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ilunatique
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posted September 12, 2020 04:48 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi everyone,

In the beginning of September until now, I went back to my own space, my rented student apartment (in another city where I study and work).
I was and still am happy to be on my own, I really enjoy my alone time now. I've been with people nonstop since march (mom, boyfriend).

But..

I've been waking up nonstop. Every.Night.
Since I got back here.

All my life, I have traveled a lot, slept in all kinds of places. I moved all my life, I had to travel this summer also. No sleeping problems.

...

Since I work from home 9-14, I have a stable program, wake up naturally at the same hour and go to sleep around the same hour. I go to sleep with no stress, usually tired. My psychologist was surprised about this because I stick to a very balanced and stable program, my body/sleep should be very fine.

But.. I fall asleep... just to end up waking up at around 2-3am. Sometimes 4am but usually 2-3am. Its been 2 weeks like this. I prayed, did extra exercise, I visited a friend yesterday to talk about anything else, I started seeing a psychologist online this week and so maybe he can help but I don't believe he is open to dream interpretation, so im posting here:

These past 5 days, I have been dreaming of cats in my childhood home EACH NIGHT. It never happened to me, I didnt give it much attention either. I do not own a cat, mom has one since I was young and now that cat is taking my place (its her baby now ).

First day: I was in my childhood home at the door, inside. Many cats were outside of the house and kept trying to get in. The door wouldn't close properly so I had to stay at the door and try to keep the cats outside of my house. I was shooing them away and acting like a door to the house.
Second day: Again, childhood home with my mother and I was wearing the stuffed skin and head of my mothers cat. Yeah. No feelings there, I just dreamt the image of me wearing the stuffed cat.
Third day: Same home, my mother left the house without the cat. I remained there and I could see the cat crying and walking around rooms desperately, in the hope that he could find mom. I called my mother and told her that she was crazy, how could she leave the cat etc. No one cared, the cat was crying.
Fourth day: For some reason I was eating the leg of my cat. I let the cat go and I could see how I completely ate the flesh with fur, there was just a bone. I tried to hide this from my family but eventually they saw it. They didnt believe it was me who did it, so instead my mother started arguing with the aunt - that she did it and so on.
Fifth day: I was locked with a gray fluffy cat in the bathroom. It jumped around the furniture and managed to get out of the window, that is too small for a human to escape.

Wtf?.
I have never, ever, in my life, had dreams in a row like this. Neither did I dream so much of a specific symbol before.
PS: When talking to my boyfriend about this we remembered that in September 2018 (when I began my last year of highshool), I would wake up every damn night just the same. It happened for an entire month and then I had a sleep paralysis that ended it all, and it was the one I talked about in this topic: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum15/HTML/004278.html (Sleep paralysis demon, around september 2018).

P.S.S.: Please, if anyone is inspired or has the time, please recommend me books about dream interpretation. I want to learn to do this myself, for myself. I started a dream journal already, I have a lot of dreams noted and I really want to understand why I dream what I dream. It would be really helpful for me now, maybe I come to an answer about all of this and start sleeping fine again.

Thank you. Just book recommendations/good information sources would be extremely helpful for me. right now.

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Ayelet
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posted September 12, 2020 08:09 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi ilunatique,
Many years ago I've read a book about dream interpretation by Derek & Julia Parker. I have also been conducting a dream journal for many years. Documenting your dreams on a regular basis can help understand yourself and reality.
I understand you're not interested in any insight concerning your dreams. If you'd like to read what are mine or other people's impressions, let us know.

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ilunatique
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posted September 12, 2020 11:46 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi Ayelet!

Thank you so much for the book recommendation!!!

If anyone feels free to comment about my dreams, it would be very nice - but I dont force anything . That is why I mostly just look after book recommendations.

Hope youre ok.

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posted September 12, 2020 01:20 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi ilunatique, you're welcome
I will not elabore, but will write a few words:
In this time of korona fears can be accentuated. The child within will not die upon taking responsibility. Could you have a heart to heart conversation with your mother about how you still need her support, even when you're embarking on your independence? The inner child doesn't have to die. Do you feel like you're eating your own leg? Do you have any doubts about the route you're taking? Remember you can always connect to your inner child and inner wisdom, and be as small as it takes to escape through the small window.

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posted September 12, 2020 03:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hey, that's very interesting:


"Could you have a heart to heart conversation with your mother about how you still need her support, even when you're embarking on your independence?"

My mom was never a point of support for me - our relationship is warm but reticent from my side due to our troubled past. Also, she was never really able to support herself either.

At first when I went to University away from home, I felt bad thinking that I will leave my mother behind, alone - no home, no stable source of income, no good things etc. Sadly I read a journal of her when I was very small and I found out that I was the only thing keeping her alive - "supporting" her maybe.

Even if I sometimes needed her support throughout my life, she wasn't able to be positive with me. Her life darkened her a lot. Also..financially, its horrible.

"Do you feel like you're eating your own leg? Do you have any doubts about the route you're taking?"

I dont know what eating my own leg really means. I dont doubt myself, I am still exploring life and so far my route has been very positive.
Maybe I have doubts about mom, might be more plausible.

"Remember you can always connect to your inner child and inner wisdom, and be as small as it takes to escape through the small window."

Thank you

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posted September 12, 2020 06:17 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You're welcome, ilunatique, it looks like you're connecting the dots of this puzzle of dreams.
Have a great time on your positive route!

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posted September 13, 2020 06:55 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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ilunatique
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posted September 16, 2020 07:43 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
After posting this topic, I still dreamt my childhood home, but I was planning to leave it. Decided to not take the train (thats what i use when travelling there), but to ride on a horse instead, back to the city where I study and I am living in atm.

Next day, no dream, no problem sleeping. I was so happy, i thought the cat dreams all ended, lol.

But on 15th and today I am back to dreaming of cats and waking up a ton of times in the middle of the night.

Now I dream of cats where I am currently living (city where I study). Its like I really left my childhood home in the dream state and now I am in my current city, and I see cats here too!

Last night I dreamt that I had my mother's cat here with me but the cat decided to live on its own outside of the apartment where I am in atm. I would look at it from the window and try to call the cat home with me, but it didnt want to come. I could see that it was hungry and not feeling so well, it tried to hunt birds from the garden surrounding my apartment. I really hoped it would come inside but to no avail.

PS. I looked for the book you recommended me Ayelet, the last edition was in 2007. I hoped that I could find it on scribd or I could buy it online but I couldnt. I will probably buy it in physical form next month or in November.

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posted September 16, 2020 06:33 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi ilunatique, I read this book as a teen, maybe even before. It was translated to Hebrew, and I still have it! Maybe you can find others, more "contemporary" books. You could download a sample perhaps (like on 'kindle') and see if they fit.

Could it be that in this last dream you've mentioned, you were your mother, while the "independent cat", going to live out there instead of staying with you, was you? What do you think of such an interpretation? What would you make of it? And perhaps there is another twist here: who's having a hard time staying on their own? The cat? Your mother, maybe, the way you perceive her? According to what you've told before, it isn't you who is having a hard time being on her own.

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posted September 17, 2020 07:59 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I dont own a kindle, but I will keep searching.

Mom never wanted me to settle in a place with her.
She actually always urged me to study as much as I can, run after all the opportunities (and damn, I really am doing this now - I am an intern in a huge global company atm). Even guided me to get out of this country and leave it, lol.

I don't know if its my mother, I really have no idea what this cat symbolism could entail... I've been wondering about this since I started having these dreams.

Weird:

Days ago I shooed cats away from my childhood home, now I want my cat to actually come back in my current apartment.

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posted September 17, 2020 11:00 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi,
You don't need to own a kindle. You can read the e-books from your phone and/or computer. Kindle is not only a device. It's an Amazon's application, open for use from almost every device you have.

Concerning the "Weird": ambivalence?
Or: away from your childhood's house, yet in with you in your current apartment - it may be not contradictory at all.
You don't want the cats in your childhood home. But you do want the cat in your apartment. It might show where your heart is right now.
And this thing about: they come where you don't want them - and go where you DO want it. Do you feel like this is a dynamic you know from your life, or else emotionally?

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posted September 17, 2020 01:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I would add that the Kindle reader is free.

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posted September 17, 2020 03:35 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
The overdrive website connects people to their libraries online. You can look books up there, if they're in your library (or available on overdrive). Hoopla is another one you can try.

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