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posted April 09, 2017 04:20 AM            

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It's been a long time since I've dreamed anything, it's been very strange lately, but now out of nowhere it happened again.

In my dream I search for something to take photos of, and suddenly I find a huge crescent shaped Moon and Sun in the sky. They have faces and look exactly like the ones I have on my Pj's. They look at each other.

Something like this: https://az616578.vo.msecnd.net/files/responsive/cover/main/desktop/2016/01/01/635872796018443762-2077357151_Sun_and_Moon_by_daydreamer_art.jpg - except that they are a little bit apart

I start searching for the perfect angle, I even go to a bridge, but at the end I stand at our flat on a pile of dirty snow.

Suddenly, one of my former loves appears doing the exact same thing, searching for the exact same angle. There's a girl with him who says she is his gf. At the end they fall apart.

Then, I go on a trip to another place with someone who says to be my guide. There's a huge wooden box I've already dreamed of once, and now it is filled with a lot of people again. Like a community. At the end of this box sit people from another village, the other end is for people who come from the village my former love comes from. My guide says not to worry, as we wander to the other end, I notice my former love. Then, I escape, and meanwhile I do this, I can see flower shops, plant nurseries, etc.

At one point my former love stops me, and gets angry screaming and shouting at me. I am very astonished as he'd never done this before. And then, appears another girl who says she is his gf, but she looks very strange, like someone who does not fit him at all.

The scene changes, I am at my grandma's looking for cats. He is there as well, circulating around, but then I manage to get away from him. I am playing with little kittens, I have some bleeding scratch marks, but still happy. Inside the house a cat has a bath in tea, grandma pours some more into the box and says 'enjoy'. And the cat enjoys being lazy in it. Under a bed I find some cat poop, and as I look around, another kitten decides to poop on the floor. 😀

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posted April 09, 2017 08:58 PM            

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This is a very nice dream, Emsie, full of imagination.
It could be the moon and sun are a couple, female and male respectively, and you are examining the nature of relationship in your life through that former love of yours, who appear several times during the dream. When you try to photograph the luminaries, you try to grasp the relationship, the man-woman polarity. Your former love is doing the same, ehat could hint to you both examining love in the past together, each from her or his angle, but still together. The girl who says she is his girlfriend might remind you he belongs with the past. Or - the girlfriend could be you, since they fall apart at the end, same as your seperation. The dirty snow may show the "winter" of your love life, a frozen emotion that needs cleansing.
You can ask yourself: what is this wooden box, what was it when you first dreamt on it? And what is the meaning of the community inside the box? Do you have any issues concerning the scene of belonging? Do you accentuate here being a part of society, or wishing to belong more? In other words, do you feel like you already belong and feel comfortable within the community, or is belonging a wish of yours?
The guide could be a mentor or your higher self, telling you there is nothing to worry about, you can explore. Through exploration you meet again your former love, which may hint that your past relationship was teaching you something. You are running away from love, or from the lesson. The flower shops suggests romance, while the plant nurseries may suggest growing, and therefore learning. The flowers and plants may also suggest something you need to nurture inside you, not to neglect. Or it shows you invested emotionally in this relationship and so there is an emotional developement, growth and even blossoming.
Perhaps he shouts at you because there are unresolved issues between you two. Perhaps there was an unexpressed anger. Maybe you think he should be angry with you, for whatever reason. Maybe you didn't express your feelings fully, and you see now emotions that were underneath the surface, whether this anger is yours or his. The girl who claims to be his girlfriend could be, again, you, and if so you find that you two do not fit to each other.
In tour grandma's house you have again the nurturing theme, this time with cats. Perhaps you are motherly here with the kittens, and your grandma is also emphasizing that aspect, giving a bath of tea to the cat. It seems you have a good connection with your grandma, don't you?
You keep avoiding your former love. But you give love to the kittens. Perhaps you are giving to them that which you can no longer give to him. It seems you are looking for an outlet for your affections.
The poop under the bed may signify something digested, relationship (bed) material.

What do you think of my thoughts? Does any of them resonate?

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posted April 10, 2017 04:38 AM            

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I really love your interpretation! This is a true Venus Rx dream, I guess, as it is currently transiting my 4th/5th house.
I was more emotionally invested in this connection. We were opposites - he too freedom loving, me too smothering. I was coping with codependency at that time, and he helped to become aware of it. That was the lesson.
When I became too smothering, he didn't say anything to me, just tried to escape as quiet as he could, and I couldn't understand what was wrong, so I became very angry because of that, and expressed it twice. We had 2 very heated rows, and it was like as if he was waiting for me to end things. He only tried to make the water muddy (typical Pisces)
The strangest thing is, which you also mentioned, that I have motherly nurturing tendencies as well, but my only outlet is for cats. No babies, puppies, anything, only cats. o.o I've been thinking a lot about getting a pet cat these days. :3

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posted April 11, 2017 08:51 AM            

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posted April 11, 2017 07:33 PM            

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Yes, I guess you're right and it is, indeed, a Venus Rx dream! I have forgotten all about Venus going retrograde right now.
His anger could be the way in which he did not express himself, which you expected him to. Sometimes in a dream there are possibilities that are opposite what we experience in the waking life. You know whether you wanted him to directly confront you, or what other emotions such a possible confrontation has caused you to feel. Sometimes you can gather information from the dream not only through the material presented, but also through the way it makes you feel. Perhaps you may pay attention that there was, in the dream, a reversal of roles between you two: He was angry with you, while you tried to avoid him. What could be the meaning of this reversal? Were you trying to balance your mutual experience by putting the two of you in each other's shoes? What do you think?

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posted April 12, 2017 04:27 AM            

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Nice work Ayelet. You are awesome!

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posted April 12, 2017 08:13 AM            

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I've been toying with the idea for some time now that what I would actually do if he suddenly wanted to come back again and try things once more.
I'd be very curious how he would react if I rejected him this time. But not because of revenge or anything like that, but for the fact that I consider 'us' highly incompatible. I wouldn't want him to do the same again as he did for the first time. I don't think I could trust him anymore. Though, that is also true that as years pass people can certainly change, but still, I am pretty sceptic. (My Scorpio Venus simply can't take his Aquarius Venus and Mars )

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posted April 12, 2017 09:09 AM            

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Ra - thank you

Emsie - How do you think he would react if you rejected him? I guess rejection is never nice to deal with. At least you know how YOU would react if he tried again.

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posted April 13, 2017 07:24 AM            

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I think he'd continue to be desperate. He has Pisces Sun and Cancer asc making him suffer big time, but when it comes to responsibility and solving problems he rather runs away. I don't know if this tendency has changed over these years.
All I know is that this dream brought up hurt feelings in me again. I thought they were gone for good, but now I feel terrible. All I want to do right now is to detach from the connection and his energy for good.

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posted April 13, 2017 11:24 PM            

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I am sorry you feel this way, but perhaps it signals you what you would like to avoid in a future connection.

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posted April 14, 2017 08:40 AM            

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I think so. I respect people who handle these kind of things in a straightforward and calm way. I don't really want someone in my life who can't be honest with me and wants to avoid everything by sneaking away when the first problems arise. It's very unattractive for me, but responsibility is a real turn on.

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posted April 14, 2017 04:57 PM            

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I have an update regarding the dream. Something very unusual happened just a few moments ago. He liked an old blog entry of mine I wrote months after he left my life almost 3 years ago!
The strangest part is that he only liked that certain blog entry, and nothing else, so I think he intentionally searched for it and the ones I posted in those few months. o.o
I wrote about the lesson I learned from him and our connection, so I take this as a sign of confirmation.
Why it came as a surprise is that we haven't been talking to each other exactly for 2 years now. And when we had our last row I asked him to unfollow me and my posts, but I think he hasn't done it yet. I wouldn't be surprised if he read all the things I've written and posted so far...

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posted April 15, 2017 03:14 AM            

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That is quite amazing, the coincidence in which you dreamt about him, while he liked your blog's entry, and after such a long time... It seems like he is experiencing Venus in retro as well.. Perhaps it happens like this because it was a consciousness-altering relationship for the two of you.

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posted April 15, 2017 06:02 AM            

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And the title of the blog entry is also Coincidence!!! It's a pretty strange experience, but when I dream about him, which is rare tho, most of the time I have kind of prophetic dreams. I dream of something he does, and then in a timeframe of a few days to a few weeks those things actually happen. o.o

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posted April 19, 2017 07:48 PM            

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Wow. That is pretty involved. Tea, cats, poop and your former love! My first thought is nothing feels right to you . Everything is out of synch. Like the moon and sun to begin are generally thought to be separate but you saw them together, as well the cat went poop in the wrong place and was bathed in tea. I know there are interpretation lists by themes online. I'm thinking you are feeling you are 1/2 right and life is odd without your old love.Do you miss them? Maybe the moon&Sun was you both in the sky. Your reality sees it as not normal to have them together yet in fantasy, there they are side by side?

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posted April 23, 2017 08:12 AM            

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I've been contemplating these things for a few days. I'm so tired that I even lost my lust for life, so there's not much room right now in my life for anyone. I don't feel I miss him at all, but I found the idea of him perhaps returning once more odd indeed. It's strange for me, because these days I feel I can't love anyone, but myself (having a well deserved timeout finally and taking care of myself.)

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posted May 08, 2017 02:02 AM            

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I have another update, especially for Ayelet:

Since then I discovered that those two girls in my dream are his gf's - the first one his previous one (they broke up), and the second one is his current partner. I saw a picture of them, and the girl is very strange indeed, looks like someone who doesn't fit my former love. But considering the fact that he seems to be codependent and always running from being alone and solitude, honestly, I'm not surprised at all.

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posted May 08, 2017 07:13 PM            

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Wow, Emsie, that's pretty psychic of you, to see both his firlfriends, which you haven't seen before, in a dream!

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posted May 09, 2017 07:23 AM            

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A few years ago when I was still coping with the failure of our connection I dreamed about the "first gf". They were riding a motorcycle together getting away from me, and then disappeared into the woods. And a few months later it turned out to be true.

I don't know why I still connected to his energy, I even saw him on the street a few days ago bumping into each other, but I don't feel anything for him, it felt like two strangers meeting on the street. Didn't even say hello, or anything.

I saw this profile picture of his with the second girl, then I connected to some very dark and repelling energy of his. I can't explain why this keeps happening, but I guess it was his negative energy of constant escape/running away from himself and loneliness that keeps emanating from him. I felt somehow disgusted again, so I asked Archangel Michael to help me cutting the cords for good. This was the second Venus retrograde in a row that he appeared in my life, but I don't want him to resurface, never again. I just don't need this.

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