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Topic: Wedding rehearsal, encore
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Dancing Maenad
Moderator Posts: 3734
From: The Harvest
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted March 12, 2016 03:59 AM
  
I don't remember many of my dreams, but with Pluto transiting my 12th house, when I do, they seem to deliver powerful messages. 2 weeks ago I had two dreams, the breast cancer dream and another one that was more pleasant, that I remembered briefly while waking up and then I completely forgot what it was about, I just remembered vaguely it was a nice dream. I guess the breast cancer dream was much more shocking and erased the wedding dream from my conscious memory. Except my subconscious seems to be insisting that I remember! So I had it again, last night. It wasn't exactly the same as the previous one, but there were definitely similarities. In both dreams I was rehearsing for my wedding, in the first dream I knew I was marrying my current boyfriend (this is a very recent relationship, so I had that dream ~10 days after we started the relationship), while in this second dream was less visible, but I think it was also him. The odd thing is we were actually rehearsing a theater play in English (we don't speak English in my country, though almost everyone in my circle knows it and they're relatively fluent in it), it was a play about a love story and we were rehearsing in a room that looked like a classroom or even a courtroom. I felt that not everyone in the room liked the play, and I wasn't too disturbed about that, I was a bit nervous but it was more to do with remembering my lines (lol how narcissistic!) than how the people attending the rehearsal were feeling. Someone told me something about an explosion that happened where he lived, which was on the news, that I took a bit lightly - I mean, it saddened me that it happened but it didn't spoil my calmness and my focus on the wedding rehearsal. I was very serene throughout the whole thing. Also, for some reason an ex of mine was there and though I didn't look at him directly, I was aware of his presence and knew he was observing me. The only person who approached me to complain about the play was my father, and that alone sort of annoyed me, since I thought he had no right. The tension between me and my father was present in this dream as well as waking life. I maintained my calm, listened patiently to what he had to say and then moved on to something else. He had no decision power, only I did. And I was going to have the wedding I wanted, it was *my* wedding, after all. I felt my husband to be to my right, supporting my decisions, but my focus was not on him in this dream. But I knew he was there and that he "had my back", which was a nice feeling. Now, in reality, I am having issues with my father and a lot of anger towards him that doesn't seem to be going away. He was mostly an absent father (though he was actually present), so I do feel he has no right to intervene in my life in any way, though he may wish the best for me. However, my boyfriend and I are also having some difficulties and I was facing a decision two weeks ago, as I do now, whether to stay in this relationship or walk away. I guess my subconscious is telling me this is a good relationship and I should reconcile (wedding) with him. I also must say that I do consider settling down with him one day. However, there are some problems we are facing, main ones being his thyroid cancer (which might be declared cured if his tests stay as good as they are until the summer) and "his lower social condition" as he calls it. We've been having some arguments about money recently.  I did want to break things up with him, as did he, for now we seem to have patched things up. So I don't know what to make of this repeating wedding dream! I do feel personality wise we are very compatible, and have the same overall view on life, kids, marriage, religion etc. Pretty much everything. But we do come from different walks of life and this raises some uncomfortable feelings in both of us. The theater play is even more odd and this one was the same in both dreams, I woke up with a distinct deja-vu feeling about it. Does it suggest we're mere actors and that weddings are an act? Or maybe that's my view on marriage.. Unsettling, but possibly true. What do you think? What should I make of this? IP: Logged |
GeminiKarat
Moderator Posts: 2531
From: Austria
Registered: Jun 2014
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posted March 14, 2016 04:33 AM
Please read it as an opinion:
A stage in a dream is associated with show and accomplishment and leads to the question: What recognition do I wish for or do I fear? What am I ready to show the world? Being in the dream on stage can mean that the dreamer wants to be present.
This dream indicates the contemplating about marriage(=wedding,rehearsal of the play), to go against the social system(=explosion, friends, father) and make a decision from the heart(=nice feeling).
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mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 5206
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted March 17, 2016 12:03 AM
In a "traditional" wedding, the father gives the daughter-bride away to the intended.Thyroid is about making decisions, voicing choices. What would your inner-father voice say about this decision you want to make. Does this decision to marry this person conflict your traditional till-death kind of deep wish? You are still from a generation where girls inherited a social dream-vision. Is this innerdream for a solid stable marriage you know you can rely and trust in 'sensing' something you still need to know about the man? Or yourself-- are you knowing deep inside that you will not be able to make and KEEP a solemn vow with this person? Childhood: Till Death Do Us Part?(you mention your dad's cancer-- significant male energy about to leave your life via death-- also residuals of the trauma you've recently been through regarding the Fire-- life, and death, decisions-- some that deal with scars). Maybe there's a part of you that wants dad there alive, and you want the energetic 'transfer' made. Male energy preparation to bridge. Husband will feel like security (emotionally) because you're sensing the need to make this decision before your dad leaves the planet? Which also would make the innerChild terribly upset. (I remember when I lost my dad--- I hadn't spoken to him for around 16 years. I found out he had died four days after dad's passing. It "affected" me on a very very deep psychological level. Surprising how 'strong' that can come up, even when you think it's finished. Tie up "loose ends" now, if you can...) Reminds me of the phrase "tie the knot" ... and brings me to this definition. http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/gordian%20knot
Sorta past-lifey? So, is your fiancé possibly an alcoholic or addict? Has to keep repeating and repeating his behavior. Or you have to keep convincing yourself that he isn't?
http://www.alexander-the-great.co.uk/gordian_knot.htm Marriage is something very very REAL. Consider with great Care. (music) Scene from Lohengrin, Bridal Chorus (Wagner, scene from a play, german) [5:10] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oqp6zinI7ok ADD: link to your first dream http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum15/HTML/003914.html IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 1670
From: Kentucky
Registered: May 2009
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posted March 23, 2016 04:26 AM
Hello Dancing Maenad  I wouldn't over-think it. To me, the dream seems to reflect the psychological preparations/mechanizations (rehearsals) you are experiencing concerning this relationship. It does seem to suggest that you may be willing to give it more of a chance, but there is doubt and mental "programming" to overcome.  IP: Logged |
Dancing Maenad
Moderator Posts: 3734
From: The Harvest
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted April 10, 2016 01:40 AM
I am sorry to get back to this so late. Thank you, GK, Mirage and Ra for your opinions! The relationship ended about a week later after the dream and though I was a bit hurt, it promoted an awakening in my life. I think I did think he could be good husband material, we got along very nicely, though eventually my decision was against it (I broke it off). IP: Logged |
GeminiKarat
Moderator Posts: 2531
From: Austria
Registered: Jun 2014
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posted April 10, 2016 03:55 AM
You are welcome.
I am sorry and happy for you and ....I wish you to see and meet your true love! IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 5206
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted April 10, 2016 10:25 AM
quote:
Originally posted by GeminiKarat:
I wish you to see and meet your true love!
Breakups hurt so much... so sorry.  Wishing your Venus every perfect fitting detail for your Total fulfillment... 
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