posted September 24, 2018 08:41 PM            

I apparently went to this apartment and met up with my grade 3 crush. He wasn't a kid, but he was his high school self. I still think he is attractive even in real life but not enough for me to do what I did in the dream. He was also in his school uniform. We were flirting and then he kissed me. I kissed back. Moments later, I realized what I had just done. It wasn't like those back in time dreams. In the dream, I was already with my current boyfriend. I felt horrible and ran out. I went looking for my boyfriend to tell him honestly what happened and apologize. I was willing to do what it takes to make it up for him. Ironically, I had to climb this fake hill that was set up in the middle of a race track. I kept climbing to no avail. I slid down the hill and woke up.

posted October 01, 2018 07:02 PM            

It sounds like maybe whatever 'guiltiness' mentioned... could be in the form of a mild self-judging that you found yourself slipping into being "naughty" for that surprising (innocent) spontaneous-romantic surge? Surprised that you acted on it?

When you went to confess to him (in the dream), perhaps that could indicate a sexual tension-- I would think it's a sexual playful lure? Sexual tension, feeling that you want him to dominate you somewhat??

Why didn't he show any kind of mild jealousy that this kiss happened?

Could you be wanting to 'test' him?
Why is he not responsive?
Is he that way in real life?
Do you need him to show you more liking or affection?
What do you need from him?
If he were to respond to you (in the dream), what (in your imagination) would he be saying? (Make up words).

Sliding down the hill.. could be sexual energy.

Also reminds me of the mythological Sisyphus?
He was punished by having to roll a boulder up a steep cliff/hill. Just as he gets to point of victory, the rock slips and he and the rock tumble back down-- only to have to start all over again.

This 'hill' was silly looking and in the middle of a race track? Something is not resolving?? It keeps going around in circles, and frustration is mounting..
Mountain was once a mole hill?

(music) Talking in Your Sleep (The Romantics) [3:54] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmGMzyajA2U

(music) Going in Circles (The Gap Band) [5:33] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83KDr5DSxI4

{sorry it took so long to answer}

How do you feel about the dream, now that you have had some time to think about it?

posted October 04, 2018 03:27 AM            

Well, in the dream, I didn't really make it to him because of the hill I was climbing. I woke up before I got to him to tell him everything.

posted October 04, 2018 11:07 AM            

I see that you are already thinking it out.

Venus in Scorpio is going retrograde for a while, in your house of romance. It will back across and into Libra where you have Chiron (and loosely Mars) Libra, then will turn on Chiron degree to go forward again. Resolution. This will take everyone into December this year. (I haven't checked the exact dates.)

You might want to check what was happening when Venus was on your Chiron Libra (opp Saturn Aries) last time. Uranus will be opposite her while Uranus retreats back to Aries (coming near your Saturn again) for the final time, before turning around and going back to Taurus.

Pull out your chart, and ephemeris, and any memories or diaries (or LL postings you've made) during those transit dates. Something is being reviewed. You might see improvements?, or, that it's time to let it go? Maybe it could be transformed into another way of being, rather than a quit?

It is a time of 'testing' relationships, and your associations, dreams, and aspirations.

It's okay for you to take an inner-break and really examine this for yourself. See what you truly feel and would want for your future.