posted June 05, 2017 07:50 PM
Danny
Why would you tear up the butterfly? ...
Maybe a part of you knows deeply that 'you don't want this'-- whatever it is?
-- It presents "too much 'flap'" to deal with?
A Philosophical Poetic Metaphorical Mountain Aside...
Actually Danny, lucid dreaming--
that is, the sudden awareness that you're IN the dream state WHILE remaining in the dream--
is something relatively rare (at least, in the previous century).
There have been spiritually-oriented scientific researchers who studied this phenomenon (last century) for the purpose of learning to 'consciously' direct one's conscious experience to go wider. The dreamer might make note of facts and experiences from that point-of-awakening within the dream-state.
You could engage and go further into the Dream experience WITH whatever symbols (or people) that you find there.
OR, you could find yourself going 'up' or broader-and-wider IN that conscious awareness, still in the dream-state... and do a direct-connection to Higher Self.
It would be as though you had not been aware you were on stage and acting in a theatre play.
You suddenly remember that you are 'an actor'....
Now at this point-- you could own the role knowing that you are 'as the actor', and begin to consciously manipulate and play-around with the story/objects/people presented who are on that stage with you;
or,
the thought-pivot could cause the stage to instantly become stripped and bare..
you are there,
you could suddenly find that you are in the center of a Beautiful Spot-Light,
Amazing and Dazzling
and the Source of it is the most Inspiring thing you EVER saw,
It's filled with reverberating Love?
A PHYSICAL reason for not being able to fully fall asleep could be drinking caffeine, caffeinated drinks. Even some prescribed drugs can have side-effects that keep a layer of your consciousness from being able to go down into sleep all the way.
(This could include recreational substances.)

The last things I want to add.... and ask--
What kinds of things happened to you around the time of the MOTH-Bite dream?
Did something happen that caused you to have terrible mental anguish, anxiety, or to have to bear emotionally overwhelming distress, either before or during that time period?
Butterflies are generally safe pretty bugs...
Usually with "butterflies" we might want to open our Heart and let our Guards down-- delicate, vulnerable, and sensitive.
Is there something in your mind,
and/or something someone tried to tell you "is safe,"
that you (inside yourself) actually object to-- no matter 'how good' it appears on the outside?
~
Sometimes life has presented us with random Events that come out-of-the-blue, and beyond our control. Can seem negative and/or end up being quite Positive!
I wish you Soft Love... with a Caring Touch from someone who Loves you.
(music) Love is Like A Butterfly (Dolly Parton) [2:21] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywFx-nGZXxI

(music) Follow (Richie Havens) [6:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjefIsixrfU