posted July 18, 2020 08:15 AM            

Yesterday i have a rough time in the recording of my band's album... And after realizing we have to start all over again i felt very powerless and depressed. As this proyect is already taken a year. And how things were going were good up until this thing happened.

Second
With the covid-19 thing which so far i've tried my best to take care of myself and my family and friends, as i shut down mostly and just recently going out(with masks and cleaning my hands where possible) I yesterday ordered food from an outside place, because i was very angry and ****** from the failed experience in the studio, and the guy cooking was coughing a little bit. And i was kinda worried but still took the food anyway.

The dream of having a blood clot in one of my lung just happened a few hours ago, but it made me really scared, and i'm scared now. Scared of my future and scared of soon getting covid... And how things are going in my country(paraguay) i'll be ****** if i get covid. And because of a silly mistake of ordering food by being ****** .

Maybe i'm just stressed out of so many things, but hope this just was a ****** dream and not some premonition of stuff to come, as i tend to have lots of premonitory dreams every once in a while.

posted July 18, 2020 12:22 PM            

I can VERY much relate to what you're saying.

We each have GOOD Common Sense-- and sometimes, instead of "doing" what we know is correct, we'll get murky and fudge and smudge it, overriding the reality of what can happen if we CONTINUE to 'ignore' it!
Be CAREFUL to honor that good sense and intuition.

Practical ---
Part of what I want to say, is PLEASE self-quarantine for the proper number of days now that you 'may' have been served food by a COVID-19 infected person--

Positive {sorta}
I'd HOPE that he wouldn't be standing up cooking if he were sick *cross-fingers*? -- Some people live with naturally mucous junky-lungs and coughs--- because they smoke, live around bad air, or have allergies.
This guy has been standing over the air of greasy-cooking, which could also get into his breathing too?

So MAYBE there's a chance of that {what I said}.

You ---
Right now, "just in case" --
Put in your mind that MAYBE the guy had Junky-Lungs.
Take GOOD Care of your body with good foods and get rested. DO the things that YOU know gives your own immune system strength to fight off germs.

Next ---
haha... Next time your GOOD Common Sense says something?? then HONOR it. Pretend you're a germ-phobe, and those other people {if they noticed} will let you slide.

It's better to err on the side of 'cautions' right now.

That frustration you're feeling, reflects the frustrated sky energies right now.

I remember having taken part of projects before that I thought might have turned out horrible, and after a REST from it, later, it actually wasn't bad! It could be used or salvaged.

Perhaps your album will be same way.

___
So. I added the 'practical' for this.
Ayelet gave you other things to consider.

Also....
If you have anything inside your feelings that needs to feel its sadness and cry over something, then take advantage right now to let those feelings flow out.

{Lungs, congested =
could be unprocessed grief}

posted July 18, 2020 05:42 PM            

The psyche thing is more or less is that right now I'm very demoralized by the big failure I have, and what irritates me it's that the way things were constructed failed, rather than the proyect of the album per se. Thought the way I planned, which was the most planned thing I ever did in my life so far was very good, and even with the covid running wild, thought that things would be done pretty soon, yesterday, it all broke down, and I have to start all over again the process... the recording process.

As on the physical and practical part, yes Mirage, you're right. I have to be more careful, the thing was, yesterday at that moment, I was angry, and hungry, pretty bad combination. Normally I wouldn't eat something from an outside place with the conditions we're living here, Specially in Paraguay, where, or people don't give a **** , because most of the country now are on the verge of economical brokenness, or are too numb with misinformation and all of that stuff. But I tend to be careless when I'm on the edge, and that rarely happens so, what happens, will happen anyway.

I'll remain away from the world for a while, and regroup my energy to continue with my record, as for me, it's the best thing I've done, and I'll make sure to get that baby out there in the world, where it belongs.

Let's see how things go from here onwards

Stay safe both of you

posted July 22, 2020 02:34 PM            

Meditation also helps fight stress and strengthen the immune system.

Maybe in a week or more when you think you're fine, get your lungs checked?

Also fyi for about 5 years I've had a chronic cough long before covid. It's an inflammation thing for me + autoimmune issue. I get funny stares from people nowadays. (funnily enough it's a lil less now)