a guy I went to school with.His hood was pulled over his face but he looked so different as if he was only the shadow of a person that he once was he had an eerie vibe to him.Then a little man with evil eyes greyish blackish skin and pointed ears came towards me.I think he said something about me helping him create something or joining them.After that one came behind me and grabbed my arm and It bit me.

I am confused because I don't remember making a deal with him.I probably felt I should have watched my tongue and been careful what I said to him.I think he appeared after I ran out of a shopping centre.I was running from something.I ran down to a pier on a beach near the water and he grabbed my arm from the water and moved towards me.The beach and water didn't look to be very well maintained it looked like a windy sort of day.

I got the feeling I should have been careful as little folk are described as mischevious tricksters.It is possible he wasn't going to harm me however it is sometimes better to be safe than sorry.

I had another dream recently where I acquired Telekensis.I chanted and this shadow energy rose from the floor and lifted me off the floor a little bit and it moved me around in a circular motion like a pencil drawing a circle on a page.After that I went on a rampage with my powers picking up cars filled with people with my mind and throwing them about with little effort.That dream started when me and my family woke in a lobby of a building that seemed like a hotel or spa or something .It appeared we were allowed to stay the night.I walked into the kitchen over a wet floor and chanted.The rain was trickling down outside.Strangely I walked over the newly washed floor which is something I would never do.I have a feeling I was angry at whowever washed the floor or whowever owned the building.I have a strange feeling my aunt who I am not fond of owned the building and cleaned the floor and thats's why I walked over the clean floor.I never saw my aunt in the dream but I just feel she was involved.I think my mother was going to be forced to clean the floor so I think that's why I got mad and tried to hurt people.There was no way my mother was going to clean up the mess.I was angry at my aunt and some of my relatives and friends of my aunts so I wanted to create a mess for them to clean up.I always feel like my mother is demeaned,unappreaciated by my aunt and is left with all the unpleasant jobs while my aunt who thinks shes a snob looks down her nose at her.I started to destroy their fancy cars and I used my powers to play with them like they were little toys that I could snap in two if I felt like it.I wanted them to know that I was angry I and I wasn't going to stop the damage I was causing until the rage had left me and I felt like it.I didn't stop because they begged I stopped because I wanted to and the rage had passed and alot of damage had been done to their property.

posted November 02, 2015 06:02 PM            

I don't really see her as a trickster but I probably wouldn't put it it past her.I think snobbish,selfish and materialistic are words I would use to describe her.She has to keep up the jones.She can be good at playing the poor me card if it suits her.
I mentioned the dream with my aunt because I wondered if the chanting and the shadow energy had some some of connection to the other dreams.

I can't remember if I have lived before.If i I have had past lives I have no memory of them.

There may have been times in this life time I may have thought about making deal for my soul.I had had enough of the world and thought about it.

I don't have a fixation with the devil though.At the present moment Christianity and its teachings no longer interest me.I think it is possible that lower entities
exist however I don't have imense fear of them.In the past the idea to sell my soul to the devil may have occured to me but that was before I lost any remaining interest in Christian Ideolgy.At the the time I was probably in a negative place.However even at the time I may have been prepared to make a deal I never got any reply.Although I never really went through any proper ritual or anything like that I simply called to whowever I was looking to make a deal with and assumed they would be able to hear me and assumed if they were really interested they would come.I imagine really selling your soul is a lot more complicated.I never did anything properly all I may have done is call a few names and speak my intentions out loud or say an invocation or two but thats about it.Nothing appeared and no deals were made so I imagine that I still have my soul.

I was in a really horrible mood when I was thinking about it.It's an awful thing to admit but sometimes I do say out loud that if a God or Goddess could meet my price I would happily sell them my soul or offer myself to them if they were prepared to make a deal.I was angry at the universe and I know a soul is a precious thing but I just felt like I was sick of life and sick of getting knowhere and why should I let morality stop me.Really I was hoping offering myself up would get me a better deal in life.I am under no allusions that I am trying to be selfless and help the universe,other people or any deity.I simple feel like I made an offer if anyones interested in making a deal you know where I am.

It makes me sound like a horrible person but I don't feel bad about it.

I haven't seen the little man again yet in my dreams but I will have to wait and see if he pops up again.
I am sure one way or another I will get to the bottom of things.

Thank you both Geminkarat and Ayelet for your time.

posted November 03, 2015 04:05 AM            

To have emotions is a natural thing. A varity of emotions may make you a complex person. To be open, think and deal with it makes you an successful person in my opinion.